Sunday, December 21, 2008
hmms.
i wonder.
is it really hard to understand a person?
just now heard andy said.
i don't know her well enuff.
well.
after putting a few thoughts to it.
maybe it's for real.
she might be faking it?
oh my.
that makes me wonder.
she might really just faking it and who knows.
andy sure do know her more den i know her.
she maybe just freaking don't like me too.
maybe i'm just too irritating or whatever shit.
asked the bro what she doing.
but she was playing.
and my message wasnt replied as well.
how sad can this be.
haiz.
is this for real?
i wonder.
everything she said.
i kind of..
not really believe in it anymore.
it even makes me hesitate whether or not to talk to her.
i somehow not really believing in everyones words.
its like.
you see.
a person can lied all she wants to.
like my previous experienced.
sandy.
she's just a pure lier.
i couldn't believe what she really was.
i can't even trust that her name was sandy.
what was this.
tell u what.
i have zero-good impression on love.
everytime was just a bad impression.
negative totally.
and wow.
what is this.
am i really need to be tortured in anyway like that?
i only wanted a taste of true love.
but they doesn't give me.
the way they make me feel that.
they are toying me or whatever.
why can't i enjoy my life happily?
i want to step out of this love thingy.
but its like..
impossible?
i couldn't find the determination and encouragement to do so.
everytime i walk a few step away.
i couldn't control myself to keep on but to turn back.
its like im stuck in it.
i just don't know what i can use to explain what i feel now.
just..
hope you all can understand?
can i really trust human beings?
i wish i can..
as for her.
i really wish that.
i trusted you.
wasn't a wrong choice.
i'm confused.......
`i can never forget that light, of you emits
2:16 AM