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Wednesday, February 4, 2009

tadah!
changed blogskin ledi.
hahas.
tell u all wad.
I LOVE TAN ZHI QING!!!
i don't want and won't change my love for her!
but den.
does she even loves me ._.
ahahahas.
well.
as long as she's happy.
i'm fine with anything.
i just wish she won't lie to me.
oh well.
lets see what i have to post.
hmms.

on 2nd feb.
me and andy went to nyp for appeal.
well.
there are sign boards everywhere prepared for those who wanted to appeal.
so we followed it to the place where there are alot ppl inside.
alot course councellor and ppl who wanted to appeal.
yea.
there are boards for us to look at those course too.
and its recent COP, 2009 one.
so we took our time and look thru the COP of courses.
and noted alot changes of COP in our course.
soon.
we walked to the lappy and start appealing.
wow. when we reading thru the instructions.
it goes like. "woah!"
"Students who wishes to appeal have to met the mininum requirement and COP"
wth?
COP also must meet.
den when u want to appeal.
there are selections wher u can make only if u are eligble.
so the choice for me with 24 pointer.
is only around 10 course .____.
lols~
so in the end i couldn't make any appeal.
and gonna stick back my course.
which is interactive digital media.
republic poly.
awwww.
that wasnt really a course i wanted.
oh well.
thats life isn't it ;)
andy.
well.
he doesn't want to let ppl know what he was been posted.
so i'm ain't saying.
but he did appeal for courses.
well.
good luck to andy =)
after that.
we went to eat.
omgosh!
the food there was supreme!
extremely nice and cheap.
that was cool!
i wish i could study there and eat the food there -.-
well well.
after we ate finish.
i went to andy house.
reason is simple.
because of xiu yan.
oh please take note.
xiu yan is zhi qing and zhi qing is xiu yan.
blehhs =p
and i love her hohoho
xD
well.
slack at her house till 7+ where xian came.
and 9+ i jiu go home le.
but be4 i went home.
went with andy to buy things for his parent.
den go str8 home after that.
wanted to know why i so earlier go home.
because i swallowed a whole bottle of vinegar ==
lolol.
ahahahas.
oh well.
its past.
don care le.

on 3rd feb.
early in the morning jiu went xiu yan house.
*watch her slp =x*
ahahas.
but i scared her =(
sorries~
also can't blame.
i wasn't her bf or wad.
in her room looking at her -.-
it seems more like perverted rather than zheng chang.
lolol.
ahahahas.
den jiu went to cwp at 5+
with andy, xian and xiu yan.
den andy went to apply for job at sakae sushi.
best luck to u (again ._. i guess u really need alot of luck -.-)
den he went to fetch liyan.
den me, xian, xiu yan, andy, liyan went to eat pizza =D
at pizza hut of cus.
well.
after that.
jiu went to andy house slack again.
went home at 12.

ok.
just like that.
today not much to say.
stayed at home.
thou got abit emo-ed during morning.
becus of some prob.
well.
ahahahas.
to tell u all.
i'm really stressed up -.-
love is totally more difficult den studies.
i even o levels also no stress le.
den this love thingy make me stress dao i nth to say.
but den.
thats maybe what makes me have a life.
look.
be4 i started to get along back with xiu yan.
my life was empty.
everyday sleep more den 12 hours.
like nobody business.
and i don't like that.
now.
i sleep less den 5 hours a day.
becus i sleep late.
but wake up early to sms with her.
it makes me feel i got a life to carry on.
and i have to move on.
ahahahas.
well.
but maybe i'm not really her type.
we're not that destinated, are we?
well then.
i'll just keep on waiting for her.
even if it's just a one sided love.
care not if it's worth it or not.
i love her alot.
ok. ending here le.
cya guys.
buaissss~

*Add-on* edited at 12am.
i said something i can't really forgive myself to xy.
i don't know why i said that.
it's like yi qi zhi xia jiu say out le.
during that time.
my anger overtake me.
then the love is like change to hate.
i totally hate her ==
i hate her that she hide from me.
i hate her that she treats me so cold.
and i hate her when she lies to me.
but i still love her.
after awhile later.
the anger was gone.
the hate was gone too.
i dunno how to jiao dai zzzz.
suan le ba.
even if i never said those things.
its like we got no jie guo already.
i can sense no love from her.
i've nvr got any comfort from her that i wanted.
i've nvr hear any words from her that i wanted.
just a simple i love you from herself would be good.
and not when i say i wanna hear it.
its kinda pathetic.
that i always ask for 1.
but i always wanted to hear it.
it gave my heart the secure i need that shows that she loves me.
but.
is it even true?
i don't want any lies.
if she don't love me.
please say you don't.
and that will help me.
because i won't be given false hope that you're loving me.
but let me know you aren't.
after sending those stupid idiot sms.
xiu yan.
if you're reading.
i only can say.
i'm sorry.

i love her
i love her
i love her
i love her
i love her
i love her!!!!!

`i can never forget that light, of you emits

5:02 PM

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