FateAbyss

2011-02-20T04:50:00.001+08:00

TRUST is like a paper once its crumpled it cant be perfect again you can flatten the paper and try and make it as straight as you want, but it will never be perfect again. (From a friend)

Spread the paper out dap it with water, on the crumpled areas, leave it to dry, iron it, place it under your mattress for 3 days, in 3 days it will be flatten. Trust can be repaired if you give it another chance.

2010-10-21T22:33:00.003+08:00

I have decided to give up, to give up her.

Cause it felt that, she's trying to kept up with the both of us.

Why so stress?

if 1 of us stop it, probably it will be even better, easier.

or maybe i should say that probably i shouldn't have started it in the first place.

I'm just an extra fella that suddenly pops into the camera, and now it's time for this extra fella to be out of it.

I'm not important, just ignore me, I want to MIA from everyone, but can I?

I'm not too sure myself either.

2010-10-16T13:17:00.002+08:00

i hear my heart cracking again.

i really don't know what to do le.

i have no idea what you're doing too.

cause what you do is out of my expectation.

do you really..?

2010-10-14T22:14:00.003+08:00

Hey, i'm happy today.

because you reassured me, my heart is pieced up again.

But please don't break it again, it's still under construction, it's fragile.

i really love what we've done today, it really makes me feel so happy.

I finally had my chance, i have the chance to know that at least your heart still haves me.

That is why my confidence came back.

But everything is still in your hands.

My mood will be easily affected, especially with your actions, by intentionally or unintentionally.

They will come haunting me.

I still wanna thanks you, thank you for the chance you have given me :)

2010-10-14T00:36:00.008+08:00

Drafted at 13/10/10

I don't know why, but those feelings, they just keep growing and growing, till i have no idea how am i going to resist it anymore, any longer.
They just kept flowing out and out.
If you have ever realize, that how hard am i in that position, where i can't do anything.
I can't even show anything, i only could watch everything.
Without any ability to stop what i couldn't like.
I don't know what to do anymore, and that's why i wanted to take a break.
Do you know how much it gonna take me to recover from all these?
although we are not together, but all the hopes you have me, it's gonna build up and build up.
Till one day you gonna break the first piece and the whole block collapsed.
This is where i am now, you're turning those hopes, into false.
That is why, because i hate false hopes.
From the past, i'm a person who thinks a lot, whereby hopes just comes to me too easily.
From there, they became false hope, because they're not there in the first place, it was what people built in me accidentally, without knowing.

Because currently, what i get from you, is not just insecure that all only.

It grew you know?

It really grew.

You let me felt that i'm not important, am I?

If i'm important, den are you really should be doing what you've done?

If you really want me, den why are you still being close to him?

You should know, you can't have both of us, you only can have one.

You can't hesitate, because once you do, we're gonna receive more FALSE hope from you.

Not just me, even him.

You do know that whenever you meet him, you given him a hope, a chance to show you that what he can do to make you love him.

And when that happens, i lost a chance, and i can't do anything.

I can't even show you what i can do, isn't it?

That's where the unfairness came in.

Are you being fair to me?

Because why i felt that, i'm being left out throughout.

Just imagine, you gave me hope, you said you loved me.

Yet outside, i could only sit afar from you, refrain from talking to you, refrain my feelings, and i can't refrain him from doing anything to you.

So what am i?

A loner?

I can't do anything.

That is why i'm jealous.

I'm jealous about him.

He has all the chance he want, everyone let him chance to proof, our clique have all already approved the both of you.

But not me, i'm just an extra one out.

When one day, even i'm with you, what will the people think?

Are we not gonna influenced by the outsides?

Sorry, i doubt so.

Because you have no idea how fierce the battle will be when everyone is against you.

I've experienced it before, where all the people are giving the eyes on you.

So did you know why i want to give it a break?

Because time has proved me all these.

I can't take it, i felt so stress all of the sudden.

You're the one being loved, i'm the one loving.

I just have no idea how am i suppose to love you..

2010-10-10T03:53:00.002+08:00

今天不知为什么，我中觉得心里不安，打从下午就有这不安的心情，引向了我一整天。但是又是一种我说不清的感觉，我努力的，尽量说出来，却反复地说了说，答案都不和我心意。我不知道是不是因为你，是不是我真的不想失去你，但是有着预感，我是握不住你的。我也是，慢慢的，对爱情感到恐惧。我不敢再爱了，因为我失去了我所有的勇气，去再次的面对着，这些我无法解决的问题。我问了你，你爱我吗？是因为我需要的是安定，我需要你的承诺，让我对自己，再次有了信心。你却没回答，不管你是有意不回答，或是忘了回答，我的今夜，需要和思想一起睡了。我心里得不到答案，我的心灵就好像失去了它的光芒。就像一只鸟，它失去了翅膀，一棵树，失去了树根，一颗心，失去了灵。我无法真正的用字来形容我现在的感觉，只借用这来帮我簌簌心情。

i really don't know why, i'm feeling so insecure, so unsecured. it feels like everything is pushing me down on the weight. I'm worried that i'm gonna fall to the ground anytime now, i just couldn't get myself right. This is the first time, that my heart feels so heavy, so many things inside, that i could never use words to explain. is it because you're way too important that i can't lose you? You are the girl, that i have found, to be the most right in my life. You are just like my other half. A perfect piece that if i lost you, i would never ever find one again. i have too many ill experiences in my life. That forgetting them is way too hard. They just keep on building scars and scars on my heart, thou they will recover from the injury, but they will leave the scar there forever. These scars, when i saw them, i felt so scared. I don't want the same slash that cut me to cut me once again. If you say you're phobia of r/s, i think now i understand, because right now, I'm feeling damn scared, worried, afraid of everything. I just don't want to lose you. I need you. I'm feeling so uneasy, and i don't know how to cure. I don't want to sleep, because i know my thoughts will bring me to a terrifying place that i would never want to go. I want my path, to be once again, lit up with your lights, that i know, i'll never go wrong again.

2010-09-23T20:23:00.004+08:00

I want to give up, yet hopes keep on falling on me, and then it slips off. You make my mind wandered around every time. I really don't understand what you want. What you feel. You're too hard for me to understand. What do you really want me to do. Did you know my heart really very sick of all these injuries you giving me? I'm really tired. can i get some rest?

wo zhen de lei le, wo neng fang qi ma?

2010-09-21T22:38:00.002+08:00

You really fucking hit me in the wrong spot now. Did you know how pain it is? How many times do you want me to fall that you would be happy. It's feel like hell inside me now. I really hate you, that you made me hate myself. Yea i'm just a spoilt brat, i'm just so lucky. Too lucky to be inside this family, where everyone's suffering except me. I'm enjoying. But why i don't feel it? Yea probably, i only have relationship problems. Why the hassle to bring them into my life? couldn't i just enjoy if it wasn't without them? so why did i even choose to like you? and how much do you really understand me? why do you want to act like you know everything of me? I had the best life? i'm good and kind person? what do you know? how long have you know me? how deep did you know me? you just say you know a person after looking only at the surface? if it was, why i feel that so little people understands me? and when you say you understand me just like that? what about my best friends who understands me? they don't understand me just because they look at me and know me just like that. It's because they was with me all the time i need help. yea probably my bro and big bro have suffered, and even my mum and dad who suffered even more. Maybe this world just work the way that the younger it is, the lesser suffer they get. Who knows, we don't even know why we are born in the first place. But who knows me? How are you so confident that you know me? what lifestyle have i led, in primary school? in secondary school? and how come i had such a big change after secondary school? and did you even know that i changed in the first place? hey, you know nothing. What am i thinking all the time? what you know? you think you could see through my skull and know what i'm thinking? i'm kind? so where am i kind? i'm just probably acting out. You just look everything in the surface. deep inside, you have not know me. Not to speak of me only, what about yourself? you can't even know what is your feeling inside, and yet you're telling people you understand them? try and understand yourself more, know where you stand. it's not easy to know everything in the world. Don't act a smart head there saying you understand people. Because you don't you're just guessing, assuming, or even lying. People changes, and no one is the same. The world works just like that. We all grow differently, even a small changes now makes a big one in the future. So how can you assume you know another person when you don't know yourself? get yourself right. and stop trying to enter a person's heart when you shouldn't. Because some gates will leads to wounds that will hurt the both party, when you tries to open it.

2009-06-08T00:31:00.002+08:00

helololololololo
note: it's hello lo lo lo lo lo

i'm here to post again lerhhs.
well.
alot things happen ya.
let's talk about brant bday party.
FIRST!
ok.
happening on 30 may.
hmms.
started off with me going dover fetch lily.
and back to admiralty.
met andy and liyan at andy house first.
around 5+
den we go brant house tgt.
at there.
met all my ex sch friends.
was fun.
i was with lily all the time.
hahas.
but something bad happen.
which i don't wish to say anymore.
hmms.
den have the buffet there.
lily eat so little!
all i take for her de food
all put on my plate.
-.-
angry~
the food was okok luhhs.
only got 1 is super salty one ._.
lolol.
den after that.
at night.
birthday cake come le.
hohoho.
the most funny part.
twenyo!
the pro lighter 'man'.
with a huge flame.
chu stunt kia.
start off with photo taking session.
but all keep want to run like that.
nvm.
after that.
first kiss of brant is given to his stead.
then.
the blowing of candles.
in one breath.
brant failed 3 times.
den finally passed.
(twenyo keep light up the candle of those candles if he nvr blow all candles)
after that.
send lily to mrt.
i went back to brant house.
drink with them.
talk abt alot things.
play poker.
not bad sia my jiu liang.
maybe sometime i can train on it.
boost it.
naturally pro + training will become very pro.
haha!
after that.
stayed overnight there.
shared bed with twenyo.
while andy sleep beside me also.
but his on the floor.
NAKED SOMEMORE!
no la.
is he take out shirt.
i also dunno why.
already super cold.
he still can take out shirt.
nth to say.
lolol.
i sleep at around 4+.
till 6+.
twenyo wake up.
den i was chatting with him.
he went to toilet.
den andy come up and sleep at the bed.
when twenyo come back.
he keep play the fan.
use the fan and blow us.
(the air con was soooooo cold already)
then was lame la.
den 7+
he went out.
he going to work also.
den me and andy sleep.
den i the last to wake up.
i think.
and went with wei lun and andy to buy breakfast for all ppl.
ride bicycle.
then bought 9 chicken rice, 3 packet roti prata (total 9 rotiprata)lolol.
then we all got chicken rice to eat.roti prata only for those who went to buy breakfast.
which is the 3 of us.
cus we suddenly feel like eating.
haha!
then after that.
hiro they all say wanna play pool.
den i wanna go fetch lily and play too.
so zui hou.
went to fetch lily.
but they say very late le.
so no go play.
den we went to brant house instead.
at there.
we played with twenyo.
(actually is he come find us)
we played alot of things.
first is guess hand.
lose de drink.
(he sponsored breezer)
den he keep lose to me.
after that.
is play hit hand.
sissor paper stone
(u guys know that twenyo love this game during sec sch -.-)
after that.
is hit leg.
after that.
is hit chest.
i almost killed by him.
._.
den he also got play guess hand with lily.
but i help her drink.
of cus =)
hahas.
then we leave at 10+.
thats all i think.

next i would be talking abt 6 june de thing.
sentosaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
went to celebrate liyan bday(7 june)
btw happy birthday to liyan again.
well.
first off.
meet andy, liyan and xian at andy house.
around 9+
den at 10,
went down.
found out andy nvr bring something.
wait him go up take.
den come down le.
we go up again.
why?
because of liyan's make up have something occur.
then need do again.
den done le.
go down again.
den andy forget to take money.
go up again.
wait again.
den finally back down.
and finally can go.
went to cwp.
breadtalk.
met yu hui.
den we went to cold storage to shop.
bought alot tibits.
drinks.
xian and me bought 2 breezer.
hahas.
den we went to toastbox.
with the birthday cake from breadtalk.
at there wait for yiru and teresa.
den finally they came.
and celebrate le.
was lame lols.
abit guai guai de qi fen.
hahas.
den we went to vivo by mrt.
reached there.
around 12+ le.
den walk around national geographic.
(also dunno why they go in -.-)
den finally
we go take bus go sentosa le.
we went to siloso beach
known as 'she also bitch' by our group.
there's one funny thing.
we discussed.
abt this.
we can write in our post like that.

"today, we went to she also bitch."
"the bitch is so hot."
"it makes me feel so hot."
"it's so hot that finally i lie down on the bitch."
"and enjoy the feeling."

ok although some part i came up with myself.
it's still nice.
HAHA!
that's super lame can?
cus u know why we will think dao?
cus is within me andy and xian.
andy called out for me.
and say we going to siloso beach.
den i was like "HuH??"
"did i just heard she also bitch?"
replied, who bitch? what thing bitch.
andy say, huh? u dunno where is siloso beach?
i reply, huh? what she also bitch?
andy say, siloso beach, a beach in sentosa.
i reply. OHHHHHHHHH siLOso beachhhhh. i told what she also bitch.
andy say, what she also bitch. you den bitch.
xian say, not bad she also bitch.

the conversation was something like that.
i cre8 up by myself abit.
cause can't rmb all.
then we discuss abt this while walking.
then finally found a spot at the beach.
put our things down.
tanned.
ok.
i nvr bring extra clothes.
cannot go play water.
so sad.
hahas.
ok.
in beach.
nth more to say.
everyone should know we only can do wad in beach.
sun tan.
no more.
hahas.
then we went home.
at dunno what time.
should be 4+ ba.
cant remember.
then we went to swimming complex to swim.
cus it's like me and xian nvr play dao water.
so wanna go swim.
hahas.
after that.
went to find my zha borrrr.
further details.
private confidential.
=)
jiu no more le.
think so.
anyhow write write only.
hahas.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-05-30T09:19:00.002+08:00

alright alright~
it's time to post.
it's the 70th post here now.
although i already thought of giving this blog up.
but then still want to post bahhs.
since someone is complaining in the tagbox ya? =x
hahas.
but then it's like i don't know how to crap already.
lols.
know what?
i've changed sooooo much from the past.
the day i stepped into RP.
everything changed.
but i wonder,
is this change, good or bad?
i not really very sure.
this change is putting me to a very hard to trust personality.
For my old friends.
I know u all would trust me.
Because i'm still a old lamer who is reliable.
right?
but now.
i don't even trust myself anymore.
it's more like i'm changing to a person who are not reliable anymore.
I'm a total different person.
And this type of personality.
Is a type where it is hard to get along well, get trust.
Can you get my idea?
I don't know what changes me so much.
But i know i can't go back already.
I have to stay what am i now.
and i'm tired of it.
What can i do?
I wanna become the quiet old me.
hides in one corner.
have a few best friends.
or maybe now, having my stead beside me everyday.
It's more than enough.
I don't want wad good grades or a lot of friends.
I just need her to be beside me.
And won't leave me.
I don't want her to leave me.
I want to take care of her.
Not letting her hurt.
But due to my jealous.
I made her sad a few times.
Due to my attitude change.
The trust couldn't reach the maximum.
I blame myself for becoming like this.
And now i will put in even more to retain her trust.
And pull her to my side.
and to not easily jealous.
I tried.
and keep trying.
And i wish i can do it.

ok.
enough of sad stories i guess.
saying those make me now even more sad.
I don't know why a sudden sadness struck me.
OK.
let's go back to the happy carefree go lucky guy.
Mood swing? ._.
probably.
due to some reason in the past ba.
today going to brant bday party.
Wish everything go smoothly.
YOU GOT IT?
i'm telling heaven that today would be my happy day.
so i will make sure IT don't do anything stupid.
HAHA!.
i'm talking to myself.
yet i claim to be talking to the gods.
god bless you man.
i feel like that the person which are reading this.
You want to call the mental hospital number?
sorry, i don't have.
But i'm still normal.
don't worry.
If not i dunno why i'm here posting already.
It's to make my reader happy!
but having some mental problem right now.
i guess it's not a good time to post anymore.
Stay tune!
I'll be right back.
in a few days/weeks/months time. =x
byeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-05-08T16:05:00.002+08:00

ok hello guys.
a week has past and i'm here to post.
i think i only have time to post during the weekend.
OR near the weekend?
cause im posting now which is friday and the time is 4+ only.
wow!
this is the ever early time i have came back home.
somemore tml isn't having sch! =(
here are the reasons that my friends gave me that why they doesn't want to come out with me.
jerome - i want to go home early, cause today mother's day
lily - i want to go home also. (but she actually can come out one. i think is she don't want alone)
xian -i 9 den dismiss (totally no chance to ask him out D:)
jin - i want to sleep (he chooses sleep over me)
andy - i very busy (dunno what's he going to busy about)

oh great.
after hearing all this excuses, i totally no mood to go out anymore.
so i didnt ask more ppl le.
(if i nvr jio u, don't blame me)

as for the moving house one.
i think not going to move le.
the HDB give us one more chance to pay up the money.
so if any 1 month we didnt paid the money,
they would come and force us to leave.
lols.
serious man.
every year 2k+
how sian.
sch fees also need pay by myself le.
but im lazy to find a work.
howwwwwwwwwwww
=(

ok.
now say about what has been happening ba.
the Week 3 of RP.
monday to thursday.
after sch.
everyday go play pool.
everyday got jerome and lily.
except for wed which is jerome only.
cus lily was sick. (sick? emo should be the word ;x)
but we also got meet up for dinner.
lols.
at bukit gombak.
that was jerome idea.
because he think dao kopitiam.
jiu think dao there.
(as if there are no more kopitiam in sg -.-)
after eating.
we went to cck lot 1.
walked around the shopping mall.
den came out.
see near the water there.
i on music and blast.
(hey! it's free music there u know? haha!)
until finally they want to go le.
so we went home.
so that's the only special day.
for the daily grades i get for Week 2,
it's 3 A 1 B and 1 C.
it's good to see the 3 A again.
but this time, i had a C.
given by Enterprise module.
wth ._.
so sad.
nvm.
i don't like enterprise module too.
let it get low grade nvm.
as long as don't fail.
haha!
i cannot express out myself in words during enterprise.
so i had a hard time during that module.
=(
so in total i got 6 A, 3 B and 1 C
maybe i'm the highest in class le?
hahas.
who knows =x
but i guess soon will drop lols.
especially when it reaches another semester.
a NEW class.
i bet it won't be as nice as W16J.
the best class!
hahas.
ok.
i think thats all.
hahas.
i go le.
byeeeeeee

2009-05-02T22:18:00.002+08:00

yoz~
here i come~
hahas.
wanna come to talk abt what happen ytd.
hmms.
went to pool with andy, jerome, lily and lovell.
hahas.
was fun.
hahas.
jerome,lily and lovell are all starters.
around there bahhs.
not really very skilled in pool.
so i was there teaching them how to play.
after that, qx came to amk and find us
cus we was going to cele jeff de birthday.
so we all went to bishan.
den bought a thomas cake (the cartoon de train).
den went to pizza hut.
jerome, lily and lovell didn't want to spend too much money and so they left on their own.
we also met mag at bishan.
so me, andy, qx and mag went to pizza hut and eat pizza.
before the pizza came, jeff came.
so we changed our 4 seat table to 5-6 seat table.
not really easy to change to that seat one ==.
hahas.
cus we want sofa.
lolol.
after we had our pizza.
mag went to take the cake and came back to the pizza hut.
den we had a hard time trying to light up the candles.
so we lend one lighter.
we started singing happy birthday song to jeff.
just after we finished singing the song.
the pizzahut on the birthday song music.
hahas.
thats very thoughtful of them.
but qx was at there laughing out loud ._.
lolol.
hahas.
cute luhhs.
;p
den we eat the thomas cake.
not bad lehs.
quite nice to eat.
hahas.
den after every had one piece of it.
we make jeff use the mouth to dig the candle out from the cake.
we didnt want to make it big.
so didnt really push the candle in.
but jeff de nose kena the cake.
hahas.
ok.
den after that.
train-ed home.
andy came to my house with his lappy.
my house was in a mess.
cus my big bro and da sao are clearing my home de things.
i'm moving in a few months time.
due to some reasons.
and was kena force de.
hahas.
nvm.
let's not be troubled with this type of things.
don't worth it.
live happily =)
hahas.
andy stayed at my house until 2 plus.
inside my 'new' room.
hahas.
well.
it's previously so-called storeroom by us.
cus we put everything inside.
now.
it's cleared.
and became my room.
lols.
not bad.
i had my own room finally.
hahas.
and that's all for ytd.
today i stayed home the whole day.
so..
no more things to write.
cya =)

2009-04-26T22:00:00.002+08:00

hello guys.
ahahas.
sry for so long nvr come post lerhhs.
was lazy and tired and busy for this.
ahahaha!
sch start le.
this is the first weekend.
well.
it's true.
everyday presentations.
but den.
it was a great time =)
i love my class, W16J.
i've known alot frens there.
ppl like jerome, charmaine, lily and more of cus.
almost whole class is my frens.
but not yet know all very well.
cus i need be same team as them be4 i can know them well.
hahas.
the daily grades was great too.
hahas.
i've got A A B for 3 of the sub out of 5.
it's quite good already.
(not like jerome, the B-tard) haha!
no offence =x
they are all so friendly.
im glad to be in that class.
hahas.
and the chio bu's will be teresa and lily (that's wad i think haha!)
not bad already.
look at andy's class.
2 girls?
-.-
nvm.
i think like that liyan will be glad.
althou andy will be sad.
lolol~
andy must zhong xin towards liyan.
haha!
i only dislike one thing.
which is RP.
has a fixed timetable.
from 8 30 to 3 30.
aww.
thats super uber bored =(
had to wake so early everyday.
everyday only slp around 3-4 hours.
it can kills ==
(becus my bro on tv and i couldn't get to slp easily)
wish they could change =x
ahahas.
must faster pass the year 1.
so i could take group B modules.
which start at 9 30.
=)
hahas.

ok.
now lets talk abt sat.
went out with xian to pool.
actually still got xian de fren.
but he say he nvr go at the last min.
so no choice.
we at amk le.
so me and xian played alone.
and andy came.
after his cca of archery.
looks fun.
hahas.
but he got sun tanned
lol.
sun burnt too.
hahas.
it was fun hahas.
btw anyone in my class likes to play pool?
come out with me next time =)
hahas.
i bet no ppl from my class would want and would read this blog ==
ok.
after that.
we all went to andy house.
played some dota.
and slack until 2+ before i went home.
went back home.
jiu slp!
hahas.
ok
thats all.
as for today.
using comp the whole day.
played dota and DMC4.
hahas.
ok.
ending here.
buaiis~

2009-04-19T23:24:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
poly is starting tml!
will it be full of fun?
or full of sian-ness?
ahahaha

A new day with a new start, a new poly with a new class. W16J, a new hope.
Challenge the power of problems! Vesus the challenge of presentations!

craps.
looks familiar?
cus i just copied paste from my msn.
for wad? for nth. ;x
i just wanna write for fun.
ahaha!
a few words like this and u all know about me in RP.
haha!

