Tuesday, September 21, 2010
You really fucking hit me in the wrong spot now. Did you know how pain it is? How many times do you want me to fall that you would be happy. It's feel like hell inside me now. I really hate you, that you made me hate myself. Yea i'm just a spoilt brat, i'm just so lucky. Too lucky to be inside this family, where everyone's suffering except me. I'm enjoying. But why i don't feel it? Yea probably, i only have relationship problems. Why the hassle to bring them into my life? couldn't i just enjoy if it wasn't without them? so why did i even choose to like you? and how much do you really understand me? why do you want to act like you know everything of me? I had the best life? i'm good and kind person? what do you know? how long have you know me? how deep did you know me? you just say you know a person after looking only at the surface? if it was, why i feel that so little people understands me? and when you say you understand me just like that? what about my best friends who understands me? they don't understand me just because they look at me and know me just like that. It's because they was with me all the time i need help. yea probably my bro and big bro have suffered, and even my mum and dad who suffered even more. Maybe this world just work the way that the younger it is, the lesser suffer they get. Who knows, we don't even know why we are born in the first place. But who knows me? How are you so confident that you know me? what lifestyle have i led, in primary school? in secondary school? and how come i had such a big change after secondary school? and did you even know that i changed in the first place? hey, you know nothing. What am i thinking all the time? what you know? you think you could see through my skull and know what i'm thinking? i'm kind? so where am i kind? i'm just probably acting out. You just look everything in the surface. deep inside, you have not know me. Not to speak of me only, what about yourself? you can't even know what is your feeling inside, and yet you're telling people you understand them? try and understand yourself more, know where you stand. it's not easy to know everything in the world. Don't act a smart head there saying you understand people. Because you don't you're just guessing, assuming, or even lying. People changes, and no one is the same. The world works just like that. We all grow differently, even a small changes now makes a big one in the future. So how can you assume you know another person when you don't know yourself? get yourself right. and stop trying to enter a person's heart when you shouldn't. Because some gates will leads to wounds that will hurt the both party, when you tries to open it.
`i can never forget that light, of you emits
10:38 PM