If love can be attain by just saying I Love You..
tha love would not last any further..
for a love to last..
it's all about the trust that we have..
With trust.. there's no need for these words..



Being kept by the darkness..
being devoured as time goes on..
being forgotten when time flews..
light is the one i need..
and that, will always be you..

MY MEMORIES

Saturday, May 30, 2009

alright alright~
it's time to post.
it's the 70th post here now.
although i already thought of giving this blog up.
but then still want to post bahhs.
since someone is complaining in the tagbox ya? =x
hahas.
but then it's like i don't know how to crap already.
lols.
know what?
i've changed sooooo much from the past.
the day i stepped into RP.
everything changed.
but i wonder,
is this change, good or bad?
i not really very sure.
this change is putting me to a very hard to trust personality.
For my old friends.
I know u all would trust me.
Because i'm still a old lamer who is reliable.
right?
but now.
i don't even trust myself anymore.
it's more like i'm changing to a person who are not reliable anymore.
I'm a total different person.
And this type of personality.
Is a type where it is hard to get along well, get trust.
Can you get my idea?
I don't know what changes me so much.
But i know i can't go back already.
I have to stay what am i now.
and i'm tired of it.
What can i do?
I wanna become the quiet old me.
hides in one corner.
have a few best friends.
or maybe now, having my stead beside me everyday.
It's more than enough.
I don't want wad good grades or a lot of friends.
I just need her to be beside me.
And won't leave me.
I don't want her to leave me.
I want to take care of her.
Not letting her hurt.
But due to my jealous.
I made her sad a few times.
Due to my attitude change.
The trust couldn't reach the maximum.
I blame myself for becoming like this.
And now i will put in even more to retain her trust.
And pull her to my side.
and to not easily jealous.
I tried.
and keep trying.
And i wish i can do it.


ok.
enough of sad stories i guess.
saying those make me now even more sad.
I don't know why a sudden sadness struck me.
OK.
let's go back to the happy carefree go lucky guy.
Mood swing? ._.
probably.
due to some reason in the past ba.
today going to brant bday party.
Wish everything go smoothly.
YOU GOT IT?
i'm telling heaven that today would be my happy day.
so i will make sure IT don't do anything stupid.
HAHA!.
i'm talking to myself.
yet i claim to be talking to the gods.
god bless you man.
i feel like that the person which are reading this.
You want to call the mental hospital number?
sorry, i don't have.
But i'm still normal.
don't worry.
If not i dunno why i'm here posting already.
It's to make my reader happy!
but having some mental problem right now.
i guess it's not a good time to post anymore.
Stay tune!
I'll be right back.
in a few days/weeks/months time. =x
byeeeeeeeeeeeeee

`i can never forget that light, of you emits

9:19 AM

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__--"MY PROFILE"--__
MingYi aka f0rg0tt3n
Single
17
28th nov
Sheep
ahbeng__91@hotmail.com


__--"LIKES"--__

FREEDOM!
piano~
piggy *oink
dreaming
CyBeR world
sleeping zZzZz
blogging
GameS

__--"HATES"--__

L0ve
backstabbers
betrayers
bullys
fate and destiny
make ppl hurt/sad
being ordered around

__--"WISHES"--__

to have a keyboard(piano)
to learn piano
more wealthy
japan's long hairstyle
a own computer
a new handphone
my own room
get rid of my bad habits
become fit
slim down
reached height at least 170
a better & peaceful life
frenship last forever
pass 'O' level
get a poly diploma

__--"BESTIES"--__

ban zhi lu =DD (andy)
NaCl dragon =xx (xian)
xinxin x3 (qixin)
fishy x3 (yu hui)
xIa0-zHuzhU x3 (xiu yan)
yanzi~ (liyan)
teddy~ (tabby)
tang guo~ (candiie)
hei xiong xD(hong jin)
gan tang ;o(alwin)
jerome =] (B-tard)
charmaine =] (char)
lily =] (lili)
florence =] (flor)