RP, The PBL system arrives!
wondering whats PBL?
it's problem based learning.
a daily problem.
just like what a doctor say.
which turned out to be a lecturer.
a problem a day, keeps the lecturer away.
we are learning in presentations.
whats with the lecturer.
which sit there and mark our presentations.
craps!
we are only teaching ourselves ._.
oh well.
lets get welllll prepared for these.
ima gonna get high tml.
and push everything out!
presentation are no longer what i fear.
it's what i fear that i fear.
so i'm gonna kill that fear and win that fear.
(oh well im crapping again)
HAHA!
get prepared team 1.
we'll be the team that owns the class!
GPA 4!
university!
I WON'T COME!
;x
(cus im poor ya? haha)
cold~
ok i know.
hahas.
it goes like..
testing 1, 2, 3..
cus i'm getting prepared for my highness for tml.
oh well.
but a sleep after this can make me back to normal!
nooooooooooooooo~
haha!
what a lame joke.
ok brb (went to take water)
i'm back!
and yea.
u all should be thinking.
why the hell i write i brb.
when i'm posting?
it's extra!
yea.
can write more extra things is better.
RP has a rule that everyday after class.
we had to summit a RJ.
what's RJ u ask.
it's reflection journal.
which only u urself and facilitator can see.
the deadline would be everyday's 2359 hours.
nv do it and you be gone case in ur daily grade.
._.
ok now.
what about daily grade.
wanna know more?
those who wanna know jiu read the red text ;D
don't wanna know? skip it.

ok.
daily grades is given to the student everyday (who don't know ==)
lame~
it's a grade which scores u for that day. (i know i know!)
could you just let me say finish? (ok i'm sorry D:)
thanks.
*awfully lame*
well.
The best 13 out of 15 Daily Grades will be taken into account in the Daily Grades component in the computation of the Module Grade. (as u can see it's copied paste ;x)
The Daily Grades will constitute 40% to 60% of the Final Module Grade (depending on the module) and the UT grades will account for the remaining portion of the Module Grade.
ok.
i'm sry.
but i'm still dunno about it very well.
so i had to copy pasted it.
LOL!
and then the final module grade would be ur GP for that module.
GP = Grade Points
GPA = Grade Points Average
the diff btw GP and GPA is simple.
GPA is the average of ALL GP of the module u taken (for example 24 module)
hey! don't yuan wang wo first.
these isnt copied paste!
it's wad i knew ok? =D

okok.
and then.
it would be another system.
we had to do everyday.
it's evalution.
wanna read about it? read the blue text ;x

self-evalution and peers evalution.
we had to do self-evalution in LEO.
which means u had to rate urself.
rating about how well u did or how badly u done.
if i wasn't wrong.
it's a must.
and that isnt important.
everyday lazy?
just put all well.
and i'm well done for today!
hahas.
as for peers evalution
this.
should be also compulsory.
and this one is important.
it can rate a person being cooperative?
teamwork?
alot things.
and if someone is uncooperative.
u could mark them down.
hate him or her?
don't try marking them down becus of this.
if not you would get the sa man from facilitator.
cus he would come and ask u why u mark him down when he did greatly.
haha!
this time u would die.
lols.
and try ur best on ur teamwork.
cus if u don't help
u would be dead as well.
no matter how well ur presentation did.
if ur team mates.
everyone marks u down.
den you're also be the one getting sa man.
lolol.
sa man =/= pay money
sa man = pay with ur GP
understand?
you would have ur GP lesser.
LOL!
hahas.
ok not funny.
hahas.

ok lets see.
i guess this would be it for today.
cus it's getting late.
and i'm gonna go for slp for tml sch.
ahahaha!
oh well.
good luck to all those starting poly tml.
happy poly year!
bye!
wish me the best luck =)

2009-04-17T18:32:00.002+08:00

hello guys~
u all should have heard that i went for the orientation today right.
it's till 9pm.
and here i am posting.
well.
not in sch using lappy.
but at home using comp.
ahahahas.
let's go into details~

good morning!
it's 6 30.
and im awake.
sleep for 4 hours.
not as worst as kj which sleep for around 1 hour only.
(and his still in sch ;x)
ahahahas.
i woke that early cus i scare need prepare alot things.
but always too early.
my time management got some prob.
lolol.
i very kia su de.
very scare late hahas.
so every time also early alot go to the meeting place earlier den expected.
lolol.
i was ready to go at 7 15.
but i am meeting elliott 8am at 883.
walking there need around 20 min.
but i set off at 7 25.
cus really nth to do.
den reach there is 7 45.
i told elliott.

yi: "u coming le ma? i reach le leh ;x"
elliott: "you always come out stunt de lei"
yi: "lolol abit early nia. hahas."
(it's because at wed i also early. but is early 1 hour+)

hahas.
so waited till 8.
elliott reached.
we went to find kj.
which jus woke up at 8+
==
so we wait outside his house until his ready.
den at 8 20.
went to rp.
went to our own block, own floor, own class.
sad that we are all seperated.
hahas.
went into my class.
pin drop silence ==
only got 4 more ppl + the faciliator
so total 6 ppl in that air con room.
even taking out my lappy i also scare to make noise ==
den started going online and chat with elliott jia hui they all.
asking them how le.
hahas.
den wait wait wait.
more and more ppl came.
but in total.
only 14 came. (2 came when it's already very late)
we started self introduction.
hmms.
only me myself is that course.
we are in class of diff courses.
also dunno why they want to arrange it like this.
but den all year 1 module is the same.
so we will be studying the same thing for all students of year 1.
and de went on to play ice breaking games.
first is 2 truth and a lie.
which is we have to say 3 facts abt ourselves.
2 of them is truth and one of them is a lie.
our classmates has to guess which one of it is a fake.
well.
kind of bored cus everyone not hyper active type.
all say until very si ban. (blockhead)
den next game.
which is dollar & cents.
girls are worth 1 dollar.
guys are worth 50 cents.

classmate: "why are we guys so cheap?"
faciliator: "i also dunno.. i myself also cheap D;"

we also dunno why girls are more expensive.
it's unfair D:
lolol.
den it goes like that.
faciliator will shout a amount out.
and we had to group ourselves to that amount.
those who are extra out (never get to the correct amount)
will be forfeit.
after a few times.
3 person was forfeited.
but den.
the forfeit was to sing a song.
they sang for 2 lines.
and no more.
-.-
bored diao.
if can full song jiu maybe fun le.
hahahas.
the class not really very into the games.
all bored bored de.
finally.
we started our class orientation games.
which is matchmaking.
matchmaking the rules and regulations of RP.
thats when i've become one person who was noticed.
hahas.
cus i given every answer.
and every answer was correct.
i had the answer ;x
ahahahas.
cus i guai.
got read the webbie.
den know everything le.
hahas.
the faciliator was good.
i like this type of faciliator.
but den.
he only took over for today.
so he isnt the one which will be with us for the 1st semester.
lets wish it's a kind and friendly one =)
he made me feel like going back to the class and continue our orientation.
but den.
tian xia mei you bu san de yan hui.
we was to go our homebase at 11+
so me and elliott.
after taking the new tertiary ez-link card.
we went off to cwp.
nvr attend the rest of the orientation.
cus home base is where we hate.
the OGL wasnt good.
it's makes it freaking bored.
so no mood.
even my rp shirt also nvr exchange dao.
nvm.
actually XL also can.
hahas.
lets not be so choosy.
ok.
after we went cwp.
we was thinking abt going mac to eat.
after eating.
play l4d in mac.
but den when we get in.
there was no place to charged lappy.
how to play.
lols.
so we changed idea.
we go to pizzahut and eat.
we ate the smart choice de.
student price.
den eat the wad chicken baked rice de.
hahas.
and drink free flow pepsi.
den was planning on going library and play l4d.
but i wanna try see if pizzahut got wireless network anot.
so i took my lappy and try.
and yea.
it has.
and got place to charge also.
but in pizzahut just don't have the feel to play l4d.
lolol.
but the wireless@sg need sign up one.
so it took me some time be4 i could really connect to the internet.
and at that time.
jin sms-ed me.
so i ask him if he was free.
want come out anot.
den i tot.
"jin no lappy. cant come with us to library le."
so we changed the place to my house.
jin agreed.
so we changed our next destination to my house.
but i'm still signing up for the wireless network.
lols.
den elliott keep push me.
want me hurry up.
lolol.
den i lan lan.
don't care him
LOL.
den finally i'm done.
so we moved off to my house.
we take bus and took overshot.
lolol.
so we walked back to my house.
met jin under my block and went up.
we started off playing l4d.
and after we finish one campaign (1 hr 30min)
i went to sleep.
so jin and elliott played dota with seng.
lols.
den 6+
they all go home le.
and now i'm here posting.
thats all.
(finally ended right? haha!)
(but it's not!)

nowadays.
i've been playing audi.
training on beat up.
and finally got 1 song no miss le.
which is cannon 2007.
aiya should be piece of cakes to the pros.
but it means alot to me.
hahas.
it means that i have been improving.
but den.
my chreo deproved alot.
lols.
my skills are now on a balance weighting machine.
another side improve, the other side deprove.
hahas.
too bad den.
i'll just have to keep training den.
6 months.
give me 6 months and i will show u i improved.
LOL.
always this line.
but den i know i couldn't.
i'm just joking
HAHA!
too bad.
lolol.
ok la.
lets end this.
byeeeeeeeeee

2009-04-16T23:54:00.000+08:00

hellos~
ps for not posting for some time.
and for that stupid post lol.
ahahahas.
ok.
zheng jing de post lai le.

hmms.
ytd went to RP's orientation.
early in the morning 7+ jiu at 883 waiting for elliott le.
yue hao at 8 30 but i 7+ at there wait le.
ahahahas.
due to some reason bahhs.
den 8 16 he came.
went to find kj.
den go rp le.
since kj is from SOH de.
so his homebase is at agora hall 2.
while mine and elliott which is from SIT, went to badminton hall.
and of cus.
it's with fans and not air-con.
while other homebase is filled with cold air.
our's is filled hot air and body filled with sweat.
wth man.
they say SIT is the most ppl.
and than give us no air con de place.
want us squeeze dao so hot. ==
also won't think yi xia.
lols.
after we went in badminton hall.
den need scan IC for attendance.
and they spilt us to groups.
it's first come first serve basics.
so me and elliott was the same group. (grp 4)
we waited from 9 to 12.
den finally they finish setting the groups.
got around 40+ groups.
me and elliott super sian.
sit dao butt pain.
den finally.
we got our student leader.
and set off.
lols.
our group.
aka the lifeless one.
totally no energy
all half dead.
den play game all don't want play de.
so after 1 hour.
we only played 3 station.
student leader super pek cek.
den at 12 30.
our lunch break.
got 3$ voucher.
the food court is full de lor.
dunno need line up till when.
den we found a sit.
met up with kj le.
den decide to go eat chinese cuisine.
but only left abit dishes nia.
dunno eat wad.
anyhow pick.
den jiu go sit down and eat le.
at 1 15.
met up with student leader.
but half of the group de ppl.
gone.
and we waited for a long time finally some come.
den decided to go home base.
the student leader.
tell us to run.
no ppl listen.
lols.
all slowly stroll.
den she super angry.
say this is a blah blah blah.
den say not here to stroll.
lolol.
den we move abit faster lol.
den she run herself.
after we reached home base.
saw the rest there.
den finally.
all ready.
but around 5 ppl dunno go where le.
think run away le.
so at 1 45
the guy student leader.
which is hyper active AFTER the lunch break.
also dunno why.
suddenly became the joker.
and made me finally interested in this orientation.
he keep joke want play water.
den the other student leader keep give the sian face -.-
and decided to do some bonding around us.
self intro.
i only can rmb some ppl de names lol.
like robin, vin, shi yun (the chio bu ;x), darren, ELLIOTT.
lolol.
the rest is like from other country de.
den nvr care le.
den the student leader go joke abt his self intro.
it goes like
SL: "if im in year 1.. i'll go, 'err.. i'm ____(name) from DIDM (course)' den sit down. but now i'm in year 2, so i'm ____(name) and you can call me ____ (nickname) from DIDM."
he does it with a very smooth tone.
which makes him look like one leader.
hahas.
well.
he did say.
in rp, we only do presentations.
everyday receive 1 problem to solve.
den for those cannot cannot speak up.
those who are timid.
those who are not good in communicating.
will have a hard time in rp.
so we have to train u.
start becoming one person who can speak with confidence.
woah.
and now i know im dead in rp.
lols.
nvm.
i will try my best den.
pls let me know my class is good.
perfectly good.
pls pls pls.
don't make my life miserable in rp.
==
ok now.
lets continue.
afterwards.
the student leader wanted to play concentration. (omg dammit, i forget all the names)
and heng.
another person came.
and said that we should hurry and go and complete the stations.
cus until 4 only.
and we already at 2+
we have no time to play le.
so we went to play our stations.
male SL started to keep joke around.
female SL started to keep up our pace.
so we relax relax and go do our stations.
and finally.
reached 4pm.
went back home base.
we done only 6 stations afterall.
from 12 to 5.
thats cool.
ppl do already 11 or 12 le.
we the slowest i guess.
hahas.
den point also not alot.
==
den they asked the SL to go take the rp shirt.
but our SL at there sit down talk ==
in the end.
S,M don't have le, left 6 L.
den i take XL.
wth.
big dao nth to say.
i take M de -.-
expect me wearing XL.
lols.
den jiu go home le.
thats all for the orientation day.
hahas.
today nvr went to their orientation.
cus i knew it would be bored.
so skipped.
but tml
i will be going.
from 8 30 to 9.
i guess would be bored again ba.
and tml will be going to class.
wish is good class~~
god bless me.
amen~
hahas.
ok.
ending le.
byeeeee

2009-04-12T15:07:00.002+08:00

wo zhen de hen tong.
bei shang hai le duo yi ci.
tong jue shi yi yang de.
mei chi dou bei ai qing gei shang hai.
wo yi dian dou bu hui xi guan zhe tong.
jiu suan xi guan le, wo hai shi gan jue dao yi yang de tong.
wo ji xiang wen.
wei shen me?
wo zhen de shi na me mei yong ma?
wo dao di zuo cuo le shen me.
hai shi lai dao zhe shi jie yuan ben jiu shi yi dao cuo wu.
wo su yu zhe di fang ma?
wo de xing ge, wo de tai du, wo de xiang fa, wo de xing wei, wo de yi ju yi dong.
dou gen ben bu fu he zhe li de tiao jian.
wo zhi shi yi ge ju wai ren.
wo gen bu jiu bu shi wo ZI JI de shen ming de zu jiao.
wo wei le shui huo.
wei le shui shen fu xi.
wo guo zhe zi ji que bu shi zi ji de shen huo.
wo si le.
you hui you shen me yi han.
zhen de hao xi wang lao tian ye neng ba ta gei wo de shen ming gei dai zou.
wo ye bu yong wei le zhe shi jie fan nao.
tao bi ma?
dui, tao bi you shen me cuo?
wo yi kai shi jiu bu shi shen me zong yao ren wu.
you hui you shui wei wo er luo lei.
ling ren tao yan de wo.
you ping shen me ju xu huo zhe ne?

ren shen lai lai hui hui, zuo cuo de shi jian ji su bu qing.
zi shi shen xia le yi han.
wei shen me wo bu neng zuo de gen hao.
wo shi na me de nuo ruo.
zai mei youg bu guo le.
jue de hao lang fei li qi.
yi zhi de xiang kong jian de ben pao.
yong yuan qian fang dou shi kong bai de.
gen bei zhao bu dao shuo wei de xi wang yu mu biao.
dang wo zhao dao shi.
that xi wang shi duo mo de shan yao.
ling wo fa xian le huo zhe de yuan ying.
dan shi, wang wang hao de dong xi, zai wo shen ming li.
gen ben dou bu chang jiu.
zai wo de xin li liu xia le ba hen.
tong, dang ran hui tong.
dan zhe tong, bu gou shuo wo zai zhe shen ming li gan dao de shi wang.
shen ming dui wo lai shuo.
gen ben li mian dou mei you yi si de hao gan.
ta liu xia de zong shi shi wang.
mei ge kai xing guo de shi, dou yi jing fa hei le.
ji kan jian yi si si de ying zi.
yi ge zai wan quan hei an de shi jie li de ying zi.
wo you neng gou kan jian shen me?
wei shen me ji shen xia ying zi?
ying wei ta de xin fu yu kuai le.
gen ben bu chang jiu.
er man man de xiao shi.
liu xia le bei ai he tong ku.
you you duo shao ren neng gao liao jie.
mei ge ren de shen ming dou guo de bu yi yang.
mei ge ren de hei an you bu yi yang de kan fa.
you bu yi yang de an du.
er ying wei wo men gen ben bu shi tong yi ge ren.
guo de bu tong de shen ming.
hui you duo liao jie wo de hei an, dao di you duo hei, you duo an ma?

2009-04-10T23:21:00.003+08:00

harlows.
welcome me back from outside.
hahas.
well well.
today ah..
quite fun and quite sian.
hahas.
but got 1 person got go uhhs.
make it totally sian.
lols.

ok.
lets get this started.
wake up at 9 close to 10.
cus xinxin sms-ed me~
hahas.
den meet xinxin at 12 den go andy house.
den 1+ go marsiling.
meet mag there.
den waited for jeff to come.
den head on to liyan house.
at there.
sian? also not really bahhs.
see them make sushi.
hahas.
eat some of it (it.. was.. super.. nvm -.-)
i came home str8 go toilet ==
hahas.
around 4+
we went to woodlands civic centre.
went to ktv sing song.
i sing only 2 song HAHA!
cus i don't like to take mic and sing lol.
so went there for fun can say.
hahas.
ok den after that.
all want go home le.
i pei andy and liyan.
liyan went home le.
me and andy jiu go admiralty eat and chat.
until they close.
hahas.
den jiu go home le.
ok.
a very fast post right.
i know.
hahas.
now time for quiz.
asked by xy ==

10' Are You's.
1. Are you single -
yepps.
2. Are you happy -
not really.
3. Are you bored -
totally.. bored.
4. Are you fair -
super.. unfair? jkjk lol. hai hao hai hao. hahas.
5. (XY blog didn't have 5)
6. Are you intelligent -
asked my teachers/friends.
7. Are you honest -
depends. hahas.
8. Are you nice -
if you think i am, i am. if you don't think so, i'm not.
9. Are you Irish -
i'm singaporean.
10. (XY blog didn't have 10 either)

10' Facts About You.
1. Full name -
Hu MingYi (Oh Beng Ghee)
2. Nickname -
yi
3. Birth place -
i forget. lol.
4. hair colour -
orange-brown
5. Natural hair -
if not fake one meh?
6. Eye colour -
this is singaporean here, of cus is black.
7. Date of Birth -
28/11/1991
8. Mood -
so so
9. Favourite colour(s) -
black, blue, white.
10. One place you like to visit -
lala land. in dreams of cus. hahas.

10' Questions About My Love Life.
1. Have you ever been in love -
yea yea
2. Do you believe in love at first sight -
yepps.
3. Do you currently have a crush -
ya lols.
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally -
of cus.
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart -
i don't think so cause is they break with me ._.
6. Have you have your heart broken -
since they break with me, of cus i had. lols.
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them -
of cus man. lols. an lian hahas.
8. Are you afraid of commitment -
sort of.
9. Who was the last person you hug -
xy lols
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to -
xinxin lols. ;x (im being truthful here ==)

10' This or that
1. Love or lust -
love ba lols.
2. Hard liquor or beer -
hard liquor hahas.
3. Cat or dog -
both can?
4. A few best friends or regular friends -
a few best friends
5. Creamy or crunchy -
Creamy crunchy ;D
6. Pencil or Pen -
PENcil lol.
7. Wild night out or romantic night in -
romantic night in is best =)
8. Money or happiness -
happiness bahh.
9. Night or day -
Night ba
10. IM or phone -
phone~

10' Have You Ever's.
1. Been caught sneaking out -
i go out guang ming zheng da. no need sneak de. LOL
2. Seen a polar bear -
if i live at north or south pole.
3. Done something you regret -
of cause. who don't
4. Bungee jump -
nope
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor -
i got lols. sometime at home. hahas.
6. Finished entire jaw breaker -
what's with jaw breaker?
7. Been caught naked -
by my mum? LOL
8. Wanted an ex gf/bf back -
i wanted them but they don't want me.
9. Cried because you lost a pet -
nope. i don't cry because of these. lols.
10. Wanted to disappear -
often have this mindset. hahas.

10' Preferences In a Partner.
1. Smile or eyes -
smilesssssssss
2. Light or dark hair -
any lols. as long as it's my taste ;x
3. Hugs or kisses -
both? hahas
4. Shorter or taller -
shorter la zzz D;
5. Intelligent or Attraction -
any cus i don't really mind.
6. Topman or zara -
what's this?
7. Funny or serious -
depends on situations
8. Older or younger -
younger is better
9. Outgoing or quiet -
as long i love her =)
10. Sweet or bad -
sweet + bad ;x

10' Have You's
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd -
think no
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than 1 hr -
of cus
3. Ever walk on hands -
nope lol. unless u mean crawling around like a children.
4. Ever been to a rock concert -
nope
5. Ever been in a cheerleading team -
forgotten?
6. Ever been in dance team -
no == i don't like dance except break dance
7. Ever been in sports team -
no worh. sadded
8. Ever been in a drama play/production -
wait long long lo hahas
9. Ever owned o BWW/Mercedes Benz/Escalade/Hummer/Bentley-
next time i will own them
10. Ever been in a rap video -
yo yo hey hey bye bye =.= no hahas.

10' Lasts
1. Last phone call you made -
auntie winnie to book slot to cut hair.
2. Last person you hugged -
xy
3. Last person you hung out with -
andy
4. Last time you worked -
1 month ago
5. Last person you talked to -
my mum? or is andy le
6. Last person you IM'D -
yu hui
7. Last person you text -
yu hui
8. Last person you went movie with -
forget le
9. Last person/thing you missed -
xinxin ;x
10. Last website you visited -
BLOGGER! hahas

10 ppl to do this :
1. xian
2. andy
3. qixin
4. yuhui
5. tabby
6. blank
7. blank
8. blank
9. blank
10. blank

it's kind of bored to always need tag ppl do. lazy go think le. hahas. ok. thats all for this quiz. ima go le. buaiis~

wo kuai xiang ni xiang dao si le ;x

2009-04-07T10:35:00.002+08:00

hellos.
come to post ler.
missed me?
i bet no =x
ahahahas.
my blog is boring
and yea yea i know.
what can i do ;x
entertaining is not my qiang xiang.
ahahahas.
but maybe entertaining andy and xian can be one of my strongs.
i only can do crappings with them.
ahahahas
and jin also! i nvr forget u.
gan tang~~
aiya.
actually those boy de friend all i can entertain.
except for those i dislike.
hahas.
for girls ah.
gomen gomen.
i cannot make it.
hahas.
talking to girls just make my mind blank.
but find me anytime to entertain u all in SMS or MSN.
only these place no gender affects.
all can entertain.
ahahahas.
but don't find me 1 on 1 talk.
cus u will be talking to a wall.
ahahahas.
unless you really is wanna talk to ppl,
but don't want him to talk to u about it.
(sometimes i also wanna share with ppl thing, but dislike them talking about it and wanna change my mindset. it will irritates me even more when it's already troubling me lolol. hahas)
just wanna share it.
i'm alright with it.
anytime =)
and yea.
don't find me to comfort u too.
and u know why.
hahas.
i scare later because want to comfort u my brain burst lol.
hmms.
later going out with jin and xian to buy clothes to prepare our poly life le.
hahas.
dunno will buy alot mahhs.
no money lols.
hahas.
ok la.
i anyhow update yi xia blog er yi.
hahas.
clear those cobwebs. ;x
ok stopping here.
tatas.

hao xiang ni..
hao ai ni..
hao xu yao ni..

2009-04-04T00:15:00.003+08:00

ni hao, ni men hao, dao jia hao!
wo you lai le~~
you ren yao wo update my blog~
shuo yi jiu lai le.
hahas.
well well.
gonna make stiff update so don't blame if it's too bored =x

surprise by what im going to say ba.
on thursday morning 5am,
i went to tidy my storeroom!.
ahahahas.
for those who came my house be4 de.
see be4 my storeroom de.
cfm will know my storeroom really stored alot of things. (even a car tire ._.)
well.
i can't sleep.
so i came out to tide the room.
until my mum woke up.
and say i ki siao.
LOL.
and in the end.
i threw lots of things away.
more den 10 boxes of things.
that can in line with the wall from my door to the dustbin.
that consist of my books, my bro(s) books.
and toys ._.
hahas.
and because of this.
i was sick.
got sore throat.
cus got 1 time, i was digging the box de things out
(cause my mum wanted something out of it)
and the dust was jus keep flying around and i used my mouth to breath.
omg.
those dust went into my throat.
and in the end tio sore throat.
and also flu.
due to the dust too.
damn dirty storeroom.
ahahahas.
ok.
den went to sleep.
at 2.
i woke up.
cus going to play pool with andy.
but i sms-ed him 3 time also no reply.
and my flu wasnt stopping.
so i cancelled.
well.
den stayed at home l4d all the way.
played a 5 hours expert mode airport match.
hahas.

as for today.
woke up by xinxin's morning call.
or should say afternoon call, since it's already 12+
ahahahas.
and asked if they (xinxin, rinna, yu hui, liyan, andy) can come my house.
so i agreed (of cus ;x)
xinxin, rinna and yu hui reached my house first.
den liyan and andy came.
used my lappy, my comp to play.
so i sit on sofa and watch them play.
ahahas.
and they say wanna play hotel626.
but they all scared dao den don want play le. (not scary de ._.)
actually also my fault las.
i accidentally pull dao my lappy de power supply den blank out.
den they don wan play de.
lolol.
after that jiu started majong.
until 2.
liyan need go sch le.
andy song her to sch.
den me and the other 3 went to admiralty eat.
and wait for andy to come to admiralty also.
den eat finish.
andy went to fetch liyan at 3+
everyone jiu went home le.
hui dao jia ne.
jiu have been chatting all the way.
played a few match audi with xinxin.
and played facebook's games.

thats all ;x
sayonara~
tatas

xiang nian ni~

2009-03-30T09:44:00.006+08:00

hello peeps.
came to update my little bloggie =D
guess what i'm currently playing.
hahas.
it's facebook's pet society.
cause i really had nothing to do.
and andy was right.
that can waste damn lots of time.
ahahahas.
and that kian hui.
he got 10m score.
wth? ._.
when did he started playing lols.
i tried my best and after 3 days.
i only got 6k lol.
10m..
cool man.
he better sponsor me ;x
hahahas.
well.
ytd went to play pool with xian and jin.
was fun.
hahas.
long time never play with jin le.
happy =)
now had to wait for next week sunday de program le.
i mean this week ;x.
hahas.
going out with xian, andy, alwin and jin.
hahas.
maybe play lan? or pool~~ hahas.
awaits~
well.
if andy no work for btw monday to thursday.
maybe will jio him out to play pool.
it's cheaper alot hahas.
so see ba =).
it's time to clean my home!
housework time~
i go le.
cyas~

wo hao xiang mei tian,
dou neng gou kan dao ni.
IMY x3

2009-03-28T07:00:00.010+08:00

well well.
since i got nothing to post.
let's do the 100 truth from xy blog.
thou it's not 100 at xy blog.
her number got skip de ._.
i'll add some den =x
to make it 100 truths.
hahas
i not really wanna do de~
but let's serve this as a post ;x
here comes!

100 truth

1. real name:
beng ghee (i hate this name ._.)
2. nickname(s):
(since they put (s), lets go!)
.yi (common),
.gorilla (by xy),
.ahbeng (by jia hui, twenyo, yong seng and wei lun),
.zombie (by my t3io group),
.carrot head (by yu hui),
.pig/piggy/zhu (by qixin, esther, xian and xiu yan),
.bibi (by da sao and nini which is da sao sis).
3. age:
17
4. height:
162 =(
5. weight:
59 lols~
6. spec or contact:
spec~ maybe would change to lens ;x
7. horoscope:
sagittarius (i hate spelling this)
8. male or female:
male~
9. tv or games:
of cus games =)
10. primary school:
admiralty pri
11. secondary school:
evergreen sec
12. poly or jc:
republic poly
13. university:
expensive la dei ._.
14. hair color:
brown? cause color fade le =x
15. long or short:
long? lol.
16. loud or quiet:
i got mood swing =x (mental disorder)
17. sweats or jeans:
both lo
18. phone or camera:
phone ba
19. health freak:
nope
20. drink or smoke:
in the past (have a few times)
21. have a crush on someone?:
yepps.
22. eat or drink:
eat and drink ;x
23. piercings:
nope but soon xD
24. tattoos:
i don't like it
25. social or anti-social:
ANTI-social
26. first relationship:
year 2007 (forget date le ;x)
27. first best friend:
andy tan zhi lu!
28. first award:
primary school inter-class competition medal
29. first kiss:
given to my mum or dad. (who knows ;x)
30. first pet:
my rabbit or turtle (forget which one first le)
31. first big vacation:
towards malaysia? ._.
32. first love at first sight:
esther ;x
33. first hug:
given to my mum~
34. first love:
xin mei (primary sch de shi hou)
35. first piercing:
year after 2008 before 2100 (wahahahas)
36. eating:
im eating fried egg now o.o
37. drinking:
green tea ;x
38. excitement lvl:
hai hao
39. about to:
fall asleep x.x
40. listening to:
yong yuan zai yi qi
41. plan for today:
stare comp and sleep
42. waiting for:
xinxin to wake up and reply my msg ;x
43. energy level:
sleepy level
44. thinking of someone?:
to be honest, i can't sleep because i'm thinking of xinxin ;x
45. hobby:
pool's my fav =)
46. keen to learn:
jap and piano
47. scared of:
being hurt ;x
48. wealthy or happiness:
half half =x
49. want to get married?:
of cus, be4 30 =)
50. want kids?:
i want 2 kids~ a boy and a girl xD
51. careers in mind:
create a mmorpg that world recognised.
52. fight before?:
nope =)
53. most regret of:
never take o level seriously =(
54. talented in:
games ba =)
55. weak in:
studies x.x
56. romantic or spontaneous?:
romantic~
57. lips or eye:
lips =3
58. nice stomach or nice arms:
both nice can ma? =x
59. shorter or taller:
i wish to be taller and my partner to be shorter =x
60. protective or caring:
caring~
61. hook-up or relationship:
hook-up ba (im scared of being hurt again T_T)
62. troublemaker or hestitant:
hestitant? o.o
63. lost glasses or contact:
i've lost glasses be4 =(
64. ran away from home:
won't ba =)
65. held a gun/knife for self defense:
sword can ma? =x
(often used at my house to poke xian =D)
66. killed sombody:
nope and i won't (cause singapore very strict =x)
67. broken someone's heart:
maybe? should be hahas
68. been arrested:
never lols. (i'm guai kia xD)
69. cried when someone dead:
never worhhs ._. (also dunno why lol)
70. missed someone alot alot:
yea yea yea.
(i missed xinxin the past 2 days when we quarrel that i couldn't sleep D;)
71. yourself:
i'm carefree! =D
72. miracles:
i believe i can fly~ i believe i can touch the sky~
73. love at first sight:
i believe cus i had before hahas.
74. heaven or hell:
let's fly~ to the heaven of cus.
75. santa claus:
hohoho merry chirstmas!
76. cartoon or anime:
anime luhhs. =D
77. tooth fairy:
wad was that ._.
78. kiss in the first date:
can i? lolol
79. afraid of death:
when im in the good mood.
80. handsome or cute:
HANDSOME!
81. pretty or cute:
cute ;x
82. reality or dream:
dReaMsX hahas
83. is there a person you want to be with right now?:
yes~ my xinxin~~ =p
84. are you seriously happy with where you're in life now?:
no =( my life is going the wrong direction~
85. do you believe in fate?:
yes
86. do you think you could change your own destiny?:
maybe or maybe not.
87. do you believe in god?:
no, instead, i hate them xD
88. how often do you lie?:
you could say that it's quite often, but are white lies =)
89. do you respect elders?:
yea i do respect them.
90. are you a good kid?:
i don't think so lol.
91. do you like your family?:
not really.
92. do you like your friends?:
yea =x
93. are you greedy?:
super duper greedy =x
94. what do you want now:
can i have xinxin? xP
95. what will you wish for:
a peaceful life =)
96. a truth to 1st person:
(andy) i really glad i had u as my friend =)
97. a truth to 2nd person:
(xian) it's my fortune to had u both as my friend =x
98. a truth to 3rd person:
(xinxin) wo zhen de hen xiang ni~ ^^
99. do you even trust yourself?:
nope. i don't really trust myself hahas.
100. post as 100truth & tag 10 ppl.
1, xian
2, andy
3, xinxin
4, yu hui
5, tabby
6, hong jin
7, alwin
8, candiie
9, cat
10, gene

ThE EnD.

and yea~
me and xinxin he hao le~
u all didnt know ba.
me and xinxin in the past two days quarrel~
i'm sorry T_T
but now finally back to normal le~
did you know that.
this past two days.
i can't sleep becus i've been thinking abt it? ._.
force myself to sleep in the end i'm thinking abt her even more.
ahahahas.
hao la.
such a long post.
stopping here le.
cya guys =)

missing you~~

2009-03-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

sry guys. you shi mei you post for a long time. sorry~~

ok here.
today's news.
yi had a bad stomach ache! =x
blame it on the supper this morning.
2am+
went to 888 eat supper again.
totally bullshit!
always go eat always stomach ache.
hahas.
well.
actually at i went to bed on 1+
wan shui you shui bu zhao.
due to some reason ;x (hey! come on, let me have some privacy =x)
so went to eat supper.
the best way to cure bordom.
den went to andy house.
den dunno do wad.
hahas.
jiu play game ba.
den 6+ le.
liyan came liaos.
den andy song her to sch.
i at andy house jiu sleep lo.
den at 12+
a miracle happen.
this time is andy wake me up to get ready for pool!
hahas.
i woke from my alarm.
and i pressed 'stop'
ahahahas.
and went back to sleep.
lolol.
andy nvr slp dao.
so he wont oversleep also.
hahas.
den jiu go my house.
gan tang sms me.
den jiu jio him out also.
den went to pool le.
was fun la.
hahas.
alwin is the pro!
hahas.
=x
prozor (learnt from andy)
after was home from amk.
at 4.
jin and xian was waiting outside my house.
hahas.
didnt know xian nvr work today.
so nvr jio him to pool also (sorry~~~~)
den jiu at my house crap.
and played majong.
den andy need fetch liyan le.
jiu dismiss liaos.
i went to sleep.
xian also sleeping at my living room.
until wad time he left my house also dunno.
hahas.
den jiu woke by my mum cus she bought my food home le.
time to eat~
den eat finish.
come blog yi xia.
jiu like that.
hahas.
ok le.
stopping here.
byeee

you will never understand my feeling.
i'm human.
i have my feelings.
so stop thinking that i'm god which can withstand everything u said.

2009-03-22T07:27:00.002+08:00

hmms.
today i woke up so early.
surprised?
but then my mood isnt that great x.x
not high at all lols.
the weather too cold ledi.
den i cold dao wake up le.
also strange nia.
not really tired.
maybe ytd sleep too much le.
later had to work from 12 to 10.
my playtime is gone~
1 more month poly is starting already.
wish their teaching method can change.
rp's everyday doing was presentation and thats all.
and to god bless, i hate presentation.
argh!
nvm, i had to face it.
too late already.
ok.
think i stopping here le.
byebye~

2009-03-20T18:09:00.006+08:00

yooooooosei!
the PANDA yi is here!
ahahhaas.
i haven gotten really into sleep yet.
jus some short sleep in the morning which keep receiving sms and i had to reply.
(i never blame or wad. i'm willing to sacrifice my sleep for these sms =x)
ytd chiong l4d dao midnight.
with elliott kian they all.
and den at 4+
went to 888 eat supper.
wahahahas.
we from 4+ chat until early in the morning 8+
den go home.
reach home.
jiu l4d awhile.
den qx asked me whether want go have lunch with them anot.
so i agreed.
and i went to bed at around 10.
den sms with qx until 12.
my alarm rang.
went to bath and washed up.
jiu slack yi xia.
andy jiu came my house.
around 1 jiu go find them at evg le.
den from evg went to cwp eat pasta mania.
me and andy nvr eat.
just watch them eat.
so after eating.
jiu go home le.
crap ._.
they walk from cwp
to outside.
to a bus stop.
den decide to take 913.
wad so cool is.
i followed them.
and 1 stop i go down le.
waste 70 cent LOL
ahahahas.
but nvm luhhs.
hahas =)
den came back home.
I NOT REALLY TIRED.
wooo.
i can became god le.
keep don wan eat.
keep don wan slp.
lolol.
that time almost 3 day no eat dao.
today no sleep dao.
hahas.
den i played l4d with kian.
sadded is that joe cannot play l4d le.
his comp cannot support.
sad sad.
nvm.
hahahas.

btw xinxin~
sry ehs.
keep play game den nvr reply u~
neglect u at msn~
sry =(
wo shen shen de gan dao bao qian~~
dui bu qi~
zhen de dui bu qi~~~ ;3
yuan liang wo hao ma? ^.^

2009-03-19T17:46:00.002+08:00

sorry uhhs~
keep nvr post anything up.
hahas.
well.
here i am =)
but den i don't have anything to write.
except for the pool session on tuesday.
let's write about it den.
hahas.
well.

it was two days ago. (well, everyone knew it ._.)
17th march. (i told you everyone knew it -.-)
early in the morning 8 am. (ya..?)
i woke up. (who cares.)
becus i wanted to sms mo mo ren. (who is it ;D)
but then, i was typing the msg halfway, i fell asleep. (GOD DAMMIT! U THIS BADASS)
well. (well..?)
that mo mo ren also got sms me, which woke me up and realise about it. (god bless you)
i can't believe that i was so tired ._. (what you did at night huh!?!? ;x)
woah don't think anywhere far. (how far is far?)
maybe is just cause monday i didn't get enuff sleep.
(oh really? everyday 10hour+ is not enuff???)
i also promised andy and liyan to go eat, but in the end also didn't go. (why why why why!)
because i was too tired and couldn't wake up. (oh, now i believe u are tired.)
i told them we meet 2 30pm at andy house. (let's have fun!)
but i overslept, even my alarm couldn't wake me up. (did you went to gym before this day? ._.)
so xy called me up, asked me why haven go her house meet. (woo got morning call =D)
so i faster prepared myself and went over. (how fast did you prepared? 1min?)
reach andy house, wake him up, tell him prepare too. (why are you all so tired?)
afterwards yuhui came to andy house also le. (great the meeting's over!)
went set off to old woodlands play pool. (awww that small little pool room)
well. (what's with this well again ._.)
yh and xy play 1 match could let me and andy played around 3-4 match. (cool!)
that means they played very long ._. (that's more cool!)
so after yh and xy finished their match, me and andy continued to play for around 3 match.
(so un-gentleman, should have let them play =D)
and their turn again. (let's have a s.l.o.w match)
andy went to wait liyan at the bus stop. (kick his ass before he go =x)
but liyan went to AMK instead of old woodlands. (wth??)
cause we always playing at AMK, so she tot we would be at AMK.
(damn andy, didn't you told her? D; )
and so it took a long time for her to reach here, and that's 7+ for her.
(she has to go home alr D:)
so the 3 of us at pool there went to meet andy at cwp. (something happen ya? =x)
something DID happen. (i'm clever wahahaha)
we took a wrong bus which headed to yishun. (i know it's ur fault right!)
so we took mrt to woodlands and find andy. (you should, if not andy would starve there =x)
and so we eat at cwp food court. (okays. make sure you don't choke.)
and home! (byeeee!)

and that's what happen.
i'm crapping.
ahahahas.
nth to do.
okok.
let's stop now.
=)
btw andy is now at my house still sleeping.
lolol. =p
byeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-03-14T18:43:00.002+08:00

wooooo~
i also changed my blogskin due to jealousy.
ahahahas.
well.
lets talk about ytd ba.
a tiring day~
well.
woke at 3 am.
(cus xinxin sms-ed me~)
so after she went to slp again.
i go out use comp and played l4d with kian until 8 30.
kai jie came my house at 7.
and den.
we set off to rp at 8 30.
went to pass up giro form and result slip.
most importantly.
we bought our own lappy.
acer aspire de.
well.
me and kj made the full payment.
so now bank no money le.
lols.
hahahas.
we from 9 to 12 all in sch.
due to buying of lappy, and configure them in sch.
used so much time.
after that.
went home.
rest yi xia.
jiu go andy house le.
den went to IT fair.
at suntec city.
but at time.
i already tired like hell le.
lols.
and so i was like no talk.
isolated type.
also no ppl pei wo nia.
can't possible drag andy away.
he needs to pei liyan also ma.
so i at there sua shuai.
walk dao so shuai.
LOL.
=x
ahahahas.
it's bored i tell u.
qixin walk her own group.
(got 3 more of her fren)
andy with his liyan.
me solo-er.
ahahahas.
ben lai got xy de.
but she didn't go le.
so me become loner.
ahahahas.
so we shopped until 5+
went to amk.
eat dao 7.
play pool dao 8.
jiu go home le.
den at home do my lappy things.
do dao 12.
bu xiao xin sleep dao.
cus tired nia.
den on my lappy and comp ==
den 4 am woke up.
off my lappy and comp jiu go slp again.
until today 3+ den wake up.
sleep alot lols.
15 hours? hahas.
ok la.
mon/tues maybe got pool.
lets see ba.
hahas.
bb~~

2009-03-12T20:59:00.003+08:00

argh!
yi is jealous now~
everyone is changing their blogskin ;o
i also want want want~~
but ima lazy~~ =(
who want help me do? =D
hoho.
lolol.
hmphs.
bu guan le.
post first =)

it happens on the 11th march.. 3am..
in the morning..
where yi first started the conversation..

yi: "hungry ma?"
andy: "ya, v. hungry"
yi: "supper?"
andy: "sure"
yi: "watch finish this part first"
andy: "watch finish your ep ba, i also watching"
yi: "ok watch finish ep 2 first ba"

so we watch our show and discuss abt it.
but we are engrossed in it that we've watch and watch and forgot about our hunger.

yi: "hey.. thought watch finish ep 2?"
andy: "ya"
yi: "i already at ep 4 ._."
(one ep is around 1 hour? =x)
andy: "._. ok now go. 5 min reach."
yi: "i haven prepar...."
*andy has signed off
yi: "guess his really hungry."

so i went to prepare.
and wait andy to come my house.
we went to 888 to have our supper.
i ate damn much.
stomach ache in the morning.
i eat 2 plates of noodles.
andy ate fish porridge.
and we at there crap.
crap about our work place.
super funny.
talked abt my sis too =x.
hahas.
and how ppl say andy shuai ge.
(his shuai ge i know =D)
crap dao sian le jiu went home.
den i jiu went over to andy house.
and there we go crapping again.
and soon liyan jiu come le.
first thing jiu want a A4 exercise book from me.
so we set off to my house.
grap a A4 book and went down to gif them.
followed them to school.
went in to get the 'O' level cert and testimonia.
chat with some teachers.
got 2 teacher we want to talk also de.
but they nvr saw us.
so oh well.
the prisilia teng already diao us le.
so we go ba.
hahas.
den jiu go andy house again.
at there sleep dao 3pm.
woke by andy de bro.
den went to watch show again.
btw it's ai jiu zhai yi qi.
den here come the evil woman.
cus i left my wallet, keys and hp at the living room.
she took all of it and don't want to return me ._.
somemore she put under her laps.
(how could i possibly take back ._.)
how cheat.
so i'm being forced to play audi with her.
until she came to andy room to use his comp.
and i watch.
jiu wait dao andy fetch liyan back le.
andy tell her to stop using comp.
and she went to her room.
(fierce andy ._.)
den i at there like extra fella.
they both behind at bed dunno doing wad.
i inside the room light bulb so big.
but den.
im concentrating on doing the chemistry worksheet of liyan's holiday hwk.
ahahhaas.
i can't resist myself from doing chem.
hahas.
addicted.
oh well.
after that jiu shi home-run~
hahas.
lame. ._.
i wanna go home.
but that stupid idiot cb andy wear my slippers to send liyan home.
but lucky when i want go le.
andy is jus under the block already.
so wait awhile he jiu come up le. (he still dare at there laugh ._.)
went home, bathed.
jiu come post le.
hahas.
actually i won't post de nia.
becus saw so many ppl changed blogskin.
jiu wanna complain yi xia.
let myself happy =x.
ahhaahs.
hao qi dai tml also.
groups going to IT show.
hahas.
let's see what will happen tml~ hahas.
cya guys!

2009-03-11T17:10:00.004+08:00

ima bored bored bored bored! ~.~
i wanna play~!~!~!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
nth to do~~~
sadded.
blehhs.
i'm just a small kid =D
sometimes it's nice to be a kid.
they have no troubles~~
ahahahas.
play play play~~

ok let's stop th crap.
hmms.
today woke at 8.
becus need go rp again~~
boooo.
ahahahas.
so went prepare.
and went to rp meet kj.
den it was only 8 45.
the enrolment start at 9.
but there's still queue.
need to wait again.
sian diao.
that's singaporean eh?
kia su liaos.
hahas.
so finally it's our turn to get in~
me and kj keep crap like hell.
ahahahas.
ya got 1 crap we made during queue.

yi: "look behind"
kj: "why? *turn behind* woah!"
yi: "if we late by 5 min, we would be at the extreme back there."
*the queue is getting long
kj: "why not you say if we're earlier by 5 min, we would be infront."
yi: "-.-"

and this wad we say when we are scanning our NRIC.

yi: "why don't want go to the next one so will be faster."
kj: "you should be happy that you're inside already. nvm one =x"
yi: "scarly they tell u go back outside becus all full den u extra."
kj: "woot, den i go sue them"
yi: "sue them for letting a guy like u in."
kj: "._."

so after scanning our NRIC, we went to stations after stations.
station 1: confirm acceptance of offer.
a lame crap action-ed by kj.

staff: "may i have your NRIC and photocopy of your result slip?"
kj: "huh? here you go"
*passed her only NRIC
staff: "ok thanks, how bout your result slip?"
kj: "huh? what's that."
yi: "kai jie, *pointing to his result slip"
*his holding on to his result slip
kj: "oh ya. forgot."
yi: "oh crap."
kj: "there."
yi: "i knew it!"
staff: "uhm. sorry but we need your photocopied result slip"
yi: "sorry we didn't have it."
staff: "oh it's okay. you'll just have to..."
*explain what should we do

and that's crap.
holding on to his own result slip but he forgot ._.
somemore ppl ask for photocopy and he passed her the real thingy.
==

station 2: updating of particulars
so we went to station 2.
looked for 2 lappy that is free. (free as in no ppl)
went and sit down.
login using IC and bday.

yi: "oh crap, i don't know my mum's ic ._."
kj: "me too =="
yi: "how, stuck liao"
kj: "u ask me i ask who"
yi: "let's call them =D"
kj: "ok"
*both of us took out phone
yi: "wa lao ps leh ._."
(cause the hall wasn't really noisy. it's somehow abit quiet.)
kj: *looked around
yi: "u call first =x"
kj: "._."
*kj started calling
*followed by me

so we've sucessfully gotten our parent's NRIC.
and updated.

Station 3: issue of student ID and email.
well, this station only requires us to give them our NRIC and the acceptance form.
and they will print our student ID and email to us.
and give us FAQ and a form to complete.

Station 4: NETS payment.
oh gosh.
my cash card is old.
but still can use =D
ahahahas.
my mum don't allow me to bring my cash card out.
so i nvr use dao.
so nvr change be4.
it's silver color de.
hahas.
the nets payment.
kj pay up first.
afterwards is me.
woah.
it gave me a fright.
the card error appears 2 time be4 it sucess.
lame diao.
i tot too old liao.
nvr use dao.
card spoil.
LOL
hahas.
so we went on to next stop.

Station 4: finance consultation
nahh it's not only for finance prob.
the tuition grant is the main point.
hahas.
but need the GIRO form also.
which im gonna print it at night.
cus need my mum de account number hahas.
proceed on.

Station 5: Phototaking for EZ-link card and student card.
shit ._.
my hair cover my eyebrow.
hard to take pic.
and in the end i taken a shit photo.
can i retake? LOL.
ahahahas.
scare later my ez link card de pic like shit again. lols.
hahas.
sua nvm.
who wants to show their own ez link card to other ppl to see anw.
=p
only girls like to snatch ppl de ez link card to see their photo ._.
wahahahas.
girls are childish!! wahahahas.
=p

(after reading this post)
(tabby might go GIRLS RAWKS!)
(xiu yan might go BOYS SUX!)
(xinxin might go who want to see your photo, BHB)
(liyan might go WHAT CHILDISH!)
(yu hui might go *she don't tag me de* ._.)
(xian will go I AGREE!)
(ronald will go fuck you. *cus i write him inside this post* =x)

oh crap.
im lame shit.
scarly tio scold dao more die.
LOL.
ahahahas.
nvm.
and the last station is finally over.
proceed on to road show.
hmms.
i think ima buying a new lappy.
which cost 1280$
acer aspire de.
hahas.
well well.
gonna discuss with my mum first.
hahas.
okok.
after that was home-ed.
i nearly lost my result slip on the bridge near rp.
cus it was not A4 size paper.
den i forgotten about it.
and i grap the stack of documents at the top.
and it dropped.
i didn't knew it.
until i walked extreme far away.
i trying to put all my documents inside the envelop.
and i rmb.
"im grapping the papers on the top."
"wont the result slip drop?"
so i try to find it.
but couldn't
so i walked back like how i walked from rp.
hoping to find it on floor.
and YES.
found it on the bridge.
lucky nvr get blown to the road.
lols.
so home-ed and sleep.
wake up around 3 30.
(and wu duan duan tio xy scold pig ._.)
wake up le.
watch-ed ai jiu zhai yi qi at youtube.
thou is nice.
but dunno why watch dao wanna slp le.
den ep 1 watch finish jiu stop liao.
den jiu nth to do.
sms xy and xinxin to cure boredom (now now don't jealous =x)
and went to install audi.
play yi xia.
sian ._.
di siao yi xia xy.
jiu come out le.
cus i also post this post dao yi ban.
i started this post dunno wad time.
and now already 7.11 (woot seven eleven =D)
later when i publish.
u all can see when i started this post.
see i write how long le.
LOL.
long as in time not long post.
but den this also quite a long post.
ahahahahas. (cold~)
lolol.
ok la.
lets stop now.
cya all~~
byeeeeeeee

2009-03-10T21:54:00.007+08:00

yo!
jus came back from my dream land. the lala land =D
lols~
i've been starving myself?
within this 3 days.
i only eat a chicken wing.
a bread.
and a normal breakfast of porridge.
LOL
and the first 2 day i nvr eat dao anything.
and after my porridge which is eaten on 8am.
until now i haven eat dao anything.
wahahahahas.
i'm mad.
lols.
but i'm not really hungry.
hahas.
ok lets say abt today which is my enrolment day.
**rewind to 1 30pm
im meeting kai jie at cwp 2pm.

andy: "from here to cwp need 25mins"
yi: "woah u sure ma. den i need to go now le"
andy: "ya"
yi: "help me open door"

went to cwp on bus.
reached cwp.
looked at the time.

yi: "._.?"

it was only 1 45.
i used around 8 mins to go cwp.
and that andy are telling me the time used for walking? ._.
he can go chu stunt le.
every time go cwp work one still dunno ==
argh!.
nvm lols.
so i waited for kj at ticket office.
den move off to rp.
reach rp le.
went thru it's gate.

yi: "woah, what's with this line of people? queue-ing for 4D?" (joking around)
kj: "ya lo. nvm we go infront see see first"
yi: "eh kai jie.."
kj: "o.o?"
yi: "they are holding on to the enrolment letter ._."
kj: "oh great. nvm we go see see first."
yi: "okok. =="

so we walked.
if you know how rp looks like.
and where the avagro hall 4.
and u now hear me say abt the structure of the queue.
you will understand.
how long it was. ._.
we go into rp.
pass the water.
and enter the building.

yi: "woah. how deserted. like no ppl de"
kj: "ya lo. i looked from my window like no ppl de."

and we walked pass the small stage.
and we saw the queue.
it's like that.
(treat / as straight lines and ` as nth)
. ___________
`/```` ````` /
`/````` ```` /
`/`````` ``` /
`/``````` `` /
`/ ``` ------ ---------
`/ ```/`` Avagro` ``/
`/ ```/``` Hall ``` `/
`/ ```/ ````4 ```` `/
`/ ````---------------
`/
`/
`/
`/
`/
`/
`/
`/
`/
`/
`/
`/
`/
`/
`/
`/
`/
. < - we are here

well.
im not exagerrating at all.
you all know how big rp is.
and the corridoor to the avagro halls need walk very long.
and that queue even went out of the corridoor to the open space.

yi: "woah not bad ah."
*while walking thru the corridoor
yi: "woah so long sia"
*continue walking
yi: "yue lai yue chang le T_T"
*still walking
yi: "ha..ha.."
*still in the corridoor
yi: "where's the bloody avagro hall 4 is."
*still walking thru the corridoor.
*reached a turn.
yi: "-______-"

know why this face?
because we turned and saw the queue's is from the hall till outside.
and we can't even see those station we need to report to.
totally blocked by the queue.
and those queue was not single person queue.
it's thick.
with around 3 ppl tgt.
and that's thruout the queue.
den we started to sit on the 4 step stairs.
there chit chat.

yi: "let's try our luck see if can see dao we know de ppl den go "hiya, so concidence see you here (cut the queue)" "
kj: "sure"
yi: "den jiu kao ni le. my network range short. no friends."
kj: "._."
yi: "let's go"

while searching, here comes the ppl 'we' knew.
which is reeve and siang yee.
the ppl I knew. hahahas.
not bad.
i said my network short.
but become i found dao ppl we knew.
hahas.
and after chatting with sy and reeve awhile
we continue our search for familar ppl hahas.
but the long queue inside.
not even one ppl we knew.
and i only saw 1 chio bu nia ._.
sadded. lols.
so we went out of rp without doing any enrolment de thingy.
and decided to go back rp at 4 45 (enrolment period ends at 5)
so i went home take those things that i missed out for the enrolment.
and went to andy house slack.
watch xy play audi.
and want shui but shui bu liao de nap.
and kena bully by the xy.
._.
take my hp and keep don return me.
sadded.
and what more sad is.
she calls me gorilla and destroy my image ._.
wth~~
==
me now shuai ge leiis =D
wahahhaas.
no ppl call me cute anymore.
LOL.
but became lion le.
lol~
hahas.
nvm lion is better den cute.
i don wan cute~~~~
ahahas.
okok
den at 5 30.
i went back home.
andy went to work.
and go home sleeeeeeeep.
ahahahas.
ok.
jiu like that le.
cya~~

2009-03-09T07:20:00.003+08:00

wooo.
hello guys =D.
new week has begin~~
ahahahas.
lets cut this crap ._.
well.
during sat.
the same old thing again.
andy came my house.
he use comp.
play ge.
and i sleep.
sleep dao sunday 3 plus.
woke by xian de holy msg.
"u and andy still want pool? ;)"
and i said anything (kian de trademark, wahahahas)
and the holy dragon jia dao.
came my house at 4+? forget le.
with his holy guardian angel.
xiu yan.
ahahahas.
and thats when me and andy found out GE got 1 function super good.
informed by kian.
and we discuss abt it.
hahas.
so the holy dragon while waiting for us.
sleep on my sofa with his fire breath from his nose.
wooot.
im in my lala land.
LOL.
ahahahas.
(look at the time now, i haven't sleep. don't blame me.)
and so we "fast foward"
faster change clothes and went to amk play pooooool~~~.
ahahahas.
and i suddenly became a pinching bag.
woot.
new word?
pinching worhhs.
ppl become punching bag i become pinching bag.
due to a siao zha bo.
the unholy evil devil ._.
which is xiu yan again.
==
to xian is diff.
to me is diff.
wahahahas
oh ya btw.
xian don't jealous nia~~
wo shi yuan wang de. =(
ahahahas.
show me that bao gong de lian.
._.
black dao chao ta.
zzz.
play dao yi ban.
xian and xy go dating =D
so i and andy play alone.
den when they come back.
already half of the time we played pool gone.
so in the end me and andy played most of the game.
well well.
shui ran shuo wo ye you go out with xy.
bie xiang tai duo.
went to shop for lollipop (in the end only andy got ._.)
and look bags? ._.
den jiu went back.
*end game*
den all go andy house.
xian take phone jiu go le.
and that andy chu stunt.
i at living room waiting for him.
thinking he wash face need how long.
in the end found out he chatting phone with liyan at his room.
go to hell man. ._.
den we set off to my house.
after awhile.
we go back andy house.
becus of andy chu-ing some stunt.
jus like that.
become i stay at andy house le ._.
den now andy song liyan go sch le.
come back my house slack le.
ahahahas.
ps ah readers.
no dialouge this time.
everytime write will run out of ideas nia.
hahas. =p
cya~~

2009-03-07T21:26:00.002+08:00

yo lols.
ps ah long time no come post le.
cus zui jing busy nia.
ermm.
should say lazy ba.
hahas.
andy zhui jing also keep come my house use comp ma.
den i nvr post~
we all chionging GE.
hahas.
and i also dunno wad to post about ya?
nvr go out.
nan dao talk abt andy meh ._.
hahas.
today sat.
no work.
but also nvr go out.
well.
so i lie on bed for 15 hours.
sleeping.
ahahahas.
from midnight 4 sleep dao evening 7.
hahahs.
maybe if tml go out.
jiu got things to post le.
hahahas.
stopping here le.
bye~

2009-03-02T04:58:00.004+08:00

ok now.
here's more of the same webby quiz.
becus of tabby spamming lots of quiz on her blog.
some are quite fun and accurate.
and i'm super bored now.
due to the half a deer that told me,
his coming at 7 30am.
and now i have to wait him .__.
2 hours more.
lets play with some quiz now =D

You are 17% mean.

You may like picking on ppl, but you also have a good heart. It's okay to joke around sometimes, so keep doing what your doing.

Are you a mean person?
Take More Quizzes

You are 53% emo!

um, think about it? life is good! Being emo is not always happy, is it? Change your style a little, maybe life will be better if you do so. Smile in mirror and make funny faces! it might work

Are You Emo or Anti-Emo?
Take More Quizzes

What mental disorder do you have? Your Result: Manic Depressive You have extreme cycles of highs and lows. Sometimes you feel like you don't know who you are. One week you could be very hyper and happy and the next week you are slow and depressed.
ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder)
Paranoia
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)
What mental disorder do you have? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Gamer/Computer Nerd You enjoy the visual stimulants of a video game, chatting on AIM, or reading online comics. Most of these types of nerds are considered dirty who lack hygeine, of course they always end up being the ones who make a crapload of money. And don't worry, that's just a stereotype; I'm not calling you dirty. ^_~
Science/Math Nerd
Anime Nerd
Musician
Social Nerd
Drama Nerd
Artistic Nerd
Literature Nerd
What Be Your Nerd Type? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Probability of killing, 34%

So you have problems with enemies, maybe dont have a high enough self-esteem, or play a few violent videogames. Cutting it a little close there. Try to keep your cool, alright?

Are you capable of killing
Take More Quizzes

What's Your Best Quality? Your Result: Loving Your best quality is loving! People like you because of your loving nature. You are a nice person that cares about others. Your loving nature makes you a good friend.
Out-Going
Personality
Sense of Humor
Ambitious
Intelligence
What's" Your Best Quality? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

What stereotype do you belong to? Your Result: Gamer Plays games at least 4 hours a day, every day. Has a myspace layout with the game logo on it. Has more games than can count. most friends are also gamers.
Loner
Emo
geek/nerd
Punk
No stereotype
Jock
Preppy
What stereotype do you belong to? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

What kind of person is attracted to you? Your Result: Funny and Cute Your type of person is loving yet at the same time humorus and fun!Your person is adorable and is also very connected to you.Your person will always pull a joke just to see you smile.
Funloving and Strong
Smart and Serious
What kind of person is attracted to you? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Which Positive Quality Are You? Your Result: Love You are Love. Love is the glue that binds us all together. The love of family, the love of friends, the love between husbands and their wives--these things form the foundation of our happiness, our security, and our comfort. "All you need is love."
Friendship
Peace
Faith
Courage
Charity
Which Positive Quality Are You? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Are You Gay, Bi, or Straight? Your Result: Straight Your result indications that you are straight. Heterosexual. Attracted to the opposite sex. This probably does not come as a surprise to you. You are in the majority and your relationships will be accepted by society. Consider yourself lucky.
Bisexual
Gay
Are You Gay, Bi, or Straight? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

You might be57%good looking

You are average!Congrats you'r average!!!! Which means that you are probably a cutie or just about a cutie!!!! Nice job!

Do you look good? (for boys and girls)
Take More Quizzes

You have a 84% chance of survival.

You survived 5 years. Zombies from around the world wanted revenge on you, and they gave you the virus. Your now one of them, and so are your friends. Take the quiz again.

Could you survive against zombies?
Take More Quizzes

You are 66% random!

Your random, but sometimes you just want to forget it and be practical. And because of this you sort of have two lives, one as a comedian and the other as a smart, practical person. You like both lives a lot.

Just answer Truthfully... Learn something about you!
Take More Quizzes

What is your strongest emotion? Your Result: Love/Happiness It appears love and peace and prosperity is your strongest emotion. You want everyone to be just as happy as you don't want anyone hurt and will do anything to make everyone smile
Fear
Lust/Attention Whore
Jealousy
Hate/Anger
Sadness
Guilt/Regret
Greed
What is your strongest emotion? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-03-01T22:35:00.005+08:00

woot lai lai
march le~
hahas
before the next day in march faster come post first ahahas.
well.
first of all.
best of luck to those taking common test next week =)
fishy~ hamster~ and xinxin~
ahahas.
well.
just came back from pool with kai jie and xian.
at woodland point.
hahas.
went back there to play le.
den jiu go eat kfc.
at there slack and talk until 9+.
den went home.
hahas.
i lazy post le.
so stopping here =p
buaiss

a quiz i took from jia hui blog. true true!!

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Disappointment
Death
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
Looked down on
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-02-28T14:01:00.001+08:00

woooohoooo.
i've dyed my hair le.
ahahahas.
dyed orange.
not bad luhs.
hahas.
now i'm lacking of sleep ._.
slept at 4+.
woke at 9+
ahahahas.
tired nia.
later xian coming to my house.
maybe could give him a fright =x
ahahahas.

2009-02-28T01:54:00.005+08:00

a quiz tagged by xian. sun bian update yi xia blog. nth to write abt. cus nth happen =x hahahas. gogogo.

1: Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
confidential? =x (nth hentai D:)

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
morning? i woke up in the afternoon xD

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
good qn, i dunno how long nvr take pic with ppl le. =x

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
no.

5: Would you ever donate blood?
i lack blood myself ._.

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
xinxin~ =D

7: Do you want someone dead?
is god considered 'someone'?

8:What does your last text message say?
Watch them play lo. Hahas.

9:What are you thinking of right now?
what color should i dye my hair ._."

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
yes yes yes =(

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
6am+

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
it's free. and is limited edition. NYP orientation T-shrit =x

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
yea, *secret* =)

14: Who was the last person to text you?
xinxin~ ^^

Tag ppl to do, (think dao who jiu write =x)
1. half a deer~ (andy)
2. NaCl dragon~ (xian)
3. xinxin~ (qixin)
4. laoya~ (liyan)
5. fishy~ (yuhui)
6. zhu~ (xiuyan)
7. tang guo~ (candiie)
8. yuki~ (ronald)
9. hei xiong~ (hong jin)
10. gan tang~ (alwin)

15: Who is 2 having a relationship with?
6!!! =D ahahahas. lovely =x

16: Is 3 a male or a female?
non. cus IT was a star. =x

17: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing?
WOAH, that's extremely good. both food. very easy "shou"

18: What is Number 1 studying about?
yanzi =D

19: Is Number 4 single?
she's the one that number 1 studying about =x

20: Say something about Number 2.
his salty =(

21: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together?
they very tan de lai. not bad. =D it's ok for this generation de =x.

22: Describe Number 9.
the black bear *rawr*

23: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight?
they fight for xian i guess =p. i'll watch cat fight =D

24: Do you like Number 8?
can i say i hate him? lolol =x

25: What's number 5 doing now?
sleeping like a log. =p (in a fish tank)

ThE EnD*

2009-02-24T15:09:00.007+08:00

yahoo! ;x
hahas.
my previous post was that good?
some ppl said it's good.
hahahas.
maybe i should add more dialouge to my post le.
lolol.
i should ben lai post this in the am 3+ de.
but den become pm liaos.
hahahas.
cus play l4d dao 2+ or 3+ am
with kian, reeve and huat.
hahas.
after playing was tired.
so chiong into room and slp le.
(oh ya i bath be4 i go slp hahas)

ok.
lets say wad happen ytd again.
(cause i always post after that day ._.)
at 12.40 pm
xian sms-ed

xian: "you wake le ma? i'm going your house to return thumbdrive."
yi: *woke from the ringtone*
yi: *looked at the sms*
yi: "._.?"
yi *went to sleep =x*

ps ah xian.
cause was really tired.
so i continue sleep =x.
hahas.
no strength reply.
=x
so i woke up myself at 2+.
sms-ed xian that i wake le.
but den he went to his checkup le.
so i washed up and went to use comp.
xian said he will be coming after the checkup.
so he reached my house at 3+.
around 3 le.
my bro came back home.
checked the ICA operating hours.
prepared to go out le.
step out of house, said he forget to take something and came back in.
went to room take things le, step out of house again.
and said he forget to take something again.
and came back in.
and this time xian reached my house.
my bro went to room take things le.
come out.

fan: "hello, byebye =)"
xian: "hello. :)"
yi: "xian, it's hello, byebye."
xian: "huh? o.o?"
xian: *turned behind and look at the door*
(my bro has left.)
xian: "ohhhh. nvm la same de =x"

so xian at my house slack yi xia.
(btw my house still got my da sao.)
so i was using comp halfway.
my da sao came out and say.

tracy: "bi ah, lend me use comp play l4d."
yi: "eh?"
tracy: "i wanna kill zombies, cus mood not good"
yi: "orhhs."

so i let my da sao play comp.
i and xian sit on sofa chit chat.

yi: "eh xian, got read my post?"
(the post on 23rd)
xian: "err, no?"
yi: "aiya, wasted, should read before this situation."
xian: "why? what did u write about ._."
(his struggling me thinking that i have wrote something that is bad towards him -.-)
yi: "no la!! it's about.."
*pointing towards my da sao
xian: "o.o?"
*whisper
yi: "she play l4d is all-kill de, zai ma?"
xian: "._.?"
yi: "cause she killed even her teammates."
xian: "-.-"
yi: "=D"

so we crap until 4.
xian said he want to leave at 4.
cus he need to work.

xian: "sian, still need work."
yi: "it's ok de. 4 le."
xian: "._. nvm i 4 30 den go =x"
yi: "woah. ok =)"

so became 4 30 den xian go.
we still crapping.
until 4 30.

xian: "4 30 le. zzz."
yi: "don't worry, my alarm haven ring, means haven 4 30."
*showed xian my hp. it was 4 29.
xian: "-.- like that also can."
*ring ring ring!
yi: "ok 4 30 le. can go liao."
xian: " ._. help me open the door."
yi: "ok"
*went to open the door.
tracy: "bi!! you going where."
yi: "O.O?"
tracy: "how can u leave me alone to play this type of game!"
yi: "._. i never go anywhere, open door only."

so xian went to work.
i went into room and get changed.
styled hair.
woah.
this time i style dao very nice.
very happy.
so at 5 08
i went to work.
(cause i sms-ed fishy at this time that i going to work le =p)
work dao around 9.
fan came to eat.
tgt with reeve and siang yee.
and there i crap again.

*there's a mirror that blocks me from talking with them.
so i done this.
yi: *pointing towards number 18
reeve: "o.o?"
yi: *point closer and showed a thumb.
reeve: *looked at the price
yi: *smiled
reeve: "-.-"
(that was the most expensive set. $7 90 =x)

so after they finish their food.
they went to my house.
but i still have to work dao 10.
and because this time no need wash floor.
so i went home at 9 45.
reached home 10+.
saw siang yee playing l4d.
well.
den after siang yee play finish.
is reeve turn to play.
after awhile kian asked me to play l4d also.
so i jio-ed reeve too.
and so.
me, kian, reeve and huat play l4d tgt.
(sry ah andy, full le cannot ask u play. D: )
and reeve's the worst.
always friendly fire.
cannot make it ==
and nvr save me one.
lolol.
ke lian diao.
but den.
we played 2 campaign.
and both campaign last stage is only me survive and won the campaign.
i'm too pro =x.
ahahahahas.
after playing the 2 campaign.
siang yee and reeve went back home.
me and fan went to slp.
jiu like that.
hahas.

hmms.
let's crap something that i forgot to.
this should be posted at last post one.
but den i off comp le den rmb.
hahas.
it's about l4d de.
rmb that i played with xian l4d?
in the previous post.
it's about the witch that we fought.
and here it goes.
(we already went pass the witch and walked into the save gate.)

yi: "WAIT! don't close the door yet."
xian: "o.0?"
yi: "i wanna fight the witch."
xian: "-.-"
yi: "xian folo me~"
xian: "f3"

(i went out of save house with a shotgun.)
suddenly a hunter jump onto of me. when i turned behind, guessed what? XIAN WAS IN THE SAFEHOUSE!! he didn't come out. and so the pathetic me was looking at the hunter on how he dig my body. lucky got comp which came and save me. so, with a little hp, i went to find the witch.
(i'm crippled)

**lets look at andy house.**

andy: "xian let me play. i help yi fight witch"
xian: "okay."
*switched player

**lets come back to me.**

yi: "rdy le ma? i go fight le. cover me."
*approaching witch.
*looked at her standing up.
*aim-ed her head.
*BANG. (fired from my shotgun)
yi: "._.?"
*bang bang bang* (shot by andy's rifle.)
*Witch was startled by L.V.
yi: "=x"

Woah! L.V. is andy. Know why the witch went to find andy and not me which is just 1 centimeter away from her? because i missed the shotgun fire with that range. and andy heard the shotgun sound and tot the witch fight has started. so he came shooting the witch. in the end, the one who started shooting her was andy.

andy: "wth. non of my business la"
yi: "err.."
andy: "why is i startled her."
yi: "because i missed her -.-"
andy: "._."
yi: "=p"

and there goes. andy, the innocent party which in the end became HIS the one fighting the witch. =x.

ok.
now i'm alone at home.
and it's super bored.
i'm dying from bordem.
oh ya!
anyone who is bored or sian.
just sms me.
no worries.
i can do the entertaining. =x
ahahhaas.
cus i need someone to let me entertain so i wont bored too.
ahahahas.
ok la.
i stopping here le.
byeeeeeee

2009-02-23T04:13:00.004+08:00

weeeeeeeeeee.
hello guys =)
ahahahas.
this post gonna be long =x
hahas

ytd was fun~
i chao high de.
lolol.
well.
the story begins when i'm awake at 12.
because of a phone call.
by half a deer.

yi: "hello.."
andy: "eh yi ah, today i no work. cus i stomach ache."
yi: "oh. good for you den."
andy: "hahas. okay bye~"
yi: "._. bb."

and i can't get to sleep after that.
hahahas.
so i came out.
and saw da sao using my comp.
so i used lappy and play l4d single player.
(oh my da sao also playing)
trust me.
nvr jio my da sao to play this type of game.
the way she play can kill everything.
including the teammates ._.
lucky is she play cheats de.
god mode.
den all allies wont die.
lol.
when zombie all come out.
she spray the bullets everywhere.
she will go like.

"AHHHHH!!" *shove the mouse 360 degree while shooting*

den after that.
i jio andy to play l4d with me.
cleared a normal campaign.
and xian is at andy house.
so the 2nd campaign is played by xian.
woah.
the all-kill dragon.
even me also shoot.
cool man.
everytime shooting zombies suddenly my back tio attack..
den turn back.
saw xian char looking at me.
"._."
well.
we played until the last stage.
and xian died.
sadded.
but we won.
hahas.
(i'm too pro ^^ =x)
den after that.
it was 7+ already.
and we went to bugis.
they wanted to buy watch and bag.
but in the end.
we did a window shopping.
den went mac chit chat yi xia.
xian eat mega mac
while me and andy shared a black forest ice cream.
hahas.
and talk crap talk dao 11+
went to take mrt.

andy: "we take go joo kiat de train one."
on board!
(and we talk about Mr. Bean.....)
yi: "err, did we changed from green line to red line yet? o.o"
andy: "oh ya. we overshot. zzz"
xian: "should we get down now?"
andy: "yea we should -.-"
*get off board*
yi: "so andy, you really wanna go to joo kiat ah? =="
andy: "LOL!"
oh thats crapping.
on board again!
yi: "let's talk about bean again =D"
andy: "chu stunt ._. OK de."
(but we didn't talk about mr. bean anymore hahas)

so we reached raffles place.
changed to red line.
we 3 sit at near corner de.
den andy sit corner, i middle, xian side.
andy went to his lala land.
me and xian talk talk.
and when suddenly xy sms xian.
woah.
that's the time i suddenly become high diao.
i crap dao siao.
(the person sitting beside xian is laughing non-stop)
den it's time for the dream walker to come back to life.
den we both di siao xian abt xy.
ahahahas.
reached admiralty.
and we started playing catching? ._.
because andy typed a sensitive msg to xy abt xian.
oh yea. using my hp -.-"
(and holy i'm being scolded perverted gorilla for nth!)
xian went to chase andy.
and i'm the innocent middle person.
trying to catch up both of them.
doing the meditator.
lolol.
we kept run around.
until finally very tired le.
den xian don wan chase andy le.
den went into andy house.
i was dehydrating already.
i was thinking.

"yea! finally can drink water."
yi: "help me get a glass of water ty!"
*went to andy's room
*sit down.
*stand up.
*went to kitchen.
"._.?"
andy was holding a knife preventing xian from getting close -.-

oh great.
and that's when i forgot that im thirsty.
and that xy keep di siao my hair.
wth@*&#*!^#!
and after sitting down resting in andy's room.
after awhile jiu need go le.
cus xian need get back home soon.
and i going his house to install l4d.
so we took off.
(before we go, i keep play xian. don let him come out hahas.)

*Take note for xiu yan.
(for wad i owe u, ask from xian. he will settle for me =D.)

oh and off we go to xian house.
i'm still very high.
crap and shouting like nobody business.
LOL.
oh ya.
i'm often high at midnight.
hahahas.
and when we walk dao evg primary le.
xian tell me his parent not asleep.
(his bro told him)
so i might not be able to go his house le.
and so i lend him the thumbdrive with l4d.
and i went home.

(just before i reached home, xian sms-ed me)
xian: "come now"
yi: "come now wad? == i reaching home liao leiis =="
xian: "zzz.. nvm"

and reached home.
waited for xian to install his l4d.
but until now it's still not done yet.
oh well.
i played l4d with my bro, joe and huat.
played 2hr+
until now.
cus lose.
den all don wan play le.
want slp liao.
so i come post.
be4 i went to slp and forget wad happen ytd.
hahas.
ok.
ima stopping here le.
sayonara~

2009-02-22T04:02:00.003+08:00

hello hello.
come post le.
hmms hmms.
lets talk about ytd ba.
since it's past 12am le.

yesterday woke at around 4+.
hahas.
den went out at 5
went to qixin de block.
wait her get rdy.
is very hot de lo ==
and andy was waiting for us at cwp.
he waited for 1 hour before we reached =x
but den.
i waited for qixin for 30 min.
under block somemore.
is very hot de -.-
andy got his air con there.
lolol.
den me and qixin took 913 to cwp.
but the bus was slow de lo.
waited for a long time be4 one came.
so andy had to wait very long.
hahas.
den when we 3 meet le.
wanted to go sakae sushi eat one.
but den.
own staff are unable to eat at his/her outlets.
wth is this stupid rule.
so andy cannot eat sakae sushi.
we changed to seoul garden.
OMG.
is expensive dao i bwg.
30$/person.
ahhhhh.
eat money ah~~
innocent money fly le.
lolol.
nvm.
enjoy jiu hao.
hahas.
eat around 1 hr 30min like that.
jiu went out le.
we very naughty.
cause got alot food left.
den dunno how to handle.
all very full le.
den we also no soup le.
i go test see meat will float at the soup anot.
den found out wont float.
so will sink at btm.
den i go tell them take more soup come.
woot.
refill the soup le.
i go put all the meat into the soup.
den we make the run for the exit.
ahahahas.
lame diao.
cus if got leftovers will fine 5$ ma.
hahas.
den all sink cannot see.
LOL.
lame lame.
den we walk around cwp.
saw liang bao and jia hui.
hahas.
saw alot ppl la.
but don't really rmb still got who le.
hahas.
den when going back home.
take bus.
saw liang bao again.
same bus.
lol.
hahas.
den reach home le.
andy come my house play l4d.
den my bro and kian play tgt.
hahas.
was scary and funny luhs.
but last stage keep die.
but finally win.
saved by kian.
hahas.
and at 3+
andy went home.
i was washing dish.
so after washing le.
jiu come post.
hahas.
jiu like that.
ending here le
byee ;3

2009-02-20T19:10:00.005+08:00

yoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyo!
hoho.
come post post le.
hahahas.
currently no updates on the newly couple.
don't be disappointed guys.
soon soon.
there will be news soon xD
ahahahhas.
btw.
today went out with my bro and kian to amk
went to eat chicken rice first.
and den..
play p0oL!!
wahahahhaas.
but den skill wasn't up to expected.
nvm.
maybe play too much le den abit strange liao.
hand don't synchronize with my brain ledi.
hahas.
but still fun luhhs.
after pool.
went walk around amk.
go to ip zone.
test alot clothes and pants.
and bought some things.
i bought a pant and a print tee.
my bro bought a pant.
and we shared a cardigans.
hahas.
thou we will still share all clothes de.
blehhs.
hahas.
den after that jiu went home le.
btw.
for those who interested in K-Pool de price.
later i write for you all.
for pool table only.
hahas.
quite exp la.
but i don't mind wasting money on my hobbies ^-^
and today is need to work one.
but didnt go also.
my mum say today not really alot ppl.
den don't go ba.
at home rest =x.
hahas.
ok le.
im stopping le.
cya guys. =)

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(i'm a member there ^^)

2009-02-18T23:22:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHH.
my hand itchy.
feel like posting again.
posting 2 time in a day huh.
hahahas.
got a fishy told me not to write her on my blog.
how sadded.
lolol.
ok den.
don write her le.
=x.

oh ya.
the newly couple.
yue lai yue close le worhhs~
ahahahhaas.
JIA YOU!
DON APRIL FOOL LE.
(u know what i mean luhs hahahaha)

today my mood chao high de.
and i feel that i'm becoming younger liao -.-
now keep playing.
i mean.
i'm talking like a small children.
LOL.
ahahahahas.
after so a few weeks of stressful days.
now i finally out of stress life.
back to my own life.
children is goooooooooooood ^-^
lalalas.
and also.
i'm working again le.
monday to friday.

ok.
now serious.
get to the point that.
i don't like to get pushed around.
yu hui and qixin.
yu hui at there keep say me and qixin.
qixin at there keep say me and yu hui.
i don't like this feeling. zzz
i now don't wanna think about love.
i wanna be single.
the freedom from single.
it's all i wanted.
so don't say me and who le k?
ty.

2009-02-18T14:47:00.002+08:00

woah!
a news.
but still haven confirm yet.
but maybe.
there might be a newly couple coming in.
to our group!
nono
should say.
from our group!
ahahahas.
lets not say their name first.
well.
they wont know i'm writing about them too.
ahahahhas.
very qi dai.
and that old couple.
*to andy.
qixin and yu hui complain to me that ur lovely darling have no ppl to pei her.
work is work.
but den.
find more time to pei her lo~
don't make ur schedule so full ledi.
they also say part timer need 16 hours for 1 week only.
u go 1 day 8 hour.
1 week add up already passed dunno how much liao.
==
*to yanzi
wei~
u must ti liang yi xia ur honey~
his working for you nia.
he want earn lots of money to let u play~
do alot things.
so forgive him cannot pei you ba~
hahas.

well.
thou i know they two won't read my blog de.
but jus write for fun luhs.
maybe next time got miracle they come read.
hahas.

2009-02-17T18:13:00.004+08:00

hoi hoi!
Konnichiwa~
Hajimemashite =)

HaPpY BiRtHdAy To XiU YaN aka the PIG.

you can tell i'm just too bored.
my pal are all working!
andy aka half a deer has his day occupied by work at sakae sushi.
xian aka salty dragon has his day occupied by work at geylang ;x
(maybe he every time go there do "something wrong" we also dunno =x)
den now no ppl pei me go out play~
sadded.
i want pool~
anyone wanna pool? =D
take note* it's not swimming pool.
oh ya.
i want my member card!
they are taking a long time to do the card sei.
taking a receipt as a card is so un-cool~
booo!
and don't call me CUTE.
it's sensitive!
*especially noted to xian and qixin.
argh!.
gahhh D:

jin and elliott just found work too.
oh, they're aka the GaYs =)
argh.
there goes 2 of my friend.
but den.
their work isnt that often.
if i'm not wrong.
it's banquet waiter.
ahahahas.
wish them good luck.
don't fall when holding on to food.
ahahahahas.

btw good luck to xinxin (qixin) de schoolwork.
aka my master ._.
woot!
also dunno why suddenly become HER pig le.
-.-
lolol.
nvms.
as long as she's happy with it.
hahas.
xi shen xiao wo.
lolol.
btw, she's quite stressed up in hwk and study.
ahahahas.
to put her and me tgt is yi ge tian yi ge di.
i've nvr even care for study.
even O level also nvr cared.
nvr stressed in sch work be4.
(that's why i no white hair at all ;). )
wahahahas.
and hwk.
my family can rarely see me touch hwk.
cause i don't give it a damn =p
go home jiu shi comp le.
and study comp for O level too =)
lolol.
it's like i everyday no hwk one.
ahahahas.
sch teacher already xi guan me le ba.
hahas.
always no pass up hwk de.
lolol.
but to think that.
with this kind of attitude.
i can get up to sec 5.
quite not bad nia.
if i really went to study.
where am i now.
posting here?
won't le ba.
ahahahas.
maybe everything will changed.
just a single thing change will make my life change.
ahahahas.
thats how's life isn't it.
thats why we can't afford to make mistake in life.
and don't do anything that makes you regret.
cause there's no U-turn le.
hahas.

as for yu hui aka fishy the gong dai!
another one which keep hwk hwk.
but not as stress as qx ba.
ahahahas.
well.
wish she and her bf can last long long ;0
hahas.
valentine day she spend most of her time not with her bf but with us.
sadded.
cause her bf got tuition.
and when they can meet up de shi hou.
the fishy jiu need go her music lesson le.
quite sad uhs.
lols.
nvm.
i know their love can last =)
her parents just came back to singapore from taiwan.
and she's complaining to me how much she wanna go taiwan.
quite cute luhs.
and she always gong gong de.
lolol.
she's more compatible for cute more den me.
so don't say me cute le.
say her jiu hao.
ahahahas.

xiu yan the pig.
hahas.
today her birthday.
happy birthday =)
but den.
she sick on her birthday.
awww.
that's kinda sad ==
hahas.
well.
she's still cute as usual.
my type de~
hahas.
but i don't love her le.
i know it.
hahas.
the circle of friendship will last forever.
the hearts of love is easily broken.
so i rather friends bah.
hahas.
she'll be the piggy.
i'll be the gorilla (._.)
ahahahas.
same.
as long as they happy.
call me anything also can de.
hahas.
(but gorilla abit ugly ==)
lolol.

liyan.
aka the yan zi
hahas.
nowadays.
she became rude liao -.-
guai lan.
woot.
lolols.
always ding zhui le.
yi qian still quite cute de.
now not cute at all.
liyan sux xD
ahahahas.
the best known couple around us.
the LIYANDY.
hahas.
wish them can be tgt forever =)
en en ai ai.
yong bu fen li.
eww.
abit rou ma.
hahahas.
=p
thou couple quite good
single also good.
at least.
now im free.
and i love freedom.
carefree.
ahahahas.
andy quite ke lian la.
tied liao.
but den.
to him.
he should be very happy ba.
he will feel very xin fu ba.
hahas.
the way liyan wake him up from his bed.
(quote from his msn)
he loves it, isn't it ;)
hahas.

woah.
but there's one thing bothers me.
which is andy dad.
his somehow misunderstood between me and xiu yan.
we're just friends!
don't misunderstand me!
cause everytime go their house.
his glance towards me.
is..
fierce.
sense of fire.
unfriendly.
LOL.
maybe i should not go their house that often already.
it's like i'm one part of their family le -.-
keep go their house stay.
ahahahas.

this are those people who pei me walked this sian life.
hahahas.
very glad that i have them.
wish i won't lose them =)
this friendship will never be broken!
hahas.
this post quite special lolol.
ok la.
i'll stop now.
cya guys =)

*add-on* 11pm edited.
my dearrrrrrrr xinxin is complaining that i'm biased now ._.
biased that i wrote myself nvr wrote more abt her.
ahahahas.
actually is too tou ru to myself de thing den forget writing abt her.
okok.
well.
she on monday got her SPA test.
lets wish her good luck on her test ba =)
everyday study so hard.
study dao so late.
sooooooo hardworking.
wants to get her top 10.
ahahahas.
xinxin!
don't top 10 le.
go for top 3.
get ur name listed.
on the screen.
O level result.
Ng Qi Xin.
hahahas.
well.
oh ya.
she always nvr take out contact lens.
need me nag den will take out.
==
still want to wear it to sleep.
nth to say.
bad habit.
need to change xD
hahas.

2009-02-16T21:59:00.001+08:00

holala!
pool rox xD
went 1v1 with xian at pool.
lolol.
xian so pro~
hahas.
and went to eat sakae sushi.
sun bian visit yi xia andy.
he working there now.
hahas.
didnt really wanna post.
so just a few words will do.
bye =p

2009-02-14T20:19:00.002+08:00

*headache*
i'm thinking what should i buy for xy ==
now is not don't want buy because of what le.
now i'm super blur on what should i buy ==
oh man.
headache.
i really don't know what she like.
and what she wants.
and i'm super weak at choosing present.
oh my god!
zzz nvm.
lets say about today ba.
start off at me waking up at 12+
den get prepared and went to andy house.
liyan already at his house.
but still need go home.
den yu hui came.
den liyan came back.
and we took off to amk at 3+
den meet qixin and jeff at kpool entrance.
went in teach yu hui and qixin play pool.
treat yu hui and qixin also ==
i'm gonna broke soon.
hahahas.
keep treat ppl to pool.
lols.
den jiu play dao 6+.
den go to cwp.
den walk around cwp.
cus qixin wanna buy present.
and i still dunno wad to get.
den jiu went back home le.
hahahas.
lazy write le. =p
cya~

2009-02-12T13:42:00.002+08:00

hello hello~
welcome me?
ahahahas.
also nothing nice to post about.
ahahahas.
this few days at home slp more den 12 hours ==
ahahahas.
really got nothing to do.
everyday only stare screen.
getting bored of my wallpaper ==
games also sian.
i play awhile jiu bored dao no hope le.
anime also nth nice to watch.
den drama i keep rewatch also sian.
ahhhhh~
life is so meaniless now ==
one word to say.
BORED.
gahh D: (that's what xian always do)
boooooo
ah!
yesterday.
i suddenly keep thinking of her ya ==
becus of that andy.
told me abt her de thing.
aww dammit ==
hao bu rong yi don think of her de.
sian sia.
everytime one person mention about her.
everything came back.
and i have to walk from starting point again.
that's hard man ==
aye~
nvm.
lets wait for 14 feb den.
valentine day~!
well now.
don't misunderstood.
i'm not going out with girlfriend.
is outing with those who don't have girlfriend or boyfriend or no date on that day.
ahahahas.
isolated people gathering.
the f0rg0tt3n people! ahahahas.
and it's my favourite again!
kpool ;3
yeaaaa~
faster 14 faster 14!!
i'm waiting for you~
waiting for you~
ahahahas.
kinda wild this time.
don't blame me.
i'm just too bored.
and trying to post with something.
ahahahas.
k stop here.
bye~~

2009-02-09T11:39:00.002+08:00

y0z.
came to post le.
not bad uhs.
have been updating regularly
hahas.
cus at home nth to do =x
okok.
lets talk abt wad happen ytd ba.

well.
xian came my house at 1+
as we want to go cwp buy things.
we called andy to ask him if he wanted pool.
and he said need wait cus he still outside.
den we at my house slack dao 3+ den go cwp.
den zui hou only xian buy his bata slippers.
lolol.
we wanted to buy present one.
but den for me.
i think she wont want ba.
later she see my present.
"wa sian, he again."
lols.
i know my imagination is good.
but den.
i can't stop thinking like that.
as the way she treat me so cold.
as for xian.
i also dunno why he don wan buy.
aww who cares.
den we meet andy le.
jiu went amk hub play pool.
i became a member there.
hahas.
20$ for first year.
renew member for 10$ every year.
hahas.
so if want pool.
ask me out! xD
was fun there luhs.
i won alot.
i slot every match black ball, except for the last match.
which is andy slot in the black ball.
well.
cannot say i won every match.
cus got 1 match with xian.
i slot in black ball.
TOGETHER with white ball.
awwww.
foul win = lose
ahahahs.
too bad.
den play dao 7+
went to andy house take things.
den xian continue stay there.
dunno wad time he left.
but i went there bu dao 10 min ba.
jiu go le.
surprised i so early went home?
cus very bu zi zai.
she see me and i see her.
we both so bu zi zai like that.
what for mian qiang.
she cant leave.
so i leave den.
hahas.

btw.
good luck xian.
u know what i mean huh.
xD.
and today is 9th le.
andy de appeal result is out today.
lets all wish him get his loved school which is nyp.
thou i also want him to go rp pei wo.
but cannot like that las.
hahas.
and i need to go do my NS de thingy le.
hahas.
so cya guys.
byeee

2009-02-07T20:52:00.004+08:00

hellos~
hahas.
lets talk abt what happen on friday night bah.
went to andy house.
to drink wine.
hahahas.
out of bordem =x
den at his house stay overnight.
dao today morning.
liyan came his house.
den need go CO le.
jiu go home.
use yi xia comp.
chat on msn with esther.
den go prepare.
and went to andy house again at 12+
den we around 12 45 den go to admiralty mrt meet yi ru and yu hui.
but they late.
around 1 30 den reach.
den they eat le.
jiu come my house play 2 match of majong.
on the way to my house meet dao theresa le.
after that jiu go liyan house
her house is big de lo ==
kaos.
den qx came at 3+
but went home very early.
also not sure wad time.
maybe 5 ba.
den at there slack dao 5 30.
me, theresa, yu hui and yi ru left liyan house.
andy pei liyan go skate.
so me, theresa, yu hui and yi ru went to teresa house.
slack bu dao 15min.
jiu need go le.
cus yi ru in a rush.
need to go home le.
so we went home.
den yi ru walk the diff as me and yu hui.
so we jiu walk walk walk.
reach my block le.
saw my mum and sis.
say hi yi xia.
jiu walk yu hui dao 888.
but we talk dao walk pass 888 le.
den say want song her dao her home.
den i think yi xia.
maybe sun lu can go help my mum.
jiu ask my mum need ppl anot.
but no need.
den my mum told me go there eat.
so also go lo.
den yu hui jiu don wan go home le.
den we walk all the way to vista.
den go there.
i only drink water nia.
nvr eat.
lolol.
see yu hui eat ==
wad funny thing is.
becus my mum de worker.
think she was my gf.
den she keep look at yu hui and laugh.
yu hui keep complain to me ==
what can i do sei.
tell her don laugh meh.
LOL ==
den she finally finish her food.
jiu walk her to her music class.
jiu go home le.
thats all for now xD.
cya~

2009-02-06T12:10:00.006+08:00

well.
hello guys.
i've decide to stop loving her le.
cause i can see that my love is causing disturbance to her.
i only want her to be happy.
well.
quite sad huh.
yea.
its indeed very sad.
my heart already numb.
how many scar does they really want to leave on me?
im kind of innocent huh.
well.
my life is going back to wad it is.
i just slept nearly 11 hours.
so uncool.
is there really a girl i can find that could last? ==
from what i've experienced.
can't zzz.
guess i'm locked at house by myself again.
did u realise that this few days i've been outside.
becus of her.
yea.
but now.
the only reason is gone.
i'm back to my old self.
don't blame me.
i'm myself.
it's no wrong going back.
i'm anti social ya?
hahas.
ok.
i'll be stopping here.
cya guys.

*Add-on* edited at 6pm.
ahhhh!
i did housework~
i take cloth to clean the house.
mop the floor.
wash the dish.
thou its seem a LITTLE more tidy.
but at least its clean ==
well, maybe i just need to hypnotize myself in work.
if not my mind will go hay wire.
lolol.
it's hard to forget her ya.
well~
lets try my best!
weeeeeeeeeeee

2009-02-04T17:02:00.003+08:00

tadah!
changed blogskin ledi.
hahas.
tell u all wad.
I LOVE TAN ZHI QING!!!
i don't want and won't change my love for her!
but den.
does she even loves me ._.
ahahahas.
well.
as long as she's happy.
i'm fine with anything.
i just wish she won't lie to me.
oh well.
lets see what i have to post.
hmms.

on 2nd feb.
me and andy went to nyp for appeal.
well.
there are sign boards everywhere prepared for those who wanted to appeal.
so we followed it to the place where there are alot ppl inside.
alot course councellor and ppl who wanted to appeal.
yea.
there are boards for us to look at those course too.
and its recent COP, 2009 one.
so we took our time and look thru the COP of courses.
and noted alot changes of COP in our course.
soon.
we walked to the lappy and start appealing.
wow. when we reading thru the instructions.
it goes like. "woah!"
"Students who wishes to appeal have to met the mininum requirement and COP"
wth?
COP also must meet.
den when u want to appeal.
there are selections wher u can make only if u are eligble.
so the choice for me with 24 pointer.
is only around 10 course .____.
lols~
so in the end i couldn't make any appeal.
and gonna stick back my course.
which is interactive digital media.
republic poly.
awwww.
that wasnt really a course i wanted.
oh well.
thats life isn't it ;)
andy.
well.
he doesn't want to let ppl know what he was been posted.
so i'm ain't saying.
but he did appeal for courses.
well.
good luck to andy =)
after that.
we went to eat.
omgosh!
the food there was supreme!
extremely nice and cheap.
that was cool!
i wish i could study there and eat the food there -.-
well well.
after we ate finish.
i went to andy house.
reason is simple.
because of xiu yan.
oh please take note.
xiu yan is zhi qing and zhi qing is xiu yan.
blehhs =p
and i love her hohoho
xD
well.
slack at her house till 7+ where xian came.
and 9+ i jiu go home le.
but be4 i went home.
went with andy to buy things for his parent.
den go str8 home after that.
wanted to know why i so earlier go home.
because i swallowed a whole bottle of vinegar ==
lolol.
ahahahas.
oh well.
its past.
don care le.

on 3rd feb.
early in the morning jiu went xiu yan house.
*watch her slp =x*
ahahas.
but i scared her =(
sorries~
also can't blame.
i wasn't her bf or wad.
in her room looking at her -.-
it seems more like perverted rather than zheng chang.
lolol.
ahahahas.
den jiu went to cwp at 5+
with andy, xian and xiu yan.
den andy went to apply for job at sakae sushi.
best luck to u (again ._. i guess u really need alot of luck -.-)
den he went to fetch liyan.
den me, xian, xiu yan, andy, liyan went to eat pizza =D
at pizza hut of cus.
well.
after that.
jiu went to andy house slack again.
went home at 12.

ok.
just like that.
today not much to say.
stayed at home.
thou got abit emo-ed during morning.
becus of some prob.
well.
ahahahas.
to tell u all.
i'm really stressed up -.-
love is totally more difficult den studies.
i even o levels also no stress le.
den this love thingy make me stress dao i nth to say.
but den.
thats maybe what makes me have a life.
look.
be4 i started to get along back with xiu yan.
my life was empty.
everyday sleep more den 12 hours.
like nobody business.
and i don't like that.
now.
i sleep less den 5 hours a day.
becus i sleep late.
but wake up early to sms with her.
it makes me feel i got a life to carry on.
and i have to move on.
ahahahas.
well.
but maybe i'm not really her type.
we're not that destinated, are we?
well then.
i'll just keep on waiting for her.
even if it's just a one sided love.
care not if it's worth it or not.
i love her alot.
ok. ending here le.
cya guys.
buaissss~

*Add-on* edited at 12am.
i said something i can't really forgive myself to xy.
i don't know why i said that.
it's like yi qi zhi xia jiu say out le.
during that time.
my anger overtake me.
then the love is like change to hate.
i totally hate her ==
i hate her that she hide from me.
i hate her that she treats me so cold.
and i hate her when she lies to me.
but i still love her.
after awhile later.
the anger was gone.
the hate was gone too.
i dunno how to jiao dai zzzz.
suan le ba.
even if i never said those things.
its like we got no jie guo already.
i can sense no love from her.
i've nvr got any comfort from her that i wanted.
i've nvr hear any words from her that i wanted.
just a simple i love you from herself would be good.
and not when i say i wanna hear it.
its kinda pathetic.
that i always ask for 1.
but i always wanted to hear it.
it gave my heart the secure i need that shows that she loves me.
but.
is it even true?
i don't want any lies.
if she don't love me.
please say you don't.
and that will help me.
because i won't be given false hope that you're loving me.
but let me know you aren't.
after sending those stupid idiot sms.
xiu yan.
if you're reading.
i only can say.
i'm sorry.

i love her
i love her
i love her
i love her
i love her
i love her!!!!!

2009-02-02T02:15:00.002+08:00

hello hello~
i come post le
well.
lets talk about what happen on saturday.
i woke at 10+
and went to andy house at 11+
at there slack a little.
and alwin came to andy house with my chicken rice at 2+
den jin and xian came around close to 3+
and we went to brant house.
xiu yan came along too =D
when we reached.
saw seng, qixin, wei lun, kai jie, jeff.
den qixin and jeff came along with us to go pool at 4+
we went there is like take ang bao and shan ren like that.
lols.
we opened 4 tables.
it was like. siao? ==
but nvm.
we all had our chance to play.
ahahahas.
den we play dao 7.
jiu went home le.
me and xian went to andy house.
at there slack around with andy and xiu yan.
xian went home around 9 30
den left me to stay overnight there.
den jiu.. (secret)
den the next day.
which is sunday
woke up at 9 in the morning
den heard andy's dad say that they going out le.
so i go home.
xian came my house at 12 45.
den at my house slack.
slack dao 5.
andy they all reach home le.
asked them out to play pool.
so me, xian, andy and xiuyan went to pool again.
andy's mum drive us there.
reach there le.
we played 2v2 on 1 table.
after 2 match.
we started to play 1v1.
den andy and xian play first.
den jiu dao me and xy.
during we play.
that two bastard went out ==
to buy ice cream ._.
lolol.
said that its very long.
so go down.
and it's unfortunate to say xy de shoe spoil.
den had to bare foot play -.-
lolol.
den jiu 8 30.
we all go eat.
den andy's mum had been there the whole time we playing pool.
she fall asleep in the car ==
den she drive us back.
and reach home le.
bath yi xia.
jiu keep sms.
den came out to online.
chatted with a bunch of idiots =x.
thats 5 ppl hahas.
den nth to do le.
jiu came to post.
hahas.
ok.
thats all i wanted to say.
i wanna stop le.
cyas.

i love you

2009-01-31T00:50:00.004+08:00

hello guys =)
now i have alot to post.
this might be a long one den xD.
ahahahas.
cus this few days keep going out.
ima going to write all story down.
slowly and here goes =)

27th jan

chu er.
i went out to take ang bao with my bro.
first, we went to ah ma house to bai nian.
take some ang bao from my relatives.
den went to eat steamboat with my big bro, 3rd bro and da sao.
i'm very ke lian.
always tio them aim de.
sad sad.
but was fun las.
hahas.
den at there slack awhile.
jiu go my 3rd uncle de house.
well, normally there will be alot of people gambling at my 3rd uncle house.
but this time, they just reach home only.
so no ppl there yet. get a few ang bao.
jiu go my 5 jiu de home, they also jus reach home too.
den at there slack watch tv dao 6+ den go another relative house.
my da jiu house.
den there alot ppl, gambling there.
ahahahas.
my da jiu is living at my old home yi qian i live de.
at serangoon north.
jus above our old unit.
ahahahas.
den at there slack again.
den my big bro go gamble once.
play the bingo.
den use 10 dollar earn 70 dollar ._.
den after that.
wanted to go find my dad de.
but he say he busy.
tell us next time den go find.
jiu went to vivo eat mache.
90+$
ahahahs.
my big bro chu qian =)
den jiu go home le.
den i go andy house to stay overnight.

28th jan

well.

i didnt really slp alot.

(cus wanna see xiu yan go sch)

but den.

i went to market with andy.

den didnt make it to see her.

sadded.

ahahahas.

den i suddenly gastric pain ==

10+ jiu go home le.

den jiu go slp dao 5+ i think.

cus today my big bro say want bring us out.

around 7-8pm den will come back sg fetch us.

so i ask andy want to come along anot.

cus is go play pool.

and andy came my house around 7.

but my big bro reach home at 10+

boooo.

we waited very long for him sei.

den he bring us go bugis play.

the ball was too high quality le.

den me and andy bu xi guan.

lolol.

was funny.

den is exp also de lo ==

12$+ per hour.

at amk also haven reach 10$

lolol.

but the good thing is, it open till 3am+

so we can play at very late.

lolol.

we play dao around 2am.

den decide to go le.

went to eat supper.

but only me and andy eat.

roti prata xD

lolol.

after that jiu go home le.

29th jan

woke up at around 2+ i think.

was asked to go ys house play.

but i had to wait for baoling to come take the dog. (thats wad i tot)

told xian and jin to come my house first.

den go ys house tgt.

so we stayed at home till 5+

tot baoling will come take dog.

but is false infomation.

is my big bro coming back at 5+

well. its the same.

so we went to ys house.

after getting directions from ys.

we reached his block.

and saw xiao ying (ys's sis) coming out from lift.

heng heng.

so we asked her to bring us to their home.

got rui jie, me, xian, jin, mei ting there.

den sit at there watch tv until show finish.

jiu go in play 21 point.

gamble money.

with ys the cai shen ye.

at first i don't wanna play one.

den keep see they all play.

the rui jie and ys keep tell me to join in.

so i finally joined in.

used 2 dollar change some 50 cent

den i keep use 50cent to play.

den in the end.

i won the most.

5 dollar.

and ys lost the most.

his the banker.

ahahahas.

was lame.

but fun.

den around 8 20.

we went out of ys house.

go down find rui jie and mei ting which stepped out of ys house earlier den us to go eat.

den we take bus and mrt jiu go home le.

reach home jiu go slp le.

30th jan

den keep cant slp.

jiu come out play cabal.

thats around 2am.

(so considered this part as 30th jan)

den awhile later.

my big bro fren tell me to take over him playing the majong.

so i take over.

and played till 7+

i still not really that tired.

and xiu yan wake up le.

so i busy sms with her le.

didnt slp until a period where xiu yan has to do math test.

and didn't msg me until 2 hours later ==

cus she keep want me to go slp but i insist on want to sms.

ahahahs.

so she didnt sms me den i will slp ma.

not fair =(

den at 11+ jiu wake up le.

xian reach my home around 12 i think

den we go andy house.

meet up with andy and liyan.

den go cwp meet with qixin, brant, jeff and 2 girls.

thats about 2 45.

den xiu yan also happens to be at cwp.

concidence xD.

but den i dun know how to communicate with her.

im so sad.

well.

xian gets along well with every girl.

im envy x.x

den we go partyworld.

me andy and xian nvr went in.

instead, we went to starbucks drink coffee.

ahahahas.

was expensive de lo.

but xian pay some for me =p.

den we at there drink dao 5+

jiu go walk walk.

den go partyworld find they all.

den stay inside dao 6 15 den go le.

cus liyan need go home.

den andy and xian came my house play majong.

around 8 qx also came to play.

den we play dao 9.

they all want go home le.

so stop playing le.

xian and qx went home.

andy stayed at my house watch show.

dao 12 den go home.

ok.

thats the story that had happen to me this past few days.

already cut short alot le ==

btw.

i was thinking.

its not bad if i can just see xiu yan.

talk with her.

thou in real life.

i seldom talk to her directly.

but in sms we talked alot more.

im so happy.

and can see her this few days.

super happy.

maybe just let me keep see her jiu hao le.

well.

even if she with me also not good.

might as well don't think about stead all those.

but think about how to sms and chat with her ok le ==

ahahahas.

okok.

i going to slp soon.

tml also need go out.

and tml xiu yan coming out with me!

im sooooooo glad ><

blehhs.

ahahahas.

so bye~

take care all.

thats called love.

2009-01-27T03:35:00.003+08:00

well hello guys.
here to post le.
sorry for not posting at CNY.
but still wish you all happy CNY.
was kinda lazy to post.
wasnt in the mood of posting too.

well.
ytd my family didnt go out to bai nian.
except my big bro which went to da sao grandma house bai nian.
maybe we would go bai nian today.
sad diao. no ang bao's for me(.
no choice.
we had to wait for my big bro to bring us there.
cus den got car easier.
well.
thats too bad.

a bad news now.
my feeling are unstable again.
and its to the same old ppl.
well.
this few days our communication gets more and more.
and that bring back all the feeling.
i already had a time being didnt think about her already.
now all feeling coming back.
damn sia.
and now heard she stead again le.
my heart pain again.
damn damn.
im always there to see the one i love to stead and break with other people.
what life is this.
and now think about it.
im borned to be unlucky.
i've nvr been really lucky be4.
im know as destroyer at my house.
becus everything i touch always spoil.
those technical things.
like computer and ps2 all those.
thats unlucky.
in game too.
always unlucky.
in love too.
always unlucky.
well.
what am i lucky at.
even it happens.
it wasnt something big.
becus i couldnt even rmb it.
always i wish what.
the opposite came.
maybe i should try wishing i dont die.
maybe the next day u would join my funeral.
zzz.
its utterly rubbish.
i can't believe that these things are always happening to me.
haiz.
what can i do.
ps. not in the mood anymore.
i will stop posting.

2009-01-25T18:41:00.002+08:00

hello~
rare to see me post at the afternoon right.
ahahas.
new year eve le~
wish everyone happy niu year xD
i slept at 9am today xD.
and woke up at 5+.
just played finished cabal.
den come out post.
was sian diao ._.
my rare item was gone T_T
ahhh~ u all wont understand xD
hahas.
now keep watch bie ai wo.
by hu ge and vivian.
i sleep so "early" is becus i keep watch dao morning.
lols.
hahahas.
going to finish it le.
left 4 ep.
hahas.
ok le
not much to post.
nth happen too.
hahas.
bye, i go continue watch =D

2009-01-23T22:58:00.002+08:00

argh! today i slept for 4 hours only!
nooooooo.
well.
i watched bie ai wo until morning 9+
and woke at 1+.
woke by 3 idiots =D
which is liyan, qixin and a unknown shy girl (woots.)
well.
what funny is.
they knock on my door.
and my big bro and da sao open the door.
they thought they went to the wrong house ==
so they called me to come out open door.
(that was lame.)
they asked me to go with them to lunch.
and i changed and went with them to find another victim.
which are also sleeping.
TADAH! it is HALF A DEER.
so we went to cwp tgt.
they went to bought present for dunno who.
and qixin with the unknown girl left
(omgosh. they pang sei! T_T)
there goes.
im the light bulb now.
me, andy and liyan went to eat pasta.
argh.
super bright me.
sian diao.
den at there saw dao hiro they all.
they also at there eat pasta.
talk for awhile.
jiu go le.
den jiu wanna go take bus home de shi hou.
my mum called me and asked me to go help her work.
den i go lo.
so work dao now.
came back home.
jiu post =D.
guai right.
lolol.
hao hao.
lets end it.
bye.

*blank*

2009-01-20T02:11:00.003+08:00

awww.
i will be changing blogskin soon.
but i need to know how to remove navbar.
and also.
its a old blogskin i used before.
but since the people reading my blog are new.
might as well use it.
ahahahas.
except for xian.
lolol.
ahahahas.
anyone knows how to remove navbar can tell me?
on msn thats it.
ahahahas.
thx in advance xD

2009-01-18T21:49:00.002+08:00

well.
i'll apologise for any offence in my previous post.
i'm abit emotional during writing those post.
but there's something i wanted to say.
there's always good or bad about things.
if you only look the way you look.
you will never know what humans are really thinking.
if you study psychology.
you should know that.
when people tends to have some emotional problems.
often negative thinking would become their positive.
and it would be reasonable to them on their own aspects.
this are human.
you can't change the way they are born with this.
emotion are hard to control.
well.
if you people stand where you should.
of cause.
those thinking are rubbish.
when you come over to my side.
you would find it reasonable that why i said that.
its how human thoughts go around.
thats all i wanted to say.

well.
yesterday went to buy shoes with my bro and chee leong.
went to queenstown.
walked around the shop for hours and hours.
can't find the ideal shoe for myself.
and after trying out so many shoe which wasn't what i want.
and shoes i want are out of stock (my size)
i decide that i gonna try this shoe as last.
if still wasn't what i want.
i'm going home.
and yet.
it's comfortable.
it's my taste ;)
so bought it at 100+.
heart pain.
oh well.
lets don't care about it.
then went home.
played cabal until morning 5 30am.
then went to sleep.

as for today.
had a very bad start of the day.
i wanted to have a very nice sleep today.
but.
early in the morning.
jin sms me.
and woke me up.
sms with him a few rounds.
and i told him i wanted to go back sleep.
so stopped.
and i thought i can continue have a nice sleep till 4pm.
then here goes xian sms me.
asking me still wanna go pool.
so replied.
after few rounds of sms again.
went back to sleep.
and then.
i was disturbed again.
this time is my 3rd bro.
he called me say dad's coming over to my house.
oh and what the hell~
super du lan already by that time.
then.
went back to sleep again.
and my dad called me.
so i wake up again.
and this time.
cannot go back to sleep.
it was only 11am only.
and i had to wake up to open door for my dad.
argh.
so i go and use comp.
watch some anime and manga.
then dad's here.
and blah blah blah.
at 4+ i guess
me xian and andy meet le.
jiu go amk play kpool.
got ask alwin to come along one.
but he couldn't make it.
well.
so we 3 played on our own.
i felt that i've improved a lot.
happy =)
after that.
went to amk hub eat.
at first wanna go to swensen eat de.
cause andy got coupon.
but at amk hub eat le very full le.
so never go swensen.
ahahahas.
and we reach home at around 9 30 + bah.
ahahahas.
played awhile cabalsea.
jiu come out post.
i'm ready to head for my bed.
super tired.
ahahas.

so good luck everyone.
cyas~
nights~ xD

*feeling empty*

2009-01-16T03:45:00.004+08:00

ok, here i go!
i'm here.
because i'm pure bored.
come on.
i'm lonely this few days.
can you see why?
well.
let me explain.
andy have to accompany his girlfriend.
xian have to work all day.
jin never onlines more then 1 hour.
alwin don't online often.
well.
all my best friend aren't there for me~
every night.
during this time.
i staring at this screen nothing to do.
in the past, at least got andy to chat with.
and alot more people.
now.
school reopens already.
everyone has to go school.
whose there to pei wo?
argh.
this is sad...

sometimes i went to the windows or door
look outside.
it feels really good.
well.
environment really can calm me down xD
i love sky~ i love sea~ i love ocean.
i love sea breeze.
all this makes me feel so good.
just by looking at them.
makes me feel good.
well.
i wish i can feel the sea breeze again.
u know.
these things always let me think alot of things.
uhm, mostly should be sad things ba.
cause i'm a sad boy.
argh, maybe no one understands either.
what really happened to me every single day.
as you all couldn't be with me 24 hours.
but i'm still wondering.
why so many sad things happen to me.
such a headache....

sometimes.
i think that.
cancer isn't a bad thing if it really can occurs at me.
well.
at least with this few months of living.
the people around me would be extreme nice to me.
i get what ever i wanted.
well.
think about it.
people will start to treat you good.
because they know you are dying soon.
it's so good.
and i can hack care of what will my future be.
and just live the life i want.
and then die off like that.
wow.
isn't it great.
somemore.
i would think.
i can be ever more cheerful then now.
really.
now i have to worry this and that.
learn that i have to die soon.
can make all worries gone.
you know you won't live long.
and hack care what will happen in the days after.
it will go like.
wow!
i wish i can tio one if i can....

by the way.
now that everyone busy with their lives already.
this blog getting dead silence soon too.
no people reading it either.
maybe just few.
ahahahas.
know why my blog before this died?
is because i know no people reading le.
its like i'm posting for nothing already.
ahahahas.
well.
thou i kicked the habit of writing some craps at my handphone.
but i guess.
it's just a way to let my feelings out rather then trapped in my heart.
sharing it with my handphone
hahas..

andy and liyan.
this couple.
i am so envious of them.
i also wish i could have a girl.
which i could get up in the morning.
bring her to school.
now you know why i always sleep for so long?
it's because, i have no idea what i should wake up for.
stare at computer screen?
make my eye spoil?
i rather continue sleep and sleep.
at least time passes by more faster like that.
if can forever don't wake up.
best man.
don't wanna trouble so many things.
hahahas.
well.
did you all notice that i wrote.
should i or should i not.
thats a question i've been asking myself.
well.
did you know what i'm really asking myself about?
it's love.
i wonder whether should i fall in love again?
i'm so worried.
i got so many bad memories of love.
bad impression.
filrts filrts filrts.
the ones i love.
are always people who flirts.
(this is no offence to those people.)
(ask yourself if you are or not.)
(i'm stating only facts.)
i don't wanna get the feel of broken heart anymore.
it hurts alot.
it's painful.
it's something i don't want to feel once again.
no more.
what should i really do.
i've always looking for wrong partners.
it's so scary........

now i not working le.
income has stopped.
but i'm still wasting money.
playing pool.
buying clothes all those.
this saturday have plans on buying shoes with my bro.
this sunday have plans on playing pool with xian they all.
money is another problem.
it's so hard to earn.
it's so easy to spend.
well.
my dream.
create a mmorpg.
which can hit on global.
makes a fortune out of it.
i wonder if i could ever do it.
it looks like such a faraway dream.
a view on it is like a ant.
no matter how much i walked infront.
it's still so small.
it's like infinite miles away.
am i not getting closer?
now.
look at my O level result.
it's in a big mess.
how can i achieve it with this type of result.
even if i could get into the course i wanted.
could i handle it?
would i give up?
even if i can handle it.
could barely create mmorpg.
would it hit on?
would it be even popular in local?
can it even be noticed by outsiders?
faraway dream.
infinite miles.
no matter what i do.
i'm always on the same spot.
i'm ain't moving at all.
thats what i can say.....

i'm so far away.. so far away.... even my love is so far... no matter how it looks.. everything is so far...
my dream.. my love..

2009-01-14T23:04:00.003+08:00

hi guys.
was really too bored le.
so decide to come post.
ahahahs.
today super de sian lo.
totally dunno wad to do.
wake up 1+
come to living room.
on comp.
and den.....
stare.
wth?
lolol.
watch finish show le.
game play until sian le.
also no anime to watch le.
also no ppl to talk to in msn.
qx went to do hwk and no ppl to sms le.
totally.
SIAN~~~~
whole day stuck at home.
breath in some unhealthy smoke.
my da sao smoking.
den i at there breath in everything.
think i gonna get lung cancer soon.
lolol.
im bored im bored im bored.
anyone can save me~
but den.
im lazy to go out =x
ahahahas.
find me to chat in msn or sms!
sms i unlimited free.
no worries.
want sms jus sms xD
ahahas.

well.
i submitted my choice for course le.
hmms.
11 poly courses.
1 ite course.
but den.
i think poly hard to get in de bah.
so that ite course can safe coast myself.
lols.
ahahahas.
wish me good luck bah xD
jia you ming yi!
lolol.
abit zi bi lols.

news here!
andy said if he go in his 7th choice.
he would treat me to eat.
lets us wish him go in to 7th choice! ahahahas
as for me.
he said 6th choice.
if i go in 6th choice, i treat him.
but den.
6th choice is not wad i wanted to go in -.-
lolol.
ahh.
who cares.
all those course.
only 1 course i like.
and thats in the first choice.
the other all i don like.
so no matter wad choice i tio.
also same de la.
cfm wont 1st one.
lols.
ahahahas.

hmms.
ok.
no more news le.
ahahahas.
i stop posting here le.
cyas~

LETS GO!

2009-01-13T07:39:00.003+08:00

hello.
came to post le.
ytd took back result of O level le.
well.
badly done.
got 25 point.
well.
scored an A2 for my science.
but failed my english and humanities.
maybe cus of my english very bad.
den make my humanities also fail.
cus humanities also basically on how u express your thoughts.
but my english could maybe make the markers dont know how to understand.
im quite sad about it.
cus i got study some humanities.
wish could at least get a C5 or C6.
but den.
it came with a D7.
i guess now only ite route le bah.
with 3 subject passes.
wonder how i going to poly.
lets not talk abt it le.

before getting results.
elliott, jin, andy and andy's mum came my house meet.
den we go sch tgt at 2.
reach there.
the briefing already started.
den we sit down tgt with our class.
and den take result.
while waiting for my turn.
clement lee came.
and say.
"beng ghee, very good. i think you score A2 for science."
thats when i started to felt nervous about O level results.
i couldn't believe it.
i was so happy about it.
and he said to andy that andy didn't do up to expectation.
hong jin he dunno.
well.
when i go there.
ms ng say
"beng ghee, you passed only 3 subject."
it totally clash up with my feeling.
its totally. what the hell?
then what are my A2 for.
go to hell with it?
i thought i could at least get all pass.
and that freaking stupid english.
hong jin get all pass.
and he got my desired point. 21 point.
well.
he done the best within ourselves.
andy got 24 point.
his science got a B3.
so afterall.
my results are the worst of worst.
whats the point getting good result when the major result is all shit?
look.
it's totally same.
before N level.
my results are always so good.
but when N level.
my result are like shit.
totally not like those prelims or wad.
O level also.
thou my prelim was done badly den O level.
but the O level isnt up to expectation.
i thought i could at least score a 22 point.
and a all-pass.
but it came out this shit.
my combined humanities doesn't fail be4 in my secondary life.
but my O level failed.
totally crashed.

after getting the results.
went out with andy to go 768 cut hair.
he cut only.
den wait for alwin to come.
went to eat.
den tgt went to amk play pool.
played till around 9 15.
we went home.
andy came my house with me to get the JAE booklet.
and den both of us went over to andy's house.
stayed overnight there.
during around 11 30.
i called xian.
at phone chit chat.
talk abt course de thing.
see he want to go which course.
till 1+
andy's mum back.
she bring us out to eat supper.
as a "celebration"
well.
i guess i deserve this type of point.
cus i didnt even work hard for the O levels.
what can i expected from myself.

so.
slp around 3+
to 4+
wake up.
and cant get back to slp le.
den suddenly feel like vomitting.
whole body not feeling well.
lie on the sofa.
want slp cannot slp.
den jus lie there until 6+
andy's family all wake up le.
so i get up.
by the time not really feel like vomitting le.
just felt dizzy.
guess im too slpy but den cant get to slp.
eye abit pain.
den wash face le.
not really slpy le.
this time.
a sudden emo-ness rush up to me.
totally felt moodless.
some more saw dao xiu yan.
really dont feel like talking at all.
so i just sit on sofa.
staring into the blank space.
now still abit moodless.
but better le.
den got think abt things.

well.
look at this conversation btw me and andy before the result.
(its over 12 am so should be 12th.)

(2:14 AM) dReaMsX - i coul:
tml got wad plan
(2:14 AM) dReaMsX - i coul:
after result
(2:14 AM) -╔ AishTⓔяυ ❤ ╗:
go die
(2:14 AM) dReaMsX - i coul:
wow
(2:14 AM) -╔ AishTⓔяυ ❤ ╗:
group suicide
(2:14 AM) dReaMsX - i coul:
k
(2:14 AM) dReaMsX - i coul:
i don wan
(2:14 AM) dReaMsX - i coul:
folo
(2:14 AM) -╔ AishTⓔяυ ❤ ╗:
-.-
(2:14 AM) dReaMsX - i coul:
my life's getting better le
(2:14 AM) dReaMsX - i coul:
LOL

well.
i did mention abt my life's getting better right.
thats the main point i want to highlight.
now.
i dont really think so.
i also dunno why i said that.
come on.
my result are in a big mess.
my love are totally out of order.
i've just wasted a bunch of money that i earned.
i've lost my job. (my mum got a helper that replaced me.)
and i dont know what is the next step of my life.
can you see.
my life's aint getting anywhere better.
it's getting god damn poorer.
i have nth to say.
i really dunno what should i do.
and ytd i spend my day with all laughters.
i think my mind's got abit of problem.
i guess im going to crash soon.
im happy?
its bunch of craps.
who would know if im not showing.
im freaking sad inside.
felt like stabbing myself with a knife to release those sadness.
its trapped inside and suffocating me.
what should i really do.
i dont know..

i really dont know...

2009-01-11T22:03:00.002+08:00

y0z!
here to post some crapsss.
hmms.
to say the truth also dunno wanna write wad.
lolol.
cus like nth to post.
oh ya!
thats it!
monday coming.
and its o lvl result released date.
awwww.
i have no feeling abt this at all.
lolol.
cus i dont care what ever shit point i get.
as long as i can go in wad i want.
even if cannot poly.
there's always an ite for me =D
well.
jus wish that i didnt go for wrong course.
later teach those things i didnt want.
it will be god damn good game.
lolol.

oh ya.
10th jan.
ytd.
(i cant believe i dream abt that =.=)
(well cant tell u all wad is it.)
(but a strange dream.)
(hoho)
went to tp to find my bro.
at 4+ went out of home.
take bus there.
sit on bus for 1hour plus.
looking thru the window of bus.
i dont feel that bored.
dunno why.
ahahaha.
sms with qx and andy.
but that andy went np with liyan.
nvr jio wo!
boooo!
den he very slow reply.
i send him 2 msg le.
den he will reply.
-.-
so mostly is sms with qx.
no ppl to sms le.
ahahaha.
den reach the interchange le.
actually i didnt really go to TP.
i at interchange wait for my bro to come.
freaking slowpoke xD
den i at the bus drop off point wait my bro.
a survey girl came to me and ask me do survey.
den do finish le.
at there chat with her.
lols.
that survey is abt jobs de.
(den today she called.)
(said the company audition, i'm qualified.)
(i was like huh? im not interested.)
(lolol. what surprised me is.)
(she said if she can call me and chit chat.)
(hohoho.)
(its like first time a girl told me this.)
(very song xD)
ok.
back to topic.
den chat awhile le.
(well our communication was bad.)
(i dont know how to talk to girl =x)
jiu say bye bye le.
i dunno wads the impression i gave her sia.
cus its like i giving an impression showing that i didnt wanted to talk.
LOL.
ahahaha.
its not that i don wan to talk.
is i dunno how to talk.
thats why im quiet.
LOL.
=x=x
after that.
my bro reach le.
we went to bugis buy clothes.
used up 200$. (aww thats my pay =( )
(tgt with my spec. cost me 200$ too.)
(and my bro new piano keyboard. used up another 250 again.)
(i've wasted 600+ =( )
(my pay is all used up.)
after that jiu go home le.
was abit tired.
ahahas.
den today.
whole day audi.
ahahahas.
den now waiting my mum bring food home.
eat le jiu go slp liao.
tml meet elliott, jin and andy tgt take result.
ahahahas.

cya guys.
byeeeeeeeeeeee

should i or should i not?
thats a question i've been asking myself over and over again.

2009-01-10T05:26:00.002+08:00

hello guys.
sorry for not posting the past few days.
actually is i quite lazy.
also that the viewers are getting lesser.
its like no meaning for me to keep posting.
ahahas.

well.
this few days.
let's talk about the major things only bah.
as for major things.
i guess only one thing.
it's on 8th jan.
me, andy, hong jin and elliott went to nyp open house.
actually is want 9th go for the night open house.
but since evergreen sending their pupils to nyp open house too.
we decided to tag along.
well.
i decided is cause i know andy would want to.
so he can use this time to see his liyan.
so.
afternoon around 12.30pm andy came my house.
we wait for jin and elliott to shop finish at cwp.
before they go cwp.
they went to rp open house.
they said until like its a abandon place like that.
no people de.
ahahas.
den at 1+.
we met at mrt last cabin.
then took off to yio chu kang mrt station.
then we follow people to nyp.
cause we didn't know how to get there.
so follow some school teenagers.
and just nice.
they really went to nyp.
so we reach nyp.
at there walk walk.
go in their open house talk.
then saw gene was at there.
as you all know.
andy's always like that.
so i followed andy and went out.
jin and elliott followed gene to walk around.
then i decided to call joseph.
and he also at school.
but he was studying.
but he still came to find us.
he came le.
what funny is that.
we dunno how to get the goodie bag ma.
so we ask joseph to help us take since he is senior.
then he keep don't want.
so i walk to the counter.
before i walk dao there.
a girl came to ask me if i need a guide.
(know what? andy and joseph say cause i'm too shuai. out of 3 of us. she came to me. what shit is this!?!?!? =.=)
so i asked about how to get a goodie bag.
she told me to register at the counter.
then put the slip in the container so we could get into lucky draw.
so i went to take the slip.
together with andy.
then when we was writing.
another person came to us.
well.
same, he engaged me.
(this time can't be because of i'm too shuai le bah. =.=)
so talk talk.
he said.
why didn't you all took the bag?
i replied him with huh? how to get it.
then he said oh. when you get the slip, they would give you.
(but they didn't .___.)
so he took us and ask for bags.
oh oh.
before i missed out.
he asked if we are secondary students ma.
joseph was nyp 3rd year student.
but he say he was evergreen student.
super funny.
waiting for O level results too.
ahahas.
then the person get us 3 bag.
but joseph don't want.
and he gave it to me.
and i took it.
(till home =.=)
then joseph took us walk around and get to know the enginneering block.
then he said he need to go back to his class.
so i asked joseph if he knows where choon huat.
(ah sry. haven't tell you all. joseph and choon huat are my bro's friend. 3 years older then me and they both are from nyp)
then he said he doing the tour guide job.
so i gave him a call.
he told joseph to bring us to the carpark 17.
as we don't know where him.
so joseph took us there.
then meet dao huat le.
at there talk with him.
as long as wait for evergreen bus to come.
cause evg bus will stop at carpark 17.
just nice.
so until 2 15.
the bus came.
and saw qixin and liyan too.
well.
then after that.
we followed liyan's class everywhere.
until they gone in the lecture room.
then went to the canteen.
we drink lemon barley.
den at there slack slack.
nothing to do.
finally decide to find liyan again.
and andy sms-ed yu hui.
and get to know they are at block S.
engineering block.
ahahahas.
lucky joe took us to walk around.
told us that the nyp structure was one long corridor.
easy to walk.
though joe only took us walk block R only.
but since we know where block R already.
and the engineering block was at the far end of nyp.
we went there.
walk further in.
saw other block but not S.
so we gong diao.
so we ask abit.
know block S is infront only.
so we walk.
then lucky yu hui sms say go inside got 1 staircase go down.
so we saw the staircase.
and that makes sure that we ain't going wrong.
so we went down.
and yes!
we found liyan.
and thats where we followed allllll the way.
until they finally get into a room for another lecture.
we waited outside.
and very fast.
they came out le.
said evg bus going to take off le.
need hurry.
so we also hurry back to admiralty.
and i went home.
andy i not sure le.
cause seperate ways le.
ahahahas.
then reach home.
eat the food my mum brought back.
(it was from 2pm+ de food. it gone sour ._. today morning i lou sai -.-)
then i very tired also.
so play awhile comp.
jiu close it le.
then sleep at sofa.
till night.
watch yi zhi mei.
then went to play comp again.
till morning.
then go sleep.
thats the next day ledi.
not much happen.
actually wanted to go poly de.
but suddenly they say they go tp.
(at first was np. and we decided to go there.)
then it was far.
and not many of us wanted to go.
and saturday i need go tp to find my bro.
so i don't want to go there twice.
so at home.
played whole day audi.
now cannot enter entry le.
cause level 6 ledi.
have to get thrash by pro at novice liaos.
ahahahas.
den watch 黑糖瑪奇朵
introduced by andy.
watch until now.
den wanted to post.
ahahas.

sorry for this long winded story agains.
xi guan jiu hao.
i'm not really good at english summary.
so i also can't really sumarized this.
so just write whatever is in my mind.
ahahahas.
good luck to everyone!
going to sleep le.
nites!

i wanted to taste a love too... but i'm worried.. afterall.. i've been hurt too much already...

2009-01-05T02:24:00.007+08:00

well hello.
lets talk about what happen this few days.
and there's something i've decided on.
this time.
i'll cut it short.
i'll try to post in good english too.
ok, lets begin.

During 2nd january, afternoon.
i was sleeping throughout.
don't blame me.
i'm known as a pig.
as for the night.
andy came my house to stay again.
he wanted to wait for his comp to come.
and again, we played rappelz by turns.
andy sleep at around 4am i guess.
i wasn't too sure either.
but i'm certain that i've slept at 7 30am.
been rappelz-ing and manga-ing through the night.

it was 3rd january by then.
andy woke up at what time i didn't really notice.
but i woke up at 1pm+
wake by andy.
as he said sleeping too much wasn't good for health.
so i get up.
and we played rappelz again.
till 9pm +
his comp was brought back to my home first.
paid $30.
around 10.
we move the comp to andy's house.
and at there.
we connect everything.
checked everything inside.
making sure nothing was being taken out or swapped.
it was alright.
and at 11 30pm.
we went back my home.
cause xian said he wanted to come my house.
IF andy stays tonight.
so andy stays.
andy this time.
slept earlier.
around 1am he sleep already.
so i solo-ed rappelz and manga all alone.
till 6 30am before i turned in.

and it's 4th january already.
(before i go on my story.)
(HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO QIXIN.)
(sorry i didn't wish you on time.)
(to be honest. i forgotten.)
(i'm sorry.)
i don't know what time andy woke up.
and xian came my house too.
but i'm still sleeping.
until 4pm.
then they decided to go and eat.
so i wake up and wash my face and style my hair.
andy went on to his house first.
when i'm done.
xian along with me went to andy's house.
at there, we wait him while he install gunz.
and then started reading gantz manga.
soon enough, andy take something for us to eat.
so in the end.
we didn't go out to eat.
and we stayed at andy's house till 9 30pm.
then me and xian went home.
and i start playing rappelz.
until 1am.
andy came and play with me.
and until now.
he kept dc.
so he decided to stop for awhile.
so i came here to post.
ok.
that's my story for this few days.
happy reading.

as for my love life.
i've decided to let go of her.
i guess i really didn't have the chance to be with her anymore.
well.
i don't know if i can or not.
but i'll try the best of it.
if i'm determined enough.
that's all.
let's start anew of my life.
will i find another girl that i will love her for my life?
i wonder..

by the way.
i've changed my blog song too.
not as emo as the previous song le.
at least.
this has vocal.
enjoy~

awaits a true love...

2009-01-02T01:37:00.003+08:00

well well well
first of all.
happy new year to all.
thou i late 1 day le.
cus that day no time post.
i was at andy house till 1+.
den he came over to my house and stayed overnight.
so didnt post.
hehs.

well.
during 31 dec.
during afternoon.
me and xian went to do specs at admiralty mrt.
was fun.
we are crapping in the shop.
tgt with the person that attended us.
ahahaha.
den xian changed his frame.
well.
i change whole spec along with lens.
cus i think my this spec abit blur le.
hahahas.
den after that.
we go andy house visit visit him.
actually is i wanna go see xy.
ahahahas. (PAI SEH ANDY! if u see this =x)
den i at his home.
saw his internet cannot use.
den ask him to reformat comp.
but den.
its like making it more worst -.-.
den now.
need bring comp go repair. (PS AGAIN ><)
well.
cus i didnt know that the cd key was wrong.
so when reformat need cd key.
the cd key wrong.
jiu cannot continue le.
die die.
hahahas.
den i tot of going back my home and take my cd key.
nvr knew that.
i lost the disc -.-
didnt know where i put.
ahahaha.
super suay.
so we decide to ask my neighbour.
which repaired my comp de.
to help andy.
so andy also agreed.
cost shud be around 30+.
i decide to help him pay abit.
cus how to say.
he can use comp one.
now become cannot use.
lols.
sry sry =(
after that.
he at my house play rappelz
played until 11+
we went to andy house.
decide to take his CPU to my home.
cus my neighbour say if closer the price no need so high ma.
hahahas.
den we went over.
at there.
copy down all the cpu de code.
make sure nth was going to be changed.
safety precautions.
his dad ask us to do so one.
hahahas.
no choice.
after that.
we went to watch tv.
countdown.
den HAPPY NEW YEAR!
everyone wished each other.
except that.
i didnt wish xy.
she didnt wish me too.
cus i dunno how to communicate with her le.
somemore.
that andy there.
if i talk to xy.
he cfm at there (wow! or wadever shit)
lolol.
den she also on phone.
den jiu sua bah.
hahas.
den andy talking to liyan.
i di siao siao them.
hahahas.
den 1+.
brought the CPU to my home le.
watch dvd with my mum awhile.
den see andy play rappelz.
den i go sweep floor.
vaccuum floor.
lols.
guai kia =D.
den i tried to make the sofa bed.
not bad.
hahahas.
quite nice to slp.
den we take turn to play rappelz.
until 4+.
i went to slp.
dunno andy wad time slp.
forget ledi.
hahahas.
den he very early jiu wake up le.
jiu start playing rappelz.
i 1+ wake up.
den my turn to play!.
wahahaha.
den xian came my house at 5~6
den he brought our food too.
hahahas.
so eat le.
den xian go lie on sofa slp.
den i let andy play.
den i also go slp.
den slp dao 8+ i guess.
wake up.
den liyan dunno what time call him.
den he let me play.
den i play dao he finish talking at 9+.
den i let him play again.
den i wait till 10.
watch yi zhi mei.
andy went back home around 10 45.
den i continue watch yi zhi mei.
den jiu go play rappelz.
play dao now.
came to post.

ok.
XIAN.
THIS IS FOR YOU.
JIA YOU ON YOUR MANGA!.
DONT GIVE UP =D.
IM YOUR SUPPORTER!
#1 FAN OF YOURS!
WOOOOOOO! GOGOGO.

hahahas.
ok.
time to end my post.
sayonara. =)

wo hai shi hen ai ni..

2008-12-30T02:26:00.003+08:00

hello hello.
come to post le.
hmms.

on 28 dec.
when i stopped posting on 5+.
i went to clean the house. (guai right ^^)
but after cleaning.
only a few parts of my house looks cleaner.
ahahaha.
my house too messy le.
cant blame.
too many boys in my home le.
no ppl to clean either.
im the one whose always at home anyway.
hahahas.
den at 6 30.
alwin went home le. (he said he very bored haha)
den i continue cleaning.
den at 7+. (i think so)
andy woke up.
and after awhile.
he said he wants to go home too.
(forget what he said for the reason)
den i went to watch manga.
cus nth to do.
den my mum all wake up le.
i see manga till 10+
den i go slp.
until 1+.
andy sms me and said he want to come my house.
cus he very sian.
his comp de internet sot sot.
so.
he came.
and i only managed to slp less den 4 hr.
ahahaha.
den he at my home.
use lappy.
i lie on bed.
but cant get to slp.
dunno why very awake lols.
den he msn xian.
xian also very sian.
so told xian to come my house too.
and xian came.
den andy went to play psp.
xian also slp.
but also nvr really slp.
jus resting.
hahahas.
i also.
we all at there very sian.
den become xian play psp turn le.
it was damn funny.
he was playing the bubble game.
lame diao -.-.
till 4~5+
my da sao cook porridge.
i told them to eat too.
den finish eating le.
andy said he go home first.
cus want to chat with liyan.
(he said he might come back if xian stays.)
but in the end also nvr haha.
i continue to see my manga.
xian came and see together.
hahas.
den until 10 30.
he went home.
den i went to install rappelz.
to pei hong jin.
install dao lai 12am le.
den i go slp le.
cus cannot tahan anymore.

the next day.
wake up at 3+ (pig right x.x)
i slept more den 12 hrs!.
and somemore, its usually.
ahahaha.
den xian msn me and said wanna come my house.
so he came my house and slack.
he see me play rappelz.
and he play psp.
this time he play portable.
den we play until 5 15.
i go change.
den 5 30.
go work le.
he came to vista point with me.
hahahas.
cus he don wanna go home.
so pei me.
den at there slack dao 7.
den he go home le.
(cus he told his mum he will be back at 7)
so i do my work.
until 10 reach home.
start playing rappelz again.
till now.
den wanna come see manga.
but post be4 it =D.

okays.
stopping here le.
cya guys.
adios~

.................................

2008-12-28T05:04:00.000+08:00

well hello.
hahas.
i will try to make this short and sweet =D.

ytd. as in 27 dec.
afternoon played pool.
den after pool.
andy alwin and xian come my house at 9+.
played majong.
play dao 10 30.
xian went home.
after that we play 3 ppl majong.
played dao halfway.
my big bro came back home.
at first we tot they also wanna play majong.
but in the end.
only came and celebrate my big bro bday.
hahas.
and yea.
27 is my big bro birthday.
so at close to 12.
we faster celebrate.
took out the cake.
den tell andy and alwin come sing song together.
haha.
den finish singing birthday song jiu eat cake.
den went back majong.
den da sao de sis also join us.
cus we 3 ppl only.
so become 4 ppl.
den play 1 match
they gtg le.
den we all continue a few match.
jiu stop le.
den andy go play viwawa de wahjong.
den i and alwin play ps2.
also play awhile nia.
den andy go slp le. (at around 2-3+)
den alwin play dota.
i play ffx at ps2.
play awhile jiu go see him play.
den after that.
he lost =x.
jiu go play viwawa.
we try all sorts of game there.
den sian le.
i go play sushi go round.
online flash game.
den alwin jiu go slp le.
and play awhile.
also sian le.
jiu come post le.
alwin jus fallen asleep only.
hahas.
dunno what to do now ler.
hahas.

ok.
i make this so short and summarised is cus.
im tired x.x hahas.
so lazy go make so detail le.
hahahas.
ok le.
i stop posting le.
gl everyone.
cya =D

l0ves..

2008-12-26T02:18:00.000+08:00

hmms.
xiao yan had found herself a stead. hehs
congrats =)
im not sad.
really.
im really not sad.
its good that she can find a person she loves ya?
im happy for her.
well.
guess im having a tough luck afterall.
and im weak afterall.
i really do sux in love huh?
not emo-ing here.
just sort of.
feeling that im quite a weakling.
hahas.
now now now.
don feel any sympathism for me.
don pity me either.
hahas.
im saying all this isnt for sympathism from people.
just sharing with you guys what are always on my mind ya?
hehs.
sure.
i do feel sour in my heart.
but thats nothing compared to what happiness she could get.
just wish that she can be happy =)
to say the truth.
im glad she didnt choose me.
cus somehow.
i still couldnt forget my ex.
how pathetic can i be.
two boats huh? -.-
thats bad eh.
hahas.
what can i do.
maybe im just desperate hahas.
oh well.
for now.
i think no more relationship for me yea?
until i really found one i really can love for.
no more desperate anymore.
kays?
hahas.

sometimes.
im thinking that.
if my ex were to return to me.
i mean if ya?
who knows.
hahahas.
not cursing or anything.
pure innocent =p
should i..
umm.
how to say.
accept her?
wow. im talking like she wants me. -.-
and yet im the one who is keep wanting her.
ahahaha.
but that shouldnt be the case ya?
she wont be coming back.
i know.
and i know i shouldnt rely any hopes on it anymore.
the time to let go.
but when i let go.
i felt myself lost.
all i wanted is to love.
and to let go.
no one to love.
its like a blank route for me to walk.
where to walk?
i dont know.
hmms.
dunno wad shud i do.
hahas.
and im glad.
that after these talks.
im not emo.
hahahas.
not bad.
not a force smile either =).
wonder why.
hahas.
well.
its not bad too.
smiling everyday.
i often told my loves one to do that.
smile smile smile.
everytime tell them smile.
hahas.

hmms.
christmas is over huh.
few more days till new year already.
what will my next year be?
a happy year?
a sad year?
lets just wait and see hahas.

waiting.. dreaming..

2008-12-25T19:47:00.000+08:00

hello!
first things first.
merry christmas to all =)
how sad.
today didnt go out.
no work too.
awwwww. ><
this few days stick at home watch anime.
chiong dao wan.
but den. nw chiong dao nth to watch le.
boooooo.
this sarks =(
lols.
btw im sick too T_T
i got flu and cough.
sadness.
haha.
tues and wed off for work.
today also off.
3 day off le.
60 dollar fly liao.
hahaha.

dunno wad to post le.
hahahhaa.
ending~!
buhbuaiis (dunno who de bb le)

what if i hate love? where they are only opposite meaning. hatel0ves.

2008-12-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

hello.
hmms.
today went to find my dad.
cause it was my dad's birthday.
i went to tiong bahru to wait my big bro.
as he told me 6 pm meet there.
he was late for half an hour.
so i used those half an hour walking around the plaza.
looking at computer de things.
the keyboards, mouse, thumbdrive and lots.
until he finally sms me tell me go taxi stand wait him.
den jiu went to dad's coffee shop.
went there.
eat some crabs and alot of food.
talk talk.
den prepare birthday cake for my dad.
den we poke 1 candle.
take picture.
light the candle.
den dad just blow it and take out -.-
cause he don't want so ma fan.
as in joking de la.
smiling.
all keep say where can like that.
lols.
den jiu eat some cake.
sit there hear they all talk abt fishing de things.
(totally dunno what they talking)
than after finish talking le.
big bro jiu drive us back home.
then in the car.
don't know why a sudden emo to me.
thinking about her nia.
then i wanted to sms her.
but dunno wad to say.
so i sms other people first.
then also got sms andy.
that idiot keep di siao me -.-
feel like struggling him.
then finally jiu decide to sms her lo.
then she was like.
don't like to sms me?
her sms end without more then 3 words like that.
always -.- only.
then it was like.
don't want to sms me.
but at least wanted to reply me.
fu yan like that.
was totally sad de lo.
then reach home.
think better don't sms her le ba.
don't irritate her le.
if not i will feel myself annoying (she will too).
then at home.
watch my big bro and da sao de sis playing portable 2.
haha.
see their 4B so pro.
but then their 6B cannot make it lols.
i also not bad nia.
cause me got train before in o2jam and o2mania de.
then jiu suddenly think dao o2mania.
so took it from my bro's lappy.
then jiu start playing it again.
i felt myself getting more and more noob.
yi qian can max combo de song now cannot le.
how sad.
i wanna get more pro~.
=(
hahas.
nvm bahhs.
i think i stopping here le.
hahas.
nth more to write.
cya =)

l0ves... her?

2008-12-21T02:16:00.001+08:00

hmms.
i wonder.
is it really hard to understand a person?
just now heard andy said.
i don't know her well enuff.
well.
after putting a few thoughts to it.
maybe it's for real.
she might be faking it?
oh my.
that makes me wonder.
she might really just faking it and who knows.
andy sure do know her more den i know her.
she maybe just freaking don't like me too.
maybe i'm just too irritating or whatever shit.
asked the bro what she doing.
but she was playing.
and my message wasnt replied as well.
how sad can this be.
haiz.
is this for real?
i wonder.
everything she said.
i kind of..
not really believe in it anymore.
it even makes me hesitate whether or not to talk to her.
i somehow not really believing in everyones words.
its like.
you see.
a person can lied all she wants to.
like my previous experienced.
sandy.
she's just a pure lier.
i couldn't believe what she really was.
i can't even trust that her name was sandy.
what was this.
tell u what.
i have zero-good impression on love.
everytime was just a bad impression.
negative totally.
and wow.
what is this.
am i really need to be tortured in anyway like that?
i only wanted a taste of true love.
but they doesn't give me.
the way they make me feel that.
they are toying me or whatever.
why can't i enjoy my life happily?
i want to step out of this love thingy.
but its like..
impossible?
i couldn't find the determination and encouragement to do so.
everytime i walk a few step away.
i couldn't control myself to keep on but to turn back.
its like im stuck in it.
i just don't know what i can use to explain what i feel now.
just..
hope you all can understand?
can i really trust human beings?
i wish i can..
as for her.
i really wish that.
i trusted you.
wasn't a wrong choice.

i'm confused.......

2008-12-20T17:11:00.001+08:00

backie!
i just got back home from cwp.
hehex.
went to watch bolt with andy and alwin.
wow.
was nice leiis.
not bad.
graphic good =p.
and was super funny de lo.
hahahas.
i "today" sleep on 5am+
wake up at 12.
den jiu go wash up.
12 30 went to andy house slack.
till 1 30.
andy turn to wash up.
den jiu go admiralty top up ez link and andy withdraw money.
jiu go cwp meet alwin at cinema ticket booth.
den we go down food court eat something.
was expensive -____-
my chicken rice 4$ -.-
but nvm.
hahaha.
den slack awhile
jiu go watch le.
go in.
but the show start already -.-
boooooo
dunno wad they done early early.
lols.
nvm.
jiu continue watch.
1 and a half hour later.
show end!
den jiu go home str8 le.
ben lai want ask them go pool.
but they got work.
so better let them go home rest.
jiu didnt tell them le.
and alwin also not really like to play pool mahhs.
haha.
pool rox ok?? xD
i love it~
wahahhaa.
ok le.
i think i don write so much.
to prevent dragonball to talk =x.
hahahaha.
cya all~
later~

l0vesYANx3

2008-12-19T00:08:00.000+08:00

helllloo~
hahahas.
ytd 18 dec de midnight.
me andy tabby and joseph went out to eat at 4am.
joe and andy come to my house meet first.
den we went to cwp to fetch tabby.
den walk our way back to 888.
we at there eat noodle.
(and andy is at there dunno chu wad stunt)
den he kns.
keep stress me.
and i think only andy understand y i like that say.
stupid sia him.
lols.
den we 4 eat finish.
went to my house.
at first.
dunno wanna do wad de.
den i decide that we play majong.
wooohoooo.
tabby the first to say she dunno how to play.
and she won 3 match from starting. consecutive somemore.
we all scare sia. lols
den me and joe.
play got tai.
must have 3 tai den can hu.
den kns.
keep want do qing yi se.
den tabby won.
waaaaaa.
den the 4th match.
i tell joe, lets not play 3 tai anymore.
very stress ._.
den the 4th match.
I WON.
WAHAHAHAA.
lols.
got 1 also very nice.
i won dao 8 tai.
not bad.
pong pong hu + flowers + da pai
cool man.
i love it.
hahaha.
den we play from 5+ to 9am.
den all jiu go home le.
den i jiu go slp~.
lols. den wake up at 4 45.
change clothes.
off to work!
and 10+ reach home.
saw the new hp.
but not mine T_T.
is my big bro de.
sad case.
den saw the new sim card.
weeeeee.
happy.
that was mine ;).
so.
i have a new no. le.
which is 96583128.
got unlimited sms.
slowly spam.
wahahahaha.
andy is my first prey.
next will be hong jin.
wahahahaha.
ok.
stop crapping here.
i stop posting le.
next time zai post.
cyas.

l0vesYANx3!!

2008-12-17T03:23:00.000+08:00

hah.
im going emo soon again lerhhs.
listening to those emo songs.
only remind me of my ex.
5 days.
short sweet memories then.
it's short.
but there's no sadness included in it.
maybe i'm should be happy about it.
what more could i do.
i only can think of her.
nothing more.'

by the way.
she got a new stead.
congrats. and a wish for you.
wish you both could last long.

well.
as for myself.
i think i have to wish myself good luck den.
i guess love really aren't suitable for me.
i also not sure of my own feelings anymore.
will i be able to handle it?
will i be able to hold it on to the end?
i just don't know.

hmms.
as for xian.
i also don't know what i can do for him le.
our kindness are being trampled.
what more can we expect from this type of treatment.
can we be not intolerant for this?
look now.
he always say that.
his alone.
but.
when we are trying to help him.
he refused.
he closed his door against us.
i don't know what more he want from us.
during that time in chalet.
we don't let you come with us.
also for your own good.
but you are just not thinking.
now that u are no longer in drunk situation.
but you still don't understand.
did you know that.
you just said a word.
which we are hard to forgive you for that?
but we wish to forgive you.
we only need. an apologise.
is that hard?
even if you don't want.
its okay.
but.
you make it worst enough.
you actually ignored us.
what the hell you are thinking?
i really don't understand you.
are you trying to tell us.
you don't need us anymore?
you got your own friends now ya?
we are now not as important as them le.
if so.
then im really nothing more to say.
i only can say.
good luck to you.
don't come complaining to us your lonely.
don't always go emo-ing in one corner.
and expect someone to comfort you.
if your attitude continues.
thats all.

now im thinking.
human's are really just.
too confusing.
they are like. monsters.
inhumans.
why?
they can be just as cruel as they wanted.
this is what i really agree.
even if you treat others good, kind, show them your care.
it doesn't mean that, they will.
and from there.
we should learn.
should we be kind?
being a kind person.
won't bring you a good life.
look.
most good people.
are also ending up so pathetic.
then what for, at the beginning you being kind?
what is kind?
kind is when you lost advantage to give another person the advantage.
and thats when people call you kind.
being kind.
means you are always losing out.
but when you are kind.
you did not gain anything that are KIND to you.
what if.
suddenly you just die off by any circumstance.
people do funeral for you.
and you are becoming dust.
and i ask you.
what are those kind gonna help you?
it's all are just like waste.
being treated for granted.
and when you died.
what did you gain?
nothing.
is it fair?
isn't like, it's better to be evil?
and evil is when you gain advantage from other people.
you are gaining.
even when you're dead.
its still a gain for you.
at least.
you have enjoyed your own life.
for god sake.
human's are just pathetic.
we are just so foolish.
we are all played by god's hand.
there's nothing we can do.
so afterall.
what can we do.
a kind? or bad person.
i really don't know what to choose between this two.
like the past me.
im always thinking about death.
until now.
i never think that.
death is a bad choice.
it's like.
if it can be ended.
it's really good.
nothing you should be bothered about anymore.
running away?
oh come on.
humans are always running away.
don't tell me that if your a hero to all.
and when you see a blade coming to you.
you won't dodge?
and let yourself died like that?
oh yes.
if your thinking about drama.
it's true.
but if in reality.
who does.
whats the point when you died.
for your name to be craved in a stone?
holy crap?
thats totally shit.
afterall.
your still dead.
there's nothing more.
what are respect from people you get.
a few bows?
and then walk away?
what is this again.
so.
what is running away?
when someone say she/he is trying to die.
people say.
you are trying to run away.
but craps.
so what if i'm running away.
there's nothing that have meaning for myself to live.
therefore i choose death.
i couldn't find any.
everyone just have to die.
what's the difference between it.

ok.
i think i'd better stop this.
i don't think i'm making a positive impression.
and please.
not to comment on this post.
just.
treat this that i'm crapping.
that's all.

2008-12-16T23:39:00.000+08:00

okays. now people are complaining.
my post are too long =x
but what more can i do.
i have to write so long.
so i can explain everything i wanted xD.
ok. i'll keep this post short den.
well.
actually this post also cannot be any longer.
cause this few days.
what happen?
nth -.-
at home.
sleep and play maple.
night go work.
ahahaha.
ytd i chat with tabby thruout the night.
12+ to 6+ AM somemore.
so cool.
i taught her some chemistry things too.
ahahahhaa.
i love teaching chemistry.
lols.
liyan also i got teach.
but i don't think i need to teach her one.
cause is i bigger den her.
at sec 5.
den learn more things nia.
she pure chem one.
somemore.
she go combined sci.
same lvl as me.
cfm can win me.
hahaha.

btw. i public my this blog le.
so go on an link me and tag me =D
no spams pls ><. tyty =x
ok le. i stop posting.
otherwise someone gonna spam my tag saying -
"STORYTELLING" or "LONG WINDED AUNTIE"
cool man. hahahaha.

l0vesYANx3

2008-12-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

y0z.
i come to post lerhhs.
haha.
at 13th dec.
i at morning wake up by hong jin de call.
and know wad?
his just outside of my door -.-
hahaha.
den i go open door for him.
its in the morning 9+ only.
and i sleep at 3+ x.x
tired nia.
lols. den i go wash up and change clothes.
den jiu set out to andy house.
den at andy house, slack dao liyan come.
den all slack slack slack.
wait until 12+.
we went mrt wait xian.
is super hot de lo.
cus i wearing jacket. (but i nvr regretted =x)
den xian late awhile.
den we jiu go amk hub play pool le.
we came and open table 17 (dunno why i remember so clearly)
and started playing.
first match. super sad dao......... ._.
i told jin to play with liyan first.
but but but.
i stress dao liyan? (wait i also dunno leiis)
she cried halfway the match -________-
i was like. omg? omg omg omg omg.
stun tio.
lols. den become i play with jin.
den won =p.
hahaha.
den andy pei liyan.
den andy play with liyan. (wait what is this sia.)
she play with andy like so happy. no problem at all.
wth? -.-
den seng came.
but her fren don dare come in.
(seng so late come cus he bring his fren here from yew tee)
den i also go out ask her come in.
finally tio drag in le.
den seng open another table 18 (wahahaha)
den seng fren jus sit there (for the whole period of pool-ing)
den i play with seng at that table.
got win got lose.
hahahaha. was fun.
den after awhile later.
our cai shen ye gan dang came.
alwin chong!
very long time no see him (still the same)
den he went to sit down nia.
ask him play with me don wan.
jin ask him play with him jiu play.
wah~~ sad daooooooo. hahaha
den we play dao 3.30 pm ++
rui jie elliott and zheng hua came.
we play a few last match.
jiu go to pasir ris thru mrt le.
den i at tampines there.
receive sms from xiao yan.
and guess wad, she also going downtown there de bbq.
omg. it was so concidence.
so we reached pasir ris.
andy liyan xian and alwin went to eat and go back to orchard to work.
den me seng jin stay at station to wait xiao yan.
rui jie elliott and zheng hua go to chalet first.
we at pasir ris mrt wait abt 15-20min.
den xiao yan finally reach le (first time saw her)
den we go to coastal sand resort nearby.
den she walk another direction towards her there le.
and wad is this!
she said she had to turn all the way back.
cus she want bring us to the coastal sand resort.
omg!!.
humphs! (shud be i pei her de lo ><)
den we went in.
super funny.
cus the unit is C02.
den we go in.
saw unit A, B, D but no C.
den seng at there crap dao i cannot take it -.-
den walk walk walk.
finally saw C which is jus beside A (shud be)
den go in.
sit at staircase with zh they all.
hahaha. den wait time passes.
play abit majong.
eat steam boat.
went upstair slack.
den close to around 11+
told xiao yan to call me. chit chat awhile.
den cus room very noisy, so i went down.
but talk awhile only.
my phone out of batt~ =(
how sad.
haha.
den jin. from beginning till night.
still finding food to eat.
super lame.
i only eat abit nia.
some fishball from steam boat.
prawnball. golden mushroom. green veggie (i still can count sei)
i eat de is before i go up the room de.
den at room. waiting for andy they all to come.
seng another lamer.
he keep at the bed side.
know y?
cus he don wan ppl to take his place.
den whenever he want go out.
tell me come take the place. LOL.
hahaha.
den i and seng and jin super high at 1+
we at there play blackjack (say wad test luck)
den high dao nth to say. use shout de.
LOL. den andy they all come le.
we downstair pei them.
den xian drink wine.
think he nvr drink be4 bahhs.
he nvr mix with something or water sia.
he want drunk dao siao issit -.-
heng got king kong help him =p
den at 2+
i andy and alwin decide to take a walk
had to ps xian cus he drink wine nia.
but he just wont understand.
we are just trying to help him.
not as in we distrust him to take care or wad sia.
but as in we really don't want him to go out for safety precaution.
he jus don understand. say we ps him.
nvm. we treat it as he drunk and talking rubbish.
so we went to cheers to buy drinks (alwin want to drink)
den we went to visit E hub, beside, the carpark.
LOL. we went to top floor at there crapping hahaha.
den we went E hub to walk walk.
went to bowling de place.
watch ppl play bowling.
super funny.
i go where.
say wa this one very pro.
den next throw, the person throw drain.
diaos. suay bai. =x
den when we on our way towards the beach.
jin called us.
said he want folo.
tgt with elliott. we 5 went to beach.
sit on chair talk talk.
den suddenly got crockroach (dunno how to spell ._.)
den it climb at elliott and jin de chair.
they jump LOL.
den we at there laugh.
so we move on to another area to chat.
den we walk walk walk, walk dao a place got chair alot.
den there got 1 stone which very near sea.
can slide down and u are drown LOL.
den i go there sit. they all don wan come =(
den at last, elliott came and pei me sit.
super shiock. sea breeze non-stop.
so song. hahaha.
den after awhile.
gene they all call elliott ask wher him.
so he told them.
and they come find us.
got gene, silvia, fleman, xian, zheng hua and rui jie.
den they all come sit with me and elliott.
left those 3 andy alwin and jin stillllllll sitting on chair talk
den got 1 part.
tupid siol -.-
cus silvia wear very short pants ma.
den she very cold. (at there say)
den gene behind me.
say "anyone infront got jacket de lend silvia la"
den at that time. beside only got kai jie fleman silvia and gene.
only me got jacket .__.
woot.
i at first. already got think wanna lend anot ma.
cus i see also know she will cold.
den but i don dare.
cus.. also dunno hw to say.
den i asked lo if she want jacket.
she say don wan worhhs.
den i know i shud jus lend her one.
but i jus dunno y cant take out and put on her.
LOL.
i wanted to put oneeeeeeeeeee.
but i cant even move my hands to take out -.-
maybe cus me too hum le =x.
hahaha. den in the end also nvr lend.
i wanted to go see sun rise de.
but started raining. boooo
cool man!. =x
den all started to go back.
me don wan~~ T_T.
but still hab to.
den xian dunno emo wad shit.
at there don wan come with us.
den me and kai jie walk behind him lo.
i know wad he will think.
he don wan ppl to folo.
but we keep folo.
like distrust him or wad shit.
wtv la.
we folo only got 1 reason.
we treat him as our fren.
we don pang sei for no reason.
if we can, we will.
i hack care wad he think.
den. it started to rain abit.
we jus keep folo him until finally we reached the chalet.
den we ton the night just like that.
reach chalet.
play cards with jin and alwin and andy.
den actually want wait e hub open cinema we go watch de.
but cannot tahan want slp.
don wan waste money.
alwin also say don wan watch le.
he very tired.
so we jiu go home at 8+
den at mrt.
i slp lo.
den reach home 10+.
den jiu bath.
jiu slp!!!.
wahahaha.
den i slp dao 8.
den come use comp.
play awhile maple with liyan chatting inside.
den jiu teach a new disciple, the legendary dragonball.
Qixin!
den after that. went back to maple.
tio andy at there kill and warp.
du lan. jiu come blog le.
den now qixin wait me blog dao she going to suicide le.
hahaha.
stopping here lerhhs.
good luck in reading huh =x

l0vesYANx3

2008-12-10T07:14:00.000+08:00

hello.
im back to post. hehs.
on monday.
went out with xian and seng.
we went to play pool at amk hub
(paiseh andy, u shud know y)
its was quite fun larhhs.
seng is a pro ;)
hahas.
first match, i lost.
know y?
cus i goal the black ball into wrong hole.
cool man!
totally sarks. blehhs =p
but i won quite a lot hehs.
we came out to play.
is cus that time i go with andy they all.
nvr jio seng out too.
lols.
so this time is seng turn.
and sun bian take files from xian to join our maple.
but in the end, the thumbdrive got prob ._.
ahahas.
den the last resort ._. send him my folder.
and cool!
he can play. FINALLY.
(he tried dl alot time but cant, gif him thumbdrive to pass him files. also cant.)
den after pool, we went to eat at food court.
hehe.
after we eat le. it was 9+ le
as xian need to reach home be4 10.
we went home.
and reached home, first things first.
go in maple wait deardear xD.
den everything is same as always.
inside maple crapping.
playing around.
waiting for 1 person.
thats all. LOL.

as for sunday.
which i forgot to post the previous post.
i went out with andy, liyan and xian.
it was 5 plus. when we reach cwp.
we originally want go there buy clothes all those one.
but nvr knew. liyan reach woodlands so fast.
so we at cwp meet with ly.
den we walk around cwp. (in the end only me buy 1 wallet ._.)
jiu go amk hub play pool le.
hahas.
fun fun!.
we open two table.
1 is me open.
1 is andy open.
but in the end got switch player to me vs andy, liyan vs xian.
haha.
and i treat liyan and xian also!
woots.
looks like im rich this few days. lols.
at food court eat.
i go buy dao 8$ sia.
cool man. waste money like no one business.
also dunno y.
maybe cus got work le.
feel that eat better.
is a joyful thing =x.
ahahas.
after that, ride mrt to marsiling (cause send liyan)
den ride back admiralty.
den go home.
reach home.
maple.
LOL!.
hahahas.

ok le. i going to slp le. have to go work later.
its 7 30 in the morning! my mum gonna kill me =x

l0vesYANx3. Waiting...

2008-12-08T03:57:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!
my first officially post on this new blog.
(ignore the one below. thats a post when im emo. anyhow write.)
hehex.
now i change my style on writing blog lerhhs.
using new line for each sentence.
hehex.
im new to this narhhs, testing out only.
if still not xi guan, i change back how i write yi qian.
haha.

well.. its been a very long time i done blogging.
my old blog has dead.
haha.
now i cre8 this blog to kill boredem sometimes.
hmms. did you know that a lot of things happen during this days im not around in the blog world?
ima just highlight big events bahhs.

i have a new stead. 10/11
but we break jus 5 days later. 14/11
u know that i love her a lot?
she might not knew..
but i guess those regular readers of my old blog knew.
did u know that she replaced esther in my heart?
i thought that esther could'nt be replaced.
but never knew.
a girl like her replaced.
now my mind are always full of her.
no more esther. no more other girls.
but.. she broke my heart.
she break with me without stating the reason.
im innocent did u know?
i just wanted a true love.
im sad.
now, she blocks me from everything.
not to say msn, even friendster.
her blog link was changed, or i was banned from her web.
i didnt knew.
even sms, she wont reply.
now i go her house, she jus plain ignore me.
(as in cus her kor is my fren.)
how pathetic.
and here im thinking of her always.
it hurts.
but now.
i think life's gonna continue ya?
just like me and esther.
i guess, i'll just leave it alone.
maybe i could find one more girl to replace her.
and i could love that girl with my heart.

hmms.. oh ya.
there's one funny scene.
i forgot it happen at what date ._.
but its totally craps.
i fall into a drain, AGAIN.
but this time, with andy.
cool ya? =.=
that day, andy and xian came to vista to find me.
after i fang gong, we decided to take night walk.
andy mentioned about cutting thru the buildings so we could reach home more fast.
never knew that.
we actually.. lost .____. (wow wth is this)
so we walk walk walk.
and we reached a park/garden.
it was very dark (10-11pm)
den andy say something crap.
which makes me went to chase after him.
(hoho here comes)
we ran and ran.
until a place where there are bushes.
nobody could knew.
behind those bushes, was a OPENED drain.
cool man.
and andy ran towards it without knowing it.
guess wad?
i think he has some sort of wings.
he actually can walk on air!
his first few steps he nvr fall into the drain.
and until i reach the drain too.
i fall str8 away into the drain.
and at the same time, he den drop.
it was like. wtf? =.=
if his first step to the opened drain and he dropped.
i could have stopped and prevent myself from dropping into it. =.=
but wth is this.................... dots
hai dao wo also drop -___________-
den. the innocent xian watching us playing around.
thought we done some magic. (cus the drain was behind bushes)
suddenly, the two kids running around has their heads gone.
it was like. wow? LOL.
den he went to see.
saw two zombies trying to climb out of that drain! LOL!
and wad magical thing happen is.
i was injured like hell.
and andy has nth happen to him. -.- (wth?)
and i have to slowly walk home with legs in blood! (not that serious, im exaggerating =x)
oh my! lols.
and xian said something i totally agree LOL.
he said, "drain is your best friend" (craps)
woot. yea i agree man.
i always fall into a drain.
maybe can treat as visiting them in a while =xx
hahahas.
and den, since we lost right?
now guess again. what happen?
we actually turn a huge circle after cutting.
we return back to vista point without knowing =.=
and den. finally we decide NOT to take shortcuts le.
den we went to andy house.
my leg getting serious.
i cant even bend my knees, each bend can make me feel like using a knife and slice it.
omgosh! =.=
heh. and i stay overnight at andy house.

well.. btw. i have started to work.
in vista point 2nd floor food court.
as a cooker in western food. night shift.
6 to 10. hehex.
actually its helping out my mum
she need worker.
haha..
quite good la there.
i can slack most time.
except for peak hours.
the rest, i just sit on the chair and build castle in the air. (craps? LOL)
haha.

btw.. i now playing DunnoMS (maple)
hosting by andy now.
quite fun inside.
i found alot new frens.
and now, im jio-ing a girl inside.
which is currently my maple darl xD
hmms. she's special, as in a girl.
yea. trust me. i dunno how to describe.
but i found her very special.
maybe she could be another one which can replace my ex.
hehex.
and i know good frens like nicholas and shuyi (tabby)
they are such good frens =D
also. my dear's fren. ahboy and jon
they are cute xD.
i love mixing around with them.
hehex.
if anyone wanna come play with us.
just go ahead and tells us.
its a maple for frens only. not public.
so tell me if u want to play ;)
we currently dragging ppl to come play.
cus sometimes. the server are getting lonely. (can understand?)
hehs.

OH YEAH. 28/11.
WHATS THAT DATE? ITS MY BDAY!
well.. not really alot ppl rmb huh.
i only receive a few sms wishing me happy bday such as jia hui and weldon.
sad nia. but.. this year de bday.
the most happy arh! wahaha.
cus my bro and big bro took me out.
on 26/11, my bro took me out to eat fish and co. at amk hub.
together with reeve and siang yee.
its full of jokes hahahaha.
after that, we went on to play KPOOL!
i love poooooooool =D
it was fun~!.
den on 27/11, my big bro bring me out.
heh, he brought me to vivocity (recommanded by da sao)
we went to eat macche (omg it's expensive ._.)
den, we went to.. umm i forget the shop name.
eat ice cream one.
and we ate fondo. ($40+ $_$)
haha.
both my bro spent alot on my bday ya?
hahas.
THX TO BOTH OF YOU! xDD
on 28/11, its my turn ;)
we organise a maple outing huh. some sort.
but in the end. became dunno wad outing le.
lols.
we have, xian, andy, liyan, tabby, nich and of cus me in the end.
(nich meet us hours later)
we played pool ourselves.
at first. we went there.
the person jus nice.
want to check the girls ic (zzzzz)
and just nice only the girls are underage.
wth~~ and we went out.
so we decide to go foodcourt eat first.
den decide wad to do later.
after eating. we asked if nich reach home.
so we can meet out.
and we finally meet nich.
so we try our luck and see if we can go pool again
(cause we really have nth to do, we try to checked everything we could do)
and YES. we're in heh.
and we started playing den.
it was fun. =)
well.. after that. at 5 pm.
we all have to go.
how sad.
is that dear and jon they all just reached.
but we have to go ><. how sad how sad. and i couldnt even see dear ><. (but managed to see jon, wei jie and loong)
she have yet reached amk hub.
and andy is rushing to get his hp.
so we went off.
i went to vista to work.
but after 3 days of playing.
im totally worked out.
cannot tahan.
so i told mum to take leave go home slp.
haha. and mum allowed =pp.
then, at night close to 12. 11+
i have my cake! and birthday song!
=D. and thats the end of my birthday.

well thats all for my post. quite a long one.
grats for those who managed to read all =x.
hahaha. good luck to all.

_____________________ l0vesYANx3

2008-11-14T16:23:00.000+08:00

haiz.. today.. totally no mood at all.. never thought we would end up so quickly.. its only 4 days.. is my life destinated to be like this.. the first love.. esther.. which i love her for almost 5 years but in return with nothing.. next.. is sandy.. to think i could be with her.. never know that she kept lied to me.. and she was just a flirt.. and how stupid am i was to stead with her another 2 times.. to let her play.. the world's ever stupid thing i've ever done.. next.. is xiu yan.. though we know each other for a long time since small.. but we never let another know.. we started loving each other long time ago.. should be.. this is what she told me.. who knows if it was a lied.. but i will trust all my loves one.. because.. i hate people who lied to me.. be untruthful to me.. and.. at 10/11/08.. we finally stead.. but.. 4 days later.. which is today.. she told me to become maple couple back.. and maybe she did not want to stead again.. my love life is totally messed up.. i don't know what should i do.. and i told myself.. i don't want to get in love anymore.. i don't want to be sad and heartbroken anymore